Everyone walks, talks, works, breathes, and sleeps
they do it with ease
but it's not that easy for me
I fall when I walk
I stumble my words when I talk
I can't concentrate when I work
Breathing feels like choking to me
and I never get sleep

But I can do one thing with ease and it's crying
I've been filled with deep sadness and I can't control it,
crying has become a daily routine for me

Instead of sleeping I stay up all night weeping
Hell, I even do it while cleaning and eating

oh yeah eating....
I need to stop...
I'm so fat I feel like if I continue to eat, a button from my pants will pop off..

The way you said my name and called me babe
calmed down every violent thought in my brain
even a part of me sang..
but one day the sky was filled with grey clouds and rain was pouring down
We were in the hallway
I turn around in the empty hallway and see you looking me in the face
You said,"we need to talk about something" so I said,"Okay"
You told me that you needed some time alone, as you walked away, my heart was beginning to break
I later asked my best friend why you broke up with me and she said," Because of Kaylie"
i already knew what she had done
She told you she had liked me..
Kaylie always got mad when she saw you with me..
She even ripped up the apology letter I gave you.

Ever since then we've been on and off like a light switch
One of us likes the dark and the other likes the light
So I left town leaving you with nothing to say but,"Goodbye"

What if i move back to town?
What if I wrote you a book on why I love you?
What if I gave you a rose everyday?
What if....
I should stop cause I know you'll never love me again..

I have constant battles throughout the day
but I have to say
I can't keep living this way
I fight battles that I don't want to fight
It driving me crazy and making me hate my life
I never win so what's the point
I'm done
Demons... once again
You have won

I may smile but on the inside I'm frowning
I honestly feel like im drowning but it's just the same story everyday..
A girl who's in love with another girl
She knows she can't have her but she still wants her,
She has problems at home,
she just wants someone to hold,
She never sleeps
She thinks she's fat so she tries to not eat
It's just the same story stuck on repeat...

sorry that I **** up a lot.... it's the only thing I know
and when I say sorry and no one takes it, I never let it go
today, I hit my last peak... i'm becoming so fed up with myself, I want to leave
I have sleeping pills that my doctor gave to me
I wonder how many you can take for you not to wake up in weeks..

You would think after 5 months of being away from you, with us barely talking i'd forget about you, right?
Wrong, I think of you every second, minute,hour, and day, i'm not ready to throw my love for you away
I just can't seem to move on so easily like you did
and I forbid
I don't want to feel pain from this heartbreak but I don't want to forget your name either...
Yesterday your scent crossed my sheets, it came by as punishment for me
It still lingers around my house
but I still don't understand how..
My heart is still burning from the fire that you had lit
I keep thinking there's something between us two
but I forget,
When I told you I was leaving town you said you were down because I wouldn't be around, you said that you were upset because I piece of you left... but then one day we were texting and you directly said," I love you babe" but then after that you never texted me back and that's when your love for me left