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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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Bay
there is a light
streak in you
is it a scar?
Does it hurt?
It looks as though
something moved through you
or under you
leaving
such a stark reminder
that refuses to move with your currents
or maybe there's just
something missing?
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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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Bay
I've always liked that
furry trim of yours
the one made of wood
it seems to be
leaning in expectantly
watching your movements
with a loving wonder
I hear it traps bad things init
and holds you on course
A retainer of twisted old spires
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Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
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I see you there
through a fold in the treelike
I learned today
that you are stationary
yet I see you there
slowly creeping
here
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The door has shut
but I have only realized
the solid wood in my face
not that I'm looking
through the cold glass
(how can it be so cold
when you were so warm
to the touch?)
at your light on the
inside
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Cut off
everything I had learned
my new enjoyments
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
everyone I had met
my new friends
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
Everything that I had become
my new identity
and being
held at arm's length
uncertain in distance's grasp


Cut off
I am unsure
if I will get myself back
upon my return
or if I will even return at all
I am so separate
I question what was even real
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My cries for attention
so loud
and tear filled
Ring in the ears
of only the willfully deaf
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Graffiti is a beautiful thing
A splash of the soul
in an unlikely place
character and development
hardship and victory
every detail recorded
in ink
where mother big brother father of all
says should be bare
In the cover of my own
independence
I shadow in and shade
my very ****** skin
until I am a ****** no more
and I can see myself inside out
memorialized in permanence
that bespeaks adulthood
a grown up
graffiti
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Poor you
all alone in a corner
Crowded in
by the dull furniture
say hello to me
I want to get to know
your lines and colors
even if they're all straight and gray
your movements and
personalities
no matter how still
Don't leave me without saying anything
you're so alone
just like me
and I'm sorry
If I ever gave up on you
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The bird's company
is getting
lonelier
as the flock grows
All I hear around me
ever
a cacophony of
chirps
whistles
squawks
an endless song
of open inclusivity
I open my lion's maw
and release a sad bellow
the birds stop
and scream a unified friend
then it's back to the beginning
verse and verse again
and I'm all on my own
with a lonely view
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
All these pages between us
how will I possibly
express my love
that is not the love
You have?
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
That's not
foundation
under my nails
it's
failure
I have
failure
on my hands
But even worse
I have it
deliberately spread
all
over
my
face
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Take my cold hands
in yours
one more time
I need your
effortless opposite warmth
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Here's another
whiny poem
where I lyrically
complain
about
how he doesn't pay
any attention to me
even though I know full well
that he isn't
obligated to
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
A plane
A pane
so much and so little
separate the two
he and she
they and them
it's all a mirror
of many facets
each sees the other
and themselves
together yet apart
if they could but reach forward
touch skin to skin
glass on nails
so they'd see
their bent reality
unfold
in one whole
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Nothing shatters
more easily
or
more painfully
than the
tender white hopes
of an unloved girl
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Hey
you're new
and I like your face
and your humor
Let's be friends
How do I politely
invite myself to one of your parties?
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I want to break
the glass
but I'm afraid
the shards will cut you
and then my
hind hands will mean
Nothing to you
I couldn't stop that
bleeding
no matter how
soft my touches
Probably because
my hands would be bleeding
too
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
His presence
begs me to look over
while
the awareness of his presence
Commands I close my eyes
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Give it to me straight
a shot of reality
Don't bother with a chaser
I'm used to the burn
afterwards I'll be numb
anyway
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Close your eyes little girl
close them and dream
Dream of a day
when all you want is what you have
Dream of a you
completely yourself
Dream of a future
you can live with
Close your eyes little girl
close them against the reality of now
but don't forget
it's what you have to get through
first
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The best of intentions
has fed the worst of habits
birthing bitter memories
Echoes that crawl and creep
when you're not looking
into the shadows
where you pretend not to know
they are
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Sometimes the worst
kind of stress
is the one you can't see
but feel
when you wake up
after thinking you were
safe
to breathe
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I wake up every morning
with blood between my teeth
so I keep my mouth
shut
as tight as I can
I don't want the red
in my friends' eyes
I clench closed harder
and bleed more
but then you say hello
and your deep voice
numbs my gums
and I'm not afraid
to give more than
a Mona Lisa smile
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I need to quit this
bittersweet
Candy Man
sweet sugar
burns my eyes
he's rotting my teeth
out of my
***** mind
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I still remember how
you murmured
empty love words
against my mouth
in that dark room
where our skin touched
and for the briefest of moments
our hearts met
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
The thought of
seeing him
vis-a-vis
drains my
confidence
that soaked me
mère seconds ago
where there was fire
sickly butterflies
thrash
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Shadow and sun
converge on sinkholes
who could have known
Snow could be both so
strong and fragile
to support the entirety
of a complete
and a slight
profile?
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Go on
Dig nails into my hands
for frustration
at their creating
nothing
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Let's destroy her
softly
so she knows
It's all her own
innocent undoing
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
If I sigh louder
will they notice?
At what decibel
will I sound damaged?
Do I have to scream
my hurts in their faces
to make them hear my pain?
To make them care.
My problems must air
in tears
and blood
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I was broken
pieces of glass
on a hard unforgiving floor
You knew I was broken
You told me I was broken
yet you took up a hammer
and crushed
what I had left
of myself
into a dust
coarse
and painful even to look at
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
It's the deadpan
he said
moving his hand
across his face
No
It's me
I thought right back
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
You missed your chance
his ears were free
But you hid silent
under the canvas where he
can't see
and won't want
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
I would tell you
to do what you want
with me
my body
but I already know
that's nothing
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I know I should have stopped
five texts ago
I understood your silence
I knew I wasn't wanted
but
sometimes talking to a brick wall
is better than talking to
nobody at all
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
A broken pencil
and some cruel words
a nuisance
an uncomfortable memory of a fantasy
that's all I am
now
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Crooked windows
show more
of their landed view
and they let more snow in
they who built an unsteady house
we need to fix the foundation
raise the structure
and put some books under it
Let's hope that stops the wobbling
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Personified
with the floral art
I'm filled with words
maddening it can't stop
it moves my fingers
and I try to employ my eye
elsewhere
fruitless
but a bursting yield
spills through my pen
Does the irony or the
exhaustion **** me?
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
Keeping a corpse
as company
cold hands to match mine
at least this one
stays
At least this one
listens
warmth it seems
corrupts
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My pen is running from me
it knows the power it holds
The danger in my hand
that wields it
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
The more you look
the more you see
little things
like a patch of red
amongst neatly clipped
chocolate hair
endearing little traits
pieces of a visual whole
that tie the vision together
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My tongue is dry
is it from a lack of water
or a lack of love?
I'm not sure but
my head is splitting by the jaw
and your cheap medicinal tricks
won't solve a **** thing
they won't fill a **** hole
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
My smile
so 'easy'
muffles the sound
of the scream
swirling in my chest
ready to tear through
my heart
and break past my
flashed teeth
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
A proposal is not a proposition
and a step toward adulthood
is not
a step back from childhood
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I walked myself into a
house of mirrors
where I'm slowly drowning
in my own well-wrought tears
I didn't get to say goodbye
so at every turn
I see myself
and choke on a grim hello
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
I am angry
that you don't see
how much it hurts
when I swoon

Or maybe you do
you just say nothing
and that just makes me
sad
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
NEVER GO BACK
a finality I hope not
to hear
in my own fate
is it flexible?
I need the option
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
There have always been
dead smiles between
my teeth
Dishonestly
I resent them
Madeline Cirullo Mar 2014
And so the
broken-hearted
becomes a
heartbreaker
oh what a force
pain and lust
together are
Madeline Cirullo Apr 2014
Quivering moon
a reflection of your
old self
penetrating a bus window
or two
so bright aflame
I want to dance to you
as you dance alongside
your compatriot being
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