I tried to be good
Then I tried to be bad
Now I'm trying not to think about it

Thought I was precious
Thought I was a star
But turns out my dahlin I don't know who I are

It was societies fault
Everyone's but my own
But it don't seem that way
now that I'm grown

I can't seem to handle
This knife in my heart
Of not being talented
Enough for the part


I cannot believe
The things I have done
Can't look in the mirror
There's no place to run

I hate myself dearly
And my misery
I am disgusted by
This self pity

I lay on the floor
Wasting away
Waiting to be saved
Instead of saving the day

I'm soo delusional! It was all in my head! How can I be so blind? How didn't I know that I made it all up? Oh God I'm soo stupid!

I walk around with these delusions all the time and I never knew... oh God I'm sorry!

How could I get mad at you for things that I only ever imagined were there?!

Oh my God what have I done?! And now you're gone! But you were never really there. Not the way I thought you were anyway!

I thought I had a shot with you, how could I have ever thought that!
You hate me! You never want anything to do with me ever again!

How could I have not seen you all this time that I imagined you?
Oh God I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Og God save my soul! Help me please!

I wish to write a poem
About feelings of home
The plastic lice comb
Dressing in bath foam
I guess my childhood home
Is how i'll always think of home
I wish instead of Rome
All the roads would take me home

I'm sick of trying to be cool
I'm saying this to sound cool
I'll do almost anything for attention
I want to be better than you
Yes I do
Oo oo oooooo

Wham



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I'm not feeling so great about myself today ;()())

Deep in the mountains

Inside a cave

Sits an open chest


If you look inside it

You will find that it's empty


But it wasn't always that way


It used to to contain  a heart
..

That was before

It was given

Away

You are soo not attracted to me
Anyone can see
That you don't want me

I love you soo much
My heart was cursed by your touch

It can't be done
You can't be won

I need  to run to a place where my heart can't find me
Wherever that place may be