i shall see
cant you see the trees dancing
while the wind sings its favorite song
the waves be the moving to the moon all night long
im over having **** on a loop
im tired of being uncomfortable
for someone who doesnt spare the decency
to really love me
i did what i had to do
even though this wasnt the plan for us two
but you couldn't give me 3 reasons why'd you stay

i cant get close enough
im finally scared to love
the other night it got to me
that i' had an epiphany
its sad to see demons with different faces
im trying to change and
i dont want to be alone

dont say im confusing
when the ones whos always choosing
where we go from here
i dont really
put my energy into things
in the physical humans things we crave
cause in the end where we dont really end
and all this goes away
and all we have is ourselves
to get us out of this prison
that we created for ourself

i think
i dont belong here
my mind
always
wanders elsewhere
i just want to feel alive,
feel like i matter to those around me
im tired of the temporary
oh yeah
people come and go
seasons always changing
feelings are fading
and mind is always feeling jaded
i, i try to make you realize
i want to get out of this loop
why am i always daydreaming
of better life with you
i hate that im on this journey on my own
i hate being alone
so ima daydream about the times of love
cause this present really *****
we lack real depth and emotion
people always hiding who they really are
we're souls who have been scarred
from the past we once known
i think we just want to find our home
daydream, so you dont lose yourself
but dont hurt yourself
because reality aint as fine as it seems
so
just day dream
of a better life, things will be alright
just day dream
everything will be just fine, in time
but we dont really have time

smoking all this **** to awaken the thoughts
i have deep down
that only roar so angrily in my head
and makes me crave you more to be here with me
abandonment makes you feel alive doesnt it?
im going to stop calling out for you
im forcing these wants on you that you never intended to make feel whole
my humanely unnecessary needs get the best of me at times
and i keep forgetting that none of this matters
and that maybe right now you arent meant to be on my journey
i seek answers from the universe to guide me to you and the forces just neglect
neglect?
protect?
protect me from going down the same path because i still havent cracked the code
the code that love may be something i wont receive and i have to be okay with being alone
not alone?
i am a butterfly, and i move freely and so beautifully as an lone
though i have not met the key holder yet i pray that you are well and you get to me in the most imperfectly perfect condition
i am okay
i love me
i love you
farewell

i dream of better life for myself
but i dont know if i can go any longer
mama why dont love me
i thought i was enough for you
but it seems like i cant get **** from you
my thoughts have me up at night
am i good enough for the world?
am i good enough to be in your world?
the more i try
the more it shows me, that humanity
******* *****
and it ***** that i cant get ******* love
from the one who created me
so now im stuck
searching, searching, searching
for someone to call home,
i just wanted a home
why dont i belong

living in a dreamland so very far away
i need to come back to my madness
soon it wont be all sugar and gold
you made it known
this is for your entertainment
we couldve made arrangments
for you to flaunt your appreciation
maybe thats asking for to much
i was only in it to win your love
hes missing all his shots
why does he keep aiming for my heart
i hate being in a ******* loop
with the same **** cycle
**** always reminds me of -)
and i try not to listen to you
but your the only thing that i can mind
mind in this moment of time
that we dont have
anymore
cause it never belonged to us
like this love
that we claim we have and its so sad
cause this **** was never meant to last