What would it be?
Besides another leftover,
One of those countless ***** socks
Discarded
Unwanted
A cigarette ****,
the flame stomped out
by someone just as caring as you
Tossed out of a pickup
Tumbled in a ditch
Laying with the rest of the fragments
This memory

writing over and over again
like a naughty schoolboy, repeating
i will not disrespect the teacher
i will not disrespect the teacher
until the lesson is scarred into his mind and the paper

except i'm not a naughty schoolboy
i'm a brokenhearted, ignorant girl
trying to get it through my head you don't like me back.
i have no feelings for you
i have no feelings for you
i have no feelings for you
i have no feelings for you
i write.
and write.
because that's what you told me.
not ceasing until i will learn the lesson myself,
but now it's my heart being scarred

The curtains, always drawn
From the inside
Yours are the thickest black velvet
Yet my curtains are open
Forever, always
Made of dainty lace
I can't see inside your eyes
But you can see in mine

The girl
looks at the stars and moon
Wondering if they could take her away
But the moon stares stonily, not seeing
And the stars fall out of the sky

They sparkle in her hands
And mix with the teardrops
Until the moon cracks and cries too
Cries for the girl with the lonely smile

She hides the night
Under a smile
Perfect on the surface
But cracking underneath

Swimming through the mercury
Bribing your eyes to stay dry
Ears are ringing
The Devil, whispering
Promising things you know aren't true
But you believe him still
What else is there to believe in? Not me.
It doesn't really matter
The mercury will **** you first
But not before your soul is frozen
Forever in toxic blue

Beneath the surface of ourselves
We mourn
Our souls wear the black
As it rains,
the black color bleeds
Tarnishing what is us, our only remainder
Our last stand in a crowd of uncertainties
The inside can only stand so much corruption,
less hardened than our outer calloused and bruised covering
Soon it's too much

A private funeral
Open casket
with unblinking eyes
Still looking for the white
to balance out the blackness inside

i found myself
inside
eating
my
own
heart