I have memorized a million things
about you, little one
like the way your pinkies
on both tiny, pudgy hands
are just the slightest bit crooked
the way you always brush your hair
messy, brown, and unruly
out of your face
so you can view the world
with those huge curious eyes
I have memorized the way you walk
each tiny little step
with your toes pointed slightly inwards
inside your favorite rain boots
with the tractors printed on them
the way you smile
that glowing, mischievous smile
with all your tiny white teeth
the smile that always reaches your eyes
because you don't know any other way to smile
I have memorized the way you say my name
my first and middle name, combines into one
when it slips off your tiny tongue
you say it with importance and need
I only love my name when it comes from you
the way you sleep
curled up tight into a ball
on your stomach
with all your legs and arms
tucked securely beneath your body
I have memorized every sign
that a nightmare is coming
so I can hold you tight
curled against my body
so you won't feel unloved
I have learned how to manage
your screaming, crying tantrums
how to say the right words to calm you
and the right tone to whisper that I love you
because I do
I love you, little one
from your smile to your eyes
your pinkies to your dreams
you are everything to me
and I know you best of all.
to my beautiful nephew. It's a long story, but I've basically raised him since he was a month old. He gives me hope.