Why do I envy him?
You and I are nothing
I am nothing
I will be nothing for you
So that you can be my everything

And yet
I'm reminded that my reserve
My inhibition because of you
is also the reason I'm not with you

Why would I step forward
when it only ends in failure
Why would I jump
Only to be crushed

Sometimes a teacher asks
What did you learn this year?
Well funny for me I actually have an answer:

I learned that the world is a terrible, terrible, terrible place
I learned that humanity is cruel and unforgiving
I learned that people are selfish, and only do what's best for themselves
I learned that this world *****

I understand now why somebody may say
my innocence has been taken
I've forgotten about the beauty in humanity
when all I see is homicide and suicide
and the inevitable evil that courses through our veins

Is there pain worse
than knowing out there
there is someone better for you
than me

Is it not fair
For me to feel?

For if one has love for me,
but I for another
Can I not hope?
am I not the same as them?

When do my dreams
trump those of another

Are you ever remembered?
When the crowds pass by
when you swim upstream
while the rest can fly

They get all the credit
and even the girls
as we sit in the back,
to watch as drama unfurls

Always recognized, never remembered
Is there ever a time that the first will surrender?