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Lucy Jan 2014
Clap along if you know what happiness is for you.

Happiness is going for a run with the dog
Happiness is waking up and looking out my bedroom window
Happiness is being part of the universe
Happiness is music full blast
Happiness is learning to South Coast Swing
Happiness is dancing round my kitchen
Happiness is cooking, baking, EATING
Happiness is being at college with my friends
Happiness is the cinema with Margaux
Happiness is knowing I'm not perfect, and being glad not to be
Happiness is a lie-in
Happiness is a cup of tea
Happiness is getting my assignments in
Happiness is seeing how much I have grown
Happiness is seeing my brother and sister
Happiness is my sister proud of who I'm becoming
Happiness is dreaming
Happiness is talking about my Mum
Happiness is the colour red
Happiness is my brother and his girlfriend
Happiness is the friends I've yet to make
Happiness is the classes I've yet to teach
Happiness is everything I've yet to learn
Happiness is Christmas with my Grandparents
Happiness is spending New Years Eve quietly
Happiness is knowing I'm going to be home
Happiness is choosing a path to get there

Happiness is everywhere when we look for it
Happiness is me.
Lucy Dec 2013
I remember the first time I met you, you were thirteen I think
In a swimming pool, talking French, mucking around
I couldn't understand a word, but even then I found you fascinating
7 years later I had to move near where you live.
got to know you
got to like you
You gave me stupid presents
things like twigs and elastic bands
you'd steal my scrunchy, because you know how much it annoys me

now we're 19 and 21
you discreetly tickle my leg under the table
trying to make me laugh
but it takes a while now
I turn and just stare into your eyes
and you stare back
it makes me happy when you do that
I feel like it's only us
I could see the joy in your eyes, in your smile when you looked at me,
when I would finally crack,
laughing because **** you boy you've found the exact spot,
I know where to tickle you back though
Revenge is so sweet,
I watch the shiver go down your spine,
watch as you try to keep your face in line

I loved getting tipsy with you, us, our families
I see the looks exchanged between our families,
I think they've realised before us what's happening
I think I'd be happy if my life carried on like this

you've always made me smile.
Lucy Nov 2013
I can't remember the girl I used to be,
before I was the one you now see,
When it was just us three,
No one could defeat us together,
We googled where I'd live,
Plan trips, excursions, days out,

I have always been shy,
but few people know,
I have to scream, shout, be loud,
over do it, so people don't see it.
But its who I am
and sure, once you get to know me,
I'm not that much of a bore.

I never thought I would care about my collarbones,
just thought they were there to break,
Like all those arms when I was young,
All the scars I carry are not from a blade,
They are from falling over, injuring myself unintentionally.


What happened to that girl I used to be,
the one that smiled, was happy,
Laughed and danced, made people smile,
she seems to have disappeared,
I hope its only for a short while.

Where is that girl I used to be?
Looking at old photos I seem to have changed, thinking back to how I was then and how I am now, it's two different people, I want the old me to come back.
Lucy Nov 2013
My generation have survived the end of the world more than once
2012 was the most recent.
Time and time again people predict the end of the world
Because someone's calender ran out of time
But we haven't
Time still keeps ticking.

The end of the world doesn't scare me like it did my grandparents generation
When a nuclear war was a real possibility every day
I think the idea rather thrills me
Leaving a planet so kind to have housed us,
nursed us,
taken care of our needs.

And then to blow it up,
For it to be ****** into a black whole,
For it to freeze, encasing us within
For it to burn, to a char
For everything to go dark, forever.

For a burst of light to be the last thing I see
For the last thing I say to be  a sorry, a goodbye an 'I love you'
For my potential husband, children, grandchildren never to see this planet
For my potential future just to stop.
Dead in its tracks.

The idea rather thrills me.
Lucy Nov 2013
I don't live, I exist.
I don't smile, I lie.
I don't cry, I'm too strong.
I do not meet new people, i get nervous.
I do not go out, that needs friends.
I do not trust people, other than a few.
I am not just me, I have a brother and a sister.
I am more than just a girl, I'm a complicated mess.
I do not dissolve like aspirin, I'm more like a capsule.
I do not melt like the snow, I'm more like an iceberg.
What you see is a calm surface.
When really, it's a storm inside.




I am not just me, I am everyone.
Lucy Nov 2013
446
four hundred and forty six.
four hundred and forty six too many.
too many fathers, mothers, sisters, brothers, sons, daughters, friends family.
family left behind to fight a war at home.
home missing someone.
someone brave enough to lay down their life.
life that you take for granted.
granted its not on home soil.
soil that they fight for.
for you, for me, for us.
us the people sat quietly.
quietly the war wages on.
onwards and upwards.


The soldiers of the Great British Army.
Four hundred and forty six British soldiers have died over the past twelve years, fighting for a life we all take for granted, to every soldier willing to lie his/her life down for Queen and for country, I salute you.
While I realise this may be a sensitive subject, I felt inspired to write it.
Lucy Sep 2013
I have so much in my head to unload, a page couldn't take it all.
The anger and hatred I throw at the door,
Is neither seen heard or felt by the one I intend it to be for.
Its kept inside, for where else could it go,
Buried and buried like the ground under snow.

The day is coming I can feel it deep down,
When it will come screaming out,
And I'll regret it straight away.
And yet there is nothing I could do,
For the words would be said.

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