Crying is not a sign of weakness.
It’s a sign of strength.
It’s a sign of letting yourself go
and not holding yourself back.
It’s a form of expression
a silent expression
an emotional expression
a vulnerable expression
a brave and strong expression
letting everyone know that you can’t
take it anymore.
Small drops of water
coming from your visual peripherals
come tumbling down
the sides of your face
like an overflowing waterfall
From eye to chin
each watery teardrop
represents and symbolizes
you breaking free
from the pain you experienced
in the past.
No matter what pain
you’ve gone through,
every time you cry
you let your past
stay in the past.
You don’t let it go to the present
nor to the future.
You let it stay in the past.
What I’m trying to say
that it’s OK
to let it go.
It’s OK to
break free
and be free.
It’s OK to come alive.
It’s OK to create
your own personal
overflowing waterfall
all over your beautiful face.
It’s OK to cry.
Don’t listen to other people
that tell you that you’re
weak, a baby, or a crybaby
for that matter.
Don’t listen to other people
that tell you that you’re
hopeless, worthless,
or that you are
not good enough
for them.
Don’t listen to other people
that tell you that you’re
never going to make it
through life
no matter how hard
or how many times
you try.
Instead, show them.
Show them that you’re
just a regular
human being
and prove
to them that
regular
human beings
have real
emotional feelings.
Show them that you’re
never afraid to
show off and
let go of your
vulnerable feelings
that you’re
hiding inside.
Show them that
they too can
let go of
their own
emotional and
vulnerable feelings
that they’re
hiding inside.
If they can’t
let go of
their powerful
and moving
feelings,
they will have
cold, frozen hearts.
Bottom line,
we all need
to shed some
beautiful and
powerful tears
every so often
in our lifetime.
We all need
to create our
own rivers,
lakes, streams,
creeks, ponds,
seas, and oceans
full of one of
the most moving
and powerful
human senses
that we shed
throughout our
lifetime.
And it all starts
with a overflowing
waterfall
coming from
the most important
visionary living organs.
Our eyes
are the window
to our emotional
and vulnerable
soul.
That soul is
willing to come out
from the visual
window
and it will do
whatever it takes
to do just that.
But it needs
your permission.

It’s time to let it go.

It’s OK to cry.

Ever since I was little,
I always wanted to be a performer.
Singing, acting, playing a musical instrument,
I wanted to do this profession for the rest of my life.

So I put this creative dream into action,
by going to auditions for roles in the theatrical productions,
competing in national and international music competitions,
performing in talent shows, school/community plays,
family event gatherings, school commencement ceremonies, etc.
I am doing just about everything
to get my foot in the door
that opens
to the world of
the entertainment industry.
I tried to open that door
several times!
But the door itself
wouldn’t budge.
It was closed
and locked shut.

My dreams of a creative, artistic,
and entertaining life
will be……


just a dream that won’t come true.

People going
From place to place
Or in their
Own little world,
Yet they’re still
Calm and content.
The Oviatt Library
Standing tall
and proud.
Inside
It’s very functional
In various ways
But outside,
It’s calm and content.
Different kinds of trees
Swaying gently
With the calm winds
With their foundation
Being strong
and firm
and their likeliness…
calm.
These aspects
Do have a purpose
In some way
No matter
How good or bad
Their life is
They still have
The same feeling
On the outside,
But their
TRUE feelings
Are different
On the inside
They’re acting like
Their life is perfect
And they’re
In control of it
but in reality…
They can’t.
They’re calm…
but their life
is disoriented.

O LORD,
how wonderful
and great you are!
How awesome you are!
O LORD,
I love you
so much
as a teacher and friend!
O LORD,
hear my cry
from the pitch black darkness
in this cruel world
that I am living in.
Let your light
From your loving heart
Shine through me
And in this
Confused,
Twisted,
And struggling path
That I’m walking on,
Guide me,
Show me,
teach me your ways.
I’m hungry
for your love!
I’m thirsty
for your grace
and power!
I’m longing
for the victory
in you, LORD!
Let me be
your example
as a giver
to the world!
I will spread
The glory,
The praise,
The worship,
And the good news
Of just
how beautiful
you are!
So that they too
will come to live
in you!

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No matter how hard I try to put myself out there
to get my foot in the door,
I always end up on the outside looking in.
I can’t seem to get out of this cycle.
I can’t take this anymore.
When will I get my big break?
Not anytime soon.
With all of this rejection that I am getting,
it’s tough to put myself out there.

The night has fallen
Bad guys have scattered the streets
Let’s get dangerous

Whipped out his gas gun
He swooped out of the shadows
The terror that *****

Looks for the bad guys
Approaches them in the distance
**** gas, evildoer!

Took out his smoke bomb
He creates his grand entrance;
Very Determined

He’s ready; willing
For the villains to make their move
Let’s get dangerous  

Fights crime all night long
Ducks every fist-punch and kick
He is Darkwing Duck!

He is the victor
At the end of every night
The Midnight Mallard

Champion of right
Daring Duck of Mystery
He is “The Duck Knight!”

A father by day
Then a crime fighter by night
lives the double life.

It’s one of the best
Disney Afternoon shows ever.
It’s simply the best.


Darkwing Duck, Copyright of Disney. Est. 1991.

Over 7 Billion People living in this world.
7 BILLION.
And each and every one of them is trying to “FIT IN” in their societies.
They tried.
And tried.
AND TRIED.
But they just don’t seem
To overcome that obstacle.
We’re broken.
We’re just broken.

I am one of them.
I have tried to put myself out there
Over and over again
With the result of ME being REJECTED
Or worse, DEFEATED
Several times.
It happened to me when
I’m APPLYING for
JOBS,
AUDITIONING for an ACTING ROLE in
THEATRICAL PRODUCTIONS,
COMPETING in a global
ALL-FEMALE MUSIC COMPETITION
A few months back,
Or any other individual competitions
A few years back,
WRITING a BUNCH of POETRIES and PERSONAL NARRATIVES,
TRYING to BE ACCEPTED to or BECOME a part of
different kinds of social groups
(Sometimes it gets awkward),
TRYING to get some people to
Sign up, contribute, and support a
Campaign that I’m involved in,
With the result of me
NOT FITTING IN.
It even happened to me
When I’ve made a lot
Of MISTAKES,
Both big and small,
And not LIVING UP
To their STANDARDS.
Also even when I TRIED
To COMMUNICATE my ideas and opinions with
Other people,
I would ALWAYS get
SHUT DOWN.

I’m CRUSHED,
HEARTBROKEN,
A FAILURE,
UNSUCCESSFUL,
And I just feel like that
I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP.
NOBODY is paying ATTENTION
To ME.
NOBODY CARES
About ME.
Even my family’s RELATIVES
Or someone else,
Don’t CARE with what I’m
DOING WITH MY LIFE,
And it’s all because
THEY DON’T ASK ABOUT ME.
Sometimes they’ve
MISTAKEN me for my
Older sister
Or someone else’s daughter
that looks like me.
I’m also ALONE
Because most of my “come-and-go” friends
ARE TOO BUSY
Living out their own lives
Just to HANG OUT WITH ME.
I JUST WANTED SOMEBODY
TO TALK TO OR TO HANG OUT WITH.
I don’t have one TRUE BEST FRIEND.
It’s kind of hard for me to find just ONE.

Sometimes I feel like that my life
Is SO NOT WORTH IT,
And that I just want to DIE.
What’s the use of me
LIVING THIS LIFE?

Many people are exactly like me; trying so hard doing what they love just to get a foot in the door and yet they don’t feel right at home because the society doesn’t want them just yet. Some of them are alone and need a friend, like me.

I feel like I’m experiencing “quarter-life crisis”

I am ready to start living my life doing what I love or get a job so that I can start taking care of myself; why is anyone not paying attention to me?

Worldly problems: Politics (Democratic/Republican), Christianity (Catholic/Protestant), Religion (Christian/Muslim), Gun Violence (Debates of Rights to bear arms), War on Terror, Protests (Occupy Wall Street or any major U.S. city), Homosexuals/Heterosexuals, Abuse (Physical/******), Human and *** Trafficking, Abortion, People Hating Other People, etc.

We need to set aside our differences so that we can work together and come up with a solution that will help solve our problems

We need to be open to other opinions, not only defending our own opinions.

We need to start loving each other no matter what side of the worldly problem we are on.

What’s with the arguments? Can’t we at least get along like regular people?

Each and every one of us is like a broken puzzle piece because we are having a hard time trying to get along when it comes to worldly problems/issues, trying to fit in with the society, and we are struggling to get to where we are going in our lives or to overcome our obstacles or rather come to an agreement. We are also trying to figure out who we are as human beings (Social Location).

We need to just piece together ourselves and then help each other out to piece together this world. We need to bring everything together and come together as one body, one diverse melting *** and become one loving group. It’s not going to be easy, but we need to start somewhere.

We need to become one big jigsaw puzzle which is the world and we will try hard at whatever we’re doing to help keep it that way as well as taking care of our surrounding environment.