I must be losing my grip*
The love is flowing
Like a free reign hurricane
No barriers

It's like the New Orleans flood
This mess is destructive

I'm in love with the spitting image of a man
A man who isn't quite full grown
He still has some wishing
And some learning to gain in his life
And ain't no one to blame
But his past enamored self

What he once was,
Is lost
Truth be told
A door locked to his past
Is best

But for now
I'm in his life
Fully alive, and sober
We both are

It's enthralling
The smiles we bring to one another
The joy I feel in my heart

And oh look,
It's a new year

What more could there be,
That this new year could bring
*He already means so much to me

Sometimes there is you
Sometimes there is me

What have we done?
We spoke of fun

We laid our feet down, gently
We looked up at the moonbeam

We pondered
And wandered

And yet, we meet, again
Those old memories
Speaking volumes
The walls expose us

Deep inside, lay remnants
Decaying deposits of the past

These stars
They constantly stay
Never wavering

These stars
Unable to die
Like us

They have guided us back
And cast the path for us to go on

Words on the screen,
When they are lacking
I want to scream

Words on the screen
They are my life now
They are what bind me together

Words on the screen,
Etching forth
Consuming me

Words on the screen
They aren't much to live for
I need more

Words on the screen,
They cannot soothe me
Or keep me warm

Words on the screen
The empty screen
This time
Bring me chills

Words on the screen,
They are so much more
Than they seem

There is a sense of despair
anger, and sadness
in this constant distance that we have between us

The technology of today,
brings us closer
in a way,

Other times,
it makes the wall of distance
more solid

The lack of control
Can be...
Disheartening

I hate to think of that day
And the way I felt pain
Upon my face

I heard the crunching of your fist
That day much like today
Sticks in my mind like glue
That day I couldn't hurt you

Blood ran off your hand
Silently mumbling profanity
I slipped over to the vanity
To disguise the mess
And make you bleed less

What were you thinking?
Screaming
Punching at mirrors
Never stopping to think
Of the way my heart crashes
Every time that twinkle
In your eye
Loses light

Self conscious, paranoia
That's all I see
In my sight
When walls are breaking
From your strong might

Aug 9. 2011

I see you there, hey
Wasting your life away
Smoking that pipe up
Till you have hit the tip of the notch
To the very last drop

Not a care, not from you
No, the world you live in
Is quite barren
Rotted with layers of filth

I feel like you are less likely
To be loved or abused
This can be good for you

In your steady decline
Daily intoxication
Is not fine

You unfortunate man
Sobbing into your hair
While it rains
Nothing left but a beer
I hope you will change
Give greater care to
What is out there

Step onto your porch
Head to church
Send a prayer
To all who say Sir

You can be a great man
If you put down that can
Come right here lad
Confess your sins
Lean by the chair
Up there, near the front
The crowd will combust
Burning you in your lust


Jul 15. 2011