m0ldylungs

m0ldylungs May 2013

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/I told her I thought she was beautiful
She told me that she already knew, but thank you

I let her know that I loved her even if it was too soon
She never used to say it back she would only call me cute

I told her I couldn't picture myself without her
She said she didn't believe it to be true

I said I wanted to wait to tell her
But she forced it out of me
& when I told her I was in love
The 120 second wait for a reply scared the hell out of me

She said once again that I was cute
& to pretend I hadn't said it
I knew she wasn't ready
& to this day I regret it

Saturday 5/18/13 // 2:22 a.m.

m0ldylungs Apr 2013

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We start off in your bedroom where
The darkness hides our scars & insecurities
We strip each other of our clothes and proceed
To dance to the melody of the art of growing old

As lovely as love could ever be
I've never felt as peaceful as I felt
When you made love to me

We continued to slip out of our skin
A pile of bones intertwined & at rest
I haven't slept like this in months

This is fate dressed in his Sunday best
Sending me subtle signals to carry out your command
Softly now, love, whisper to me softly
Tell me what I've been waiting to hear;

I love you too, dear.

m0ldylungs Apr 2013

WARNING:

I may be hard to handle sometimes.
I frustrate myself.
I know I can be pretty stubborn.
Its just that...
I get so scared.
I over-think & start to think you don't care.
I say things I don't mean,
I make myself look so stupid.

These words all look like garbage to me.
I'm not sure you can call this writing let alone,
place it in the category of poetry.

worthless, its all worthless.
so i'll end my worthless night
locked in the bathroom with a blade & shut off the light.

I'm sorry for the words exchanged tonight.
I never meant it.
I never meant it.

m0ldylungs Apr 2013

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she let her blunt hang lazily between tight lips
i loved the way the smoke smelled as she exhaled
she couldnt resist calling me names she had made up for me
i cant say i mind that she calls me what she pleases.

sleep still in the corners of her eyes as she crawls out of bed
she could never know just how beautiful she is to me
underneath her false nails & eyelashes
lies a mysterious cavern waiting to be explored.

reluctant fingertips collide with her hips as we first kiss
how long have we been waiting for this, my dear?
delayed conversation carries on deep into the hours of the night
better late than never, i suppose.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds until I have to leave again.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds to make you fall in love with me.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds to make up for all the lost time.

i asked her "where have you been all my life?"
the corners of her lips curled upward with her reply
"ive been waiting right here for you darling"
with sincerity in her eyes.

oh, but, lover... my innocence has come & gone
i ask you please refrain from abandoning me too.
for i must admit;
ive grown quite fond of you.

as i make my way back from California
like driftwood floating along the river
i smile & wave goodbye to you, my sweet
all though i know it is no consolation

you cant understand why i had to go
but there are many reasons i cant stay home

so as our last hour comes to an end
do not say farewell, my love, ill be back again

m0ldylungs Apr 2013

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a
man
once told me
21 days
makes
a
habit
& well I haven't
been
counting
but i'd
feel
quite
peculiar
not to tell you
good morning & good night,
my love.
as the sun creeps
through my window
& shines onto my face
I
take
comfort
in
knowing
I am one day closer to you
my love.

m0ldylungs Apr 2013

4//13//13

Your eyelids so heavy you cant remember the words you had written the night before
Words so heavy that they weigh down your heart like an anchor
Dragged out to sea unwillingly
Do we float?
Or do we sink?
Laying underneath the waves in the sands
Its almost an eerie feeling to listen to my voice singing above the surface
You listened.
But you did not hear.
Now my ship has come & I must flee these waters
But do not be sad my dear,
For you chose to sink & never to surface
Knowing how badly I needed you near.

So ill go home to California & leave Milwaukee behind
In hopes that what ive been looking for is waiting for me to find.

— The End —