they said 'simple things matter'
and i think that's a lie
because my dear,
you are very complicated
yet you are what matters to me most

I loved you most. With all my heart, with all I've got.
I loved you, ever only you. And still, I deeply do.

Going through the process of what's called as moving on
Even when I'm aware that my heart still wants you so
Rejecting all the emotions that I still feel for you
And refusing to act upon what I foolishly want to do
Lying to myself and thinking I'm finally okay
Denying how much I still hope you stayed
Instead of choosing to break my heart and leave
Nostalgic still, to the thought of what had been
Even when I shouldn't bother anymore

You my dear, are tremendously, tragically, unknowingly torturing me.

But I wonder when thy heart will stop wandering
Or longing for what is wrong--I am suffering
The thought of you and I is constantly haunting
Every action or sight leads to remembering
Whilst the heart I never could own is rejoicing
As it sings lovely songs, and as birds are humming
Around it, all seems perfectly fine and pleasing
Thy heart that I yearn notices not the lightning
Within thy thoughts, whilst thy memories keep running
Thy heart lost in deep despair, bit by bit breaking
Losing all pieces till it is but mere nothing
Since thy day you have chosen to leave me hanging
But thou can conclude that you are the most confused
You know not what you want, or feel for who you've used

You'd always leave me
And you'd always come back
Making sure you've taken everything
And that there's nothing else left

Having an immeasurably bountiful amount of care for what does not deserve it
Or inexistent care for what is worth being valued

Goodbye, goodbye, what happened to goodbye
Goodbye, my goodbye just turned to another hi
Goodbye, I said, to my feelings and past
Goodbye, I told you, but all I did was go back
Goodbye, goodbye, I had said my farewell
Goodbye, goodbye? But guess who fell for it again

Won't you ever get tired of breaking my heart?

Have you already forgotten me?

Because there's a difference between wanting to leave and needing to

Please don't get tired of wanting me

I have never believed
That truly loving her means letting go
For loving is not about giving up
Or choosing to grant someone else to have the one you love

It is about staying no matter what
And ignoring all the pain that loving her bears
It is allowing her to repeatedly break your heart
Just to make sure that hers is whole

It is seeing the millions of reasons to leave
But relying on that one sense why you shouldn't
For loving her is enduring all the hurt
That she unknowingly causes

Loving her is wanting to wake up each day
Knowing that she's still yours, and you are hers
It is assuring her that you'll wait
Despite all her fears, and the difficulties in between

But I have never thought
That to love is something so much more
It is putting her happiness before yours
Even when she is, without you

And loving her, is seeing that you are taking away the chance
Of her being with another, and happier
For she constantly tries to love you in return
Even when she really doesn't

To love, is to be immensely selfless
Though seeing her with another would greatly hurt
Wanting to only keep her to yourself
Will not result to her content

For although you know that you love her too much
To even hurt her or think of letting go
Genuinely loving her
Is accepting that you are not the one
She loves

Please don't fall for anyone else

Don't you know how intricate it is to bear with you leaving but then you're never really gone?

I was so happy
To be in your arms again
But I'm unsafe there

And I can't always fall apart every time you are near
Seeing your face and hearing your name
Should not always make me break down in tears
But it still hurts so much, there's too much pain
Although I try, it's just impossible to contain

Would you do something to make me stay
If you felt like I was leaving?
But the real question is:
Would you even notice?

She loves me, she loves me not
And I don't need to pick flower petals
To know that she never did
And never would

My stomach felt like a butterfly sanctuary
Along with numerous swarms of bees
And I don't know which was worse:
The fact that my sanctuary was fragmentizing me
Or that there were bees within

I felt it. Every single one of them fluttering within me, wanting to break free and escape my stomach. But they remained there—concealed in my body, surrounding my lungs and I swear I couldn't breathe. And every part of me couldn't function right. My legs, unsteady along with my hands that only longed to be intertwined with yours. My chest, aching with so much affection. My eyes, remaining fixated at yours—allowing myself to get lost in its beauty that holds so much mysteries. Then my mind, suffused with abundant thoughts which were only of you. And I knew: I was drowning in butterflies for you. The butterflies you've somehow created inside me; the same butterflies that would eventually devour whatever's left of me.

Let's pretend you're a princess
And I, the knight in shining armor
I'd go through anything and everything
To save you from your sorrows

And though I try my hardest
Your heart still longs for another
Even when I'm standing here before you
You still want your prince charming

I wonder what you would say
If I asked you to be mine again
Will you have second thoughts
Or will you not think at all
Because you know that your answer
Has been no all along

I miss you so much, it's scaring me
For what if you're not even thinking of me
What if your mind's too preoccupied
What if there's no room for me inside

While my thoughts are only of you
What if a memory of me does not come to you at all
But darling, know that what scares me the most
Is that constant thought that you don't feel what I do

If I was enough, you wouldn't look for someone else
If I was enough, you won't long for anyone else's care
If I was enough, you need not to go away
If I was enough, you would have stayed
If I was enough, we'd still be together
If I was enough, you wouldn't get tired
If I was enough, you would feel what I do
But sadly, I'm just not enough
For you

You had to leave me, too?
And after I got used to being with you?
Yes, you helped me forget the past
But I think you've made things much worse

How stupid was I to believe
That you would stay with me
But how was I to know
That you would also go

I know I built my walls
I just didn't want to fall
I was so tired of getting hurt
Over and over again

But something in you made me think
That you would catch me if I fell
Because for a moment you were different
From all the other people who left

So, I let you get to me
And I was very happy
I knew I wanted you to stay
But that's when I noticed that you've already gone
Away