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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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Bay
there is a light
streak in you
is it a scar?
Does it hurt?
It looks as though
something moved through you
or under you
leaving
such a stark reminder
that refuses to move with your currents
or maybe there's just
something missing?
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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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Bay
I've always liked that
furry trim of yours
the one made of wood
it seems to be
leaning in expectantly
watching your movements
with a loving wonder
I hear it traps bad things init
and holds you on course
A retainer of twisted old spires
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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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I see you there
through a fold in the treelike
I learned today
that you are stationary
yet I see you there
slowly creeping
here
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The door has shut
but I have only realized
the solid wood in my face
not that I'm looking
through the cold glass
(how can it be so cold
when you were so warm
to the touch?)
at your light on the
inside
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Cut off
everything I had learned
my new enjoyments
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
everyone I had met
my new friends
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
Everything that I had become
my new identity
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
I am unsure
if I will get myself back
upon my return
or if I will even return at all
I am so separate
I question what was even real
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My cries for attention
so loud
and tear filled
Ring in the ears
of only the willfully deaf
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Graffiti is a beautiful thing
A splash of the soul
in an unlikely place
character and development
hardship and victory
every detail recorded
in ink
where mother big brother father of all
says should be bare
In the cover of my own
independence
I shadow in and shade
my very ****** skin
until I am a ****** no more
and I can see myself inside out
memorialized in permanence
that bespeaks adulthood
a grown up
graffiti
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Poor you
all alone in a corner
Crowded in
by the dull furniture
say hello to me
I want to get to know
your lines and colors
even if they're all straight and gray
your movements and
personalities
no matter how still
Don't leave me without saying anything
you're so alone
just like me
and I'm sorry
If I ever gave up on you
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The bird's company
is getting
lonelier
as the flock grows
All I hear around me
ever
a cacophony of
chirps
whistles
squawks
an endless song
of open inclusivity
I open my lion's maw
and release a sad bellow
the birds stop
and scream a unified friend
then it's back to the beginning
verse and verse again
and I'm all on my own
with a lonely view
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
All these pages between us
how will I possibly
express my love
that is not the love
You have?
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
That's not
foundation
under my nails
it's
failure
I have
failure
on my hands
But even worse
I have it
deliberately spread
all
over
my
face
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Take my cold hands
in yours
one more time
I need your
effortless opposite warmth
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Here's another
whiny poem
where I lyrically
complain
about
how he doesn't pay
any attention to me
even though I know full well
that he isn't
obligated to
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
A plane
A pane
so much and so little
separate the two
he and she
they and them
it's all a mirror
of many facets
each sees the other
and themselves
together yet apart
if they could but reach forward
touch skin to skin
glass on nails
so they'd see
their bent reality
unfold
in one whole
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Nothing shatters
more easily
or
more painfully
than the
tender white hopes
of an unloved girl
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Hey
you're new
and I like your face
and your humor
Let's be friends
How do I politely
invite myself to one of your parties?
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I want to break
the glass
but I'm afraid
the shards will cut you
and then my
hind hands will mean
Nothing to you
I couldn't stop that
bleeding
no matter how
soft my touches
Probably because
my hands would be bleeding
too
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
His presence
begs me to look over
while
the awareness of his presence
Commands I close my eyes
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Give it to me straight
a shot of reality
Don't bother with a chaser
I'm used to the burn
afterwards I'll be numb
anyway
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I would tell you
to do what you want
with me
my body
but I already know
that's nothing
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Quivering moon
a reflection of your
old self
penetrating a bus window
or two
so bright aflame
I want to dance to you
as you dance alongside
your compatriot being
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
A proposal is not a proposition
and a step toward adulthood
is not
a step back from childhood
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I'm clicking my pen
against my teeth
thinking of you
hoping you'll hear
I don't know to what end
but I don't want it to end
some beginning things
would be lovely
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Staring
glazed over
lost in a state of wonder
single planed
dimension of disembodied one
I find my courageous future
in the pinnacle
of a symmetric background
a whole wall of it before me
this is what we're dying for
in this moment above forward
and all beyond
us
so innocent a face
to your dark new feel
meta strange
wheel and float
you are mine
it is ours
this gives me hope
and a willingness to
grander cohesion
I wish this will all
be vibrant tomorrow
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
A winding all
a labyrinth of dreams
She is lost and alone
each room is
a history of a world
that is not her own
and she opens every door
with so much pain
leaving it open
forcing herself not to look back
at the ****** knobs and handles
She pushes her feet
her eyes
forward
wherever that may turn to be
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
NEVER GO BACK
a finality I hope not
to hear
in my own fate
is it flexible?
I need the option
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I'm starting to see shadows
in the peripherals of my
memory
the noises are a muffled
echo
this illness filters
I'm scared
I'm alone
stumbling over what was
always there
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
It's the tree of life
get it?
I hope you do because

I'm going in and out
and I need something to
ground me

and you need soil
something to hold
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
What's the impression you got?
I got that you were impressed
and now you're gone
so I'm confused and
abandoned
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Personified
with the floral art
I'm filled with words
maddening it can't stop
it moves my fingers
and I try to employ my eye
elsewhere
fruitless
but a bursting yield
spills through my pen
Does the irony or the
exhaustion **** me?
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Awful spirit
reclined in a chair
sleeping in indifferent good humor
Hold your legs up
let us look on sideways
and don't you dare look back
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Quiet sincerity
and a deep brown stare
I like sitting here with you
engrossed in our philosophy
where will the conversation lead
that I could foresee wistfully
but a practical short time reality
pervades
so I am content with you before me
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Go on
Dig nails into my hands
for frustration
at their creating
nothing
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Second time
around
here we go
or we may not
so I'll board the merry-go-round
this carousel of disappointment
expectant as always
I shouldn't be
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Smooth covers hold
breaking at the spine
the weight of my conscious
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I need to quit this
bittersweet
Candy Man
sweet sugar
burns my eyes
he's rotting my teeth
out of my
***** mind
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Binding page after page
I have no idea how long
this book will be
Or if it will even end
I don't even have words to write
on their bare backs
but each page goes in
and my hands are numb
Page after page
I bind
I bind
Anyway
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
dazed and confused
stuck in a murky stupor
the warmth of spring
and the lure of a free day
they tore down the calendar
and stole my books
so here I lay
unaware
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I wish I didn't have to
pick my way
across each room
I don't want every
single step
to have to be
so carefully chosen
I want to run all out
this tiptoe dance
is tiring me
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
She has blood in her hair
the girl she doesn't know
working both ways
imagining sensations that aren't there
inventing words and ignoring old sounds
Let's give her a hand
this unwitting princess
we all want to save her voice
we all want her to see her own crown
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Take my hand
I'll show you how to
build a castle
with lofty ceilings
and a foundation
of curious cracked concrete
But the windows will be
wonderful stained glass
and the stairs
winding
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I don't share this view
Not with anyone I know
maybe I have my
pen and journal
but as alive as they are
they're just dead things
so really
I'm lonely
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
lift me up
I want to touch clouds
from your golden wings
they'll melt in the rain
but the fall
will be worth the ecstasy
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
You're so
dry
you'll soak
any old
mean word
up
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Let's destroy her
softly
so she knows
It's all her own
innocent undoing
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My ears are ringing
it's because nobody
is willing to hear
my cries for attention
Madeline Cirullo May 2014
Such a pleasant storm
hidden silent behind those curtains
of hair
I've carefully cultivated
more than ever before
But one side is exposed
so all can see the care
I've returned to taking
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The best intentions
started a new
civilization
in the waves of youth
but even the magnificence
of newfound freedom
was fleeting
faded into a
dull sickly color
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
So rich and red
was the blood
when I cut my tongue
on an expression of love
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Close your eyes little girl
close them and dream
Dream of a day
when all you want is what you have
Dream of a you
completely yourself
Dream of a future
you can live with
Close your eyes little girl
close them against the reality of now
but don't forget
it's what you have to get through
first
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