How those blue eyes sparkle, like diamonds full of sapphire.
And I cannot imagine the beauty of that big heart of yours.
When mine is so black and ***** and full of soot, but you got one made out of pure flowers, blossoming in the spring time, and those veins are rooted into a body, ready to fulfill good deeds with short notice. But I'm a little bit of an ungrateful ***** at times and you deal with me. And I don't know why, or for what good reason. But you do it without asking, or requiring of me. I'm given a gift, and sometimes I can abuse it. And that's bad and I'm not sure how much you'll put up with till you finally leave like every other person I know. I use constantly, like a impaired druggie, and I know not how to stop. But your the doctor to my disease. If only you could really cure me. And I'm a shooting up, and drinking to much, wondering if you care far too much.

I'm tired and stressed,
And such a God awful mess,
Why can't it be summer now,
No one is happy or pleasant,
And life isn't going so swell,
I miss the sun, and real love, and an actual hope for tomorrow.
I'm lost and confused and don't know what to do,
Wishing it could always be us two,
But life is not a ton of not so much fun,
And I got ton of stuff I don't want to do at all,
So how is it,
That I'm stuck.
In the muck.
And I haven't had any luck,
With life lately.
Something better happen to make me a little bit happy.

I like to think I got an angel with wings wrapped about me like a scarf.
It looks like a he, with bushy black hair and cold sapphire eyes,
He has a dark soul, but a good heart,
And he loves me,
Deeply cause I'm God's child, I'm property of God's
He's not gonna let anything hurt me,
And he's fun and shy. Sorta spunky. He has long lacy black wings, and arms as strong as oceans waves.
He's invisible of course though, but that's why I'm still alive, I got an angel watching out for me.

I got a song in my heart,
But no one one will let me sing,
It's aching to be broken up to be heard,
A charming melody,
But I got all this **** homework.
And it's too cold outside to fly,
The weather is dead.
And my insides are slowly dying,
Not worth another try to sing,
I'll put down my instrument and try another day

I try to cut, through the skin, as if it's my last effort to free my own soul from it's own pain,
The skeletal bones and tissue intertwined, wanting to break free, from such limited physicality's
Rather to feel real pain, then this goopy stuff they call emotions,
I'm entangled in a war of not my choosing,
A world, I was not made for,
And I walk aware of this,
Every, single day i'm breathing hard and the cold air ***** all the warmth from my own blood,
And I feel nothing, but darkness, ******* out my soul,
The life I once wanted,
A fairytale forgotten while I'm living this horrid nightmare,
Full of language and knowledge I could care less about,
When all I wanna do is run in fields, and soak up the ocean with my heart,
And never return to a desk if it's the last thing I do,
Freedom from driving and technology,
A phone always beeping,
Just me, myself and I,
And a God that I could see with all the stuff out of the way

I'm too tired to sleep.
Tomorrow can wait,
I wanna be up,
Wide awake,
Dreaming of again touching you,
For math books take to the back seat,
And lately I can care less about whether I should wash my hair,
Cause baby I got you to make me clean,
Take my heart and make a real man out of me,
Sure I sound a lil loopy,
But kissing you is like inhaling a drug,
I get high at the sight of your fine eyes,
Looking at me with hunger,
Oh ***, let me cook for ya food that will feed you forever,
Cause our youth at lasting,
We got time passing,
So why waste it sleeping

Winter,
There is no win this season,
The snow and cold makes me all depressed and sad,
Hoping for an early spring,
At least that's what I hope for,
Every
Single
Day,
Yet another snowflake falls,
And don't get me wrong,
Snow is pretty every now and then,
But frankly I cannot want frozen fingers and toes
My body freezing to the very bone,
And I tire easily then before
Being awake is such a bore,
And I want to not freeze
Just a moment to feel a heart beat
And a warm hug, and hot coffee,
Cause cold is not my cup of tea

I think you fell over two stories in love with me. Into an ocean and you poor thing, drowned without even realizing it.
And I felt like you met a person that I didn't even know.
Never thinking I really was ever that special,
But those blue eyes suddenly found me captivating,
And someone found me out to be more then just pretty,
A boy who finally didn't wanna leave,
A sincere heart,
One who maybe I could for once trust and perhaps love,
But oh, that scary word, how mysterious it is, to be in,
Love, what must your heart ache for me,
How it thumps up and down so rapidly
And just now I'm beginning to feel violent sharp tremors when your name just enters my brain,
Can it be?
Love or are we both still far too young

He was a boy,
A boy of soft songs,
Little novels,
And a hard and weary heart,
He wrote down his desires in a book,
"Pleasant dreams, quiet hours and sunlight."
And he wanted to be still,
And stare at the stars, write down his thoughts, and maybe one day find a girl,
Who could find his odd and strange habits cute,
And she wanna cuddle with him till daylight,
Read him his books and listen to his soft voice and maybe mend all the brokenness and misery he had suffered,
To be soaked up by infectious laughter and soft skin that he could dry his tears on,
Maybe someone who he could base his dreams on
And love him more then the characters in his book did

College….
Long boring lectures,
Can I just sleep through this,
I'll read it later,
*** what is my professor even wearing?
My eyelids can't stay open,
And I wanna go back to bed
Oh why, oh why did Christmas break have to end,
I'm sick,
I'm hungry,
Oh God I wanna **** myself,
This degree better be worth it,
I'm freezing,
This place can't even pay for heating?
How much is this text?
I don't even have enough for rent.
Can I just graduate yet,
I did this in High school,
I can't pay for that…
I'm so ready to die…
My youth being spent on mindless literature

She was a girl with soft lips and a hard heart. One you kinda veered off from when you're next to at the mall. She was lovely specimen of perfume and paint which soaked her veins and made me enamored with her sweet perfection. And before I knew it, I was a victim of love itself. Love, one of innocence falls solemnly to its unknown vices, unaware of the pain and terrible heartache one can be trapped after loving someone. I loved her without hesitation. I loved her without holding a single song back. I loved her, with the knowledge that she may never see me throw cupid's spell that little naked babe cast on me. She was a mystery. One who kept to herself as if she had been a victim of pain brought on by the horrible tragedies that love can create. Maybe that's why I was so in love. She was a caged tiger, still incredibly beautiful yet dangerous to the touch. Only distance would protect me, but I was like a zookeeper. And distance was not an option. I could no longer look from afar. I was done with just looking. To feel her brown gold locks against my skin would be as if I'm lying china silk. To have those diamond eyes look at me with kindness and affection would be staring at the face of a cherubim. A ****** from sins of this world who would be the very one to restore my soul. I was enchanted, infected, and very much obsessed for this girl was…unfathomable and one I could only write about, so I did.

I feel trapped in a tower,
Man, I need a shower,
And my eyes are so very tired,
I wanna go away,
And take another vaca,  Not go back to school as soon,
Oh to have a job where it's not so freezing,
And to have my brain depleting of thoughts that were so precious before,
I wanna rewind and go back in time,
To the days were worry was nevermore,
But on this bleak and dreary *** day,
I can only but complain of my sad and pathetic Christmas blues,
A New year to fail at everything I do,
So sad to say,
But in other words you have a nice day

I finally fell for a friend. Not a stranger or a crush,
Just someone I could easily let in,
To my messy heart and head,
But sadly it now won't be easy,
At least my stomach's not so queasy,
But dang now my heart is pumping pretty funny,
And I just like you for real,
Before I was abusing you,
But now I really feel like I might suddenly lose you,
And that's not cool,
So maybe we should back up,
Reverse,
Check out our damage and make sure we aren't too hurt,
But darling, I just want you and I to work,
Even if it's gonna be hard,
Just promise me we won't go too far,
And stop and start up again,
Making sure our engines can work
Like they should again

What do ya do when a heart breaks?
Cause it hurts worse then a major headache,
I rather break a bone then a heart, cause hearts hurt insanely too much,
And no amount of ibuprofen is gonna work,
It just is gonna bleed more,
No matter the drugs or alcohol,
The pain will proceed,
Until time has taken it's sweet toll,
And then it just becomes a small sore memory

I wanna tell you life ******* *****,
Kicks you in the ***, when your down it doesn't care,
It just kicks harder,
Like a splinter in your finger,
The hangnails peeling off your hands,
And the callouses just get rougher,
Or worse,
A friend shuts up,
A boy leaves,
And life just doesn't give a **** about where you go or what you do,
Everyone around just wants to hurt you!
And I got these bandaids from my battle scars,
I decided to try too hard,
Or not try at all,
I can't seem to win,
So its ok to feel hopeless, or like a loser,
Or the wimpy sinner that you are,
I mean for awhile,
But don't let the dust bite you,
Don't let the storm blow you over,
When you get hit,
You hit back!
When your heart breaks,
You break whatever broke it,
Lick the wounds later,
Cause you gotta go after what some happiness right now

Oh Romeo, I know now your pain,
And passionate Juliett it makes sense to why you ran away.
All in the pursuit of love and happiness.
But I ask that in not be in vain,
As William Shakespeare portrayed in his tragic play,
Please I beg,
Oh God,
Give me a chance to defeat this evil dispute,
And may we reunite as it should've been,
But I'm so **** angry right now…

Ouch!
Thou cruel fate has pierced my heart,
And I can barely breath,
Inhaling has become a lot harder,
And I wanna scream!
But maybe I'm not meant to be,
In control of my horrible destiny,
This cruel life that can easily break,
My glass heart,
And in the wake of my daydreams
Are creepy and disdainful nightmares,
Oh please,
I beg,
Life be merciful,
As I am nothing without some hope to keep on holding onto

I'm just completely torn up,
With all this ******* bad luck,
See there's this guy,
And of course it's always a guy,
But anyways,
He won't call…or fb or txt…
So I'm left here thinking what the heck,
I wanna ring his neck,
For making me need him more then necessary,
I don't even know whats wrong with him,
Or happened,
All that messed up ****,
I don't care,
But really why?
It was all going so swell,
Why didn't it have to suddenly drowned in a heartbreak from hell,
And why am I even in tears,
I should've expected such disaster to occur,
Unsuspectedly everything was going too well,
Now I'm alone,
Wondering why I even try

I think that he might love me,
Although I mean it's hard to tell,
Cause he won't confess,
But still I look into those eyes,
And I see him look at me,
With an endearing smile,
Like as if I've created happiness,
Just by looking back at him,
But I don't know,
Maybe,
I'll just keep staring back,
Lusting for his lips to be pressed upon mine,
But he won't very well do it, will he?
And I want him to prove that with more of a look,
That he likes me,
Maybe,
He'll do more then just stare back
Someday

I can't sleep...
As the clock goes tick tock,
My brain can't seem to turn off,
The sun is down,
But I'm up,
Wondering…
Thinking, pondering, dreaming,
All that crazy fun stuff about finals and what not,
And I think of you,
What will become of us,
Yeah I know thats far into the distance,
If we even last that long…
But honey I can't stop worrying,
Thats what I'm best at,
And the acid travels back into my chest,
Heart burn,
And I'm wide awake, in pain, hoping that tomorrow will get better,
I just wanna stop thinking,
Just go to sleep and let the dreams in,

And I wanna talk to somebody!
Tell them my frustrations and agonies and failures,
I wanna scream and cry and tell them the story of my hopes and dreams,
Have them talk back and understand me,
But I'm just a hopeless writer in this world who keeps one wondering on and on and on,
I keep writing,
And maybe somebody is gonna hear my writings,
I mean read,
Read and read and read,
Cause by the end of this life all I'm gonna be is a dusty book,
With those thick warm pages full of words,
Maybe comfort someone, or pull at their heart strings and make them think,
I just want this world to hear!
Hear my silent cries and worn out whispers in the night,
When I had no one!
And also hear my dying laughter,
Those moments I couldn't breathe!
But see nobody notices,
Or sees,
This lonesome quiet reader

I'm a fool that can't fall,
No I'm resistant to it's spell,
It's charms,
It's torture,
The mystery of it all,
I'm a hopeless romantic,
Too afraid to love,
And that's just sad,
But Love,
Is sorta strong, and strange,
But yet I refuse to let it in,
I got some China Walls protecting me from something more powerful then the huns,
From the outbreak of love,
The glorious disease,
Everyone else was bitten, but me,
I took the vaccine,
I knew the worse before I was able to really want cupid's arrow to enter,
While everyone else was getting bewitched,
I said no,
And ran far away,
Did not stop those others from falling,
No matter how much I advise them,
They weren't as strong,
They were hit,
Struck by amore,
And I stay resistant

And now I only realized how important you were to me when you left,
Like you were cinching together the ruptured rip in my heart torn apart by all that I've done for love,
And I felt as if it wasn't there,
Nothing went wrong either,
And if it was wrong it didn't matter,
Cause I knew that somewhere out there,
You were caring about me and would be sad to hear about me being sad…
So therefore, because you cared about whether I was happy or not,
I was indeed very happy,
But oh that evil fate that has an reared it's ugly head,
Faces me head on,
And now,
I lie missing you and wanting you and caring more about you then I ever did when you were so within my reach,
When you were there to ease the wounds of my heart,
The aspirin to my aching soul,
But now, I hurt more then I ever did before,
Cause you aren't even within talking distance,
And I try to remember the times when you weren't,
Somehow they were erased from memory,
Only to be replaced by the sweet iridescent moments of when you were there for me,
So boy,
Don't forget this heart you have so carefully and regrettably harbored for she will have a hard time forgetting you

Love,
What are you?
How do I know if I have you,
And if I don't what do I do to receive you,
For my heart is weary,
And my brain is done,
Wishing for things that won't come,
But maybe if I were to happen to meet you,
Things would make sense,
Except love isn't worthy to be made sense of,
Your confusing as hell,
Making me want people who don't desire me,
How can this be?
But when some unfortunate soul wants me the same,
Then I have a inherent tendency to run away,
Whats wrong with me?
Am I afraid?
Afraid of what?
I ask myself,
But just that I can't control it,
I cannot control emotions,
That's scary,
I cannot control you,
For sadness could come over me, suddenly,
And I be whisked away into nothing,
So love,
Please stay for awhile,
At least keep me company for today,
That's all I wanna say

Love me?
Touch me,
Kiss me,
Brush your fingers across my skin,
Entice me,
Make me miss you,
Don't just say the words and run,
Stay,
Make me want you somehow the same,
But me in strangle,
Don't let me go,
Or give me a weak hug,
I want a hug that's more then a hug,
I want pressure,
Squeeze me,
Put your arms around me and hold me long,
So do it all and more,
Don't hold back a cent of your affection,
For I've never felt love before

Homework…
losing it,
Wanting to drop dead
Yet heart won't stop beating,
Obviously
Just keep on breathing,
But still,
Twisting insides,
Wanting to cry
Alleviate this pain,
But another drink of coffee won't be enough,
The strain is like rain,
A constant pour
Never ending,
Wanting so much to run without cause,
Or destination,
Freedom,
Just a taste,
A minute without worry,
Or something,
A distraction,
An hour of lost thought,
is all I want,
But can't get

We bicker like an old couple,
But we talk like two good friends,
And I can't help but secretly want him,
Because out of everyone I've ever known,
It's also been him,
To call me unsuspectedly and chat,
No matter how many times I try to push him out of my life,
For God sake's he's in Florida and I still think of him every now and then,
Was it just false hope,
Or still a solid dream I should pursue,
Am I just nuts?
But I still look back to that night,
That first night when he put his arm around me so randomly,
I had glasses on and my hair looked a wreck,
Still…
For some stupid reason it felt right with only him

Oh will you be mine?
Though I barely know you,
But those sparkling eyes have bewitched me,
Usually I'm more powerful but yet,
I cannot control that heart of mine who plays such tricks,
Is it love, or a twist of my unrealistic fairytale,
But still I want you,
With so much of me,
I dare not jinx it but can it be?
Suddenly?
Love?
No, for the folly of the mind wouldn't allow me to fall so easy,
You have to of course win me,
Yet I cannot help but wish,
For a first and final kiss,
The passion between us cannot be amiss,
But still, could cupid have stuck us both at once?
Maybe one day we finally be one?

I'm shattered,
Like a broken window,
Cracked and queer,
I fear the best human emotion,
Which of course is love,
How devilish it is for me,
To drag you on a string,
Making you desire continuously,
I want no one, but I need them most desperately,
What am I to do?
My heart is in two,
For I think I maybe in need of you,
So what if I fall too hard,
Or not at all,
How hard would that really hurt you,
And that would be my biggest crime,
To strip your heart of it's biggest veins,
I wish you nothing but the best,
But maybe perhaps I'm not it

We get it ok,
You're "in love"
Whatever that means,
Flamboyantly displaying PDA across my Facebook newsfeed,
Great,
For you,
But seriously,
Give me a break,
For I got no arm to hold, no kiss to have, no compliments to receive,
Or a "Baby I miss you,"
Yeah that's not for me,
I watch it everyday and wonder why I'm not this way,
Probably because the rhythms in my heart are not as dysfunctional,
I can get on without a "I love you"
For that's like ropes or more like chains on my ankles,
But I don't mind waiting…
Just tired of watching of every so called friend fall to love,
When I'm resistant to all it's evils,
Maybe because I know how evil it can really be,
How attachment strikes the heart and turns a person into one neurotic zombie,
Barely even living,
I say life alone is more worth preserving,
And heartbreak is not worth having,
I feel more easy to breath with just me

God I'm so thankful first off for my room.
My sanctuary,
And I cannot be more appreciative of my annoying crazy family,
Yeah they're a riot,
But more then enough for me to handle at times,
Where I be without em?
I thank you for this amazing country right now who's future appears to be a bit bleak,
But we've survived rougher times,
And I cannot be more grateful for the words I've heard you spoken to me
Even though I don't always listen,
Still you remain, always persistent,
And I need that nudge,
And God I thank you for the ten fingers and ten toes,
They all work for your glory,
Yet you still let them shove food into my mouth,
A basic simple need that I could not live without,
So I wanna thank You,
Not just today,
But every second of every hour,
I wanna lift up my hands and just say
"THANKS!"
For being the God that You are,
means a lot to me,
And no friend or lover could ever make up for the love you give me consistently,
Even when I myself are not at all deserving of it,

And I can't see forever with you,
Although that's a long time…
Like forever,
Your not perfect,
But really now,
Who the hell is?
So maybe if I can't see forever, maybe a temporary arrangement can be made,
I know, sounds a bit inane
Look here though,
I'm not a girl who's gonna just fall right into anyone's arms,
Although yours are quite comfortable,
I gotta side that's just freedom at it's finest,
And boy,
I don't know if your ready for such a wild ride,
But hop on if you think you can survive,
For I'm not an easy gal to coincide with,
Least that's what've been told,
So you're cute and make me sorta happy,
Perhaps we can try to go along with this,
Whatever 'this' maybe,
If you're ready...

Like those eyes,
Those sparkling fireballs of burning light,
They give me hope for humanity,
And I look at them and it's like all the air I ever had in my lungs was punched out,
Now I can't even inhale anymore,
She's standing there looking at me,
Making it so **** hard to breathe,
But I can't stop staring…
Even if I lost every breath in my body,
My eyes could never get enough of looking into hers

I do not know what to do,
But darling forgive me for not falling in love with you,
Thought you silly was I,
But no,
Just strong willed,
And you are good,
Too good,
I cannot have you still,
For I am the tempest winds of the north,
Raging with wild fire,
I yield not,
I cannot yield to you,
For I am a untamable mystery that even I myself have trouble understanding,
But I bid you adieu,
Please don't mourn me,
Treasure that which we had,
And I am a unforgivable lover who does try too hard,
Or sometimes not at all,
Perhaps I should've just given you a chance,
Though time will tell if we ever end up as one,
But please I'm a unbred stallion without a bridle I walk
And I like the space and freedom I have,
Even if it is all for naught

I'm not some movie screen actress,
With that perfect frame fit for a queen,
Yeah,
I got my loads of imperfections.
But if you like this face and my ungracefulness,
Maybe the stars above ordained us to be more then friends,
For I got some meaty thighs,
And I'm not a 00,
And my hair has a possessed demon living in it,
Yeah I'm messy and it's unbelievable that you wanna even be with me,
But that's a nice thought,
To know that your crushing hard,
And you'll let me snuggle in your arms on occasion,
So maybe I'm too stubborn now to let you in,
Or I don't see what is so ever amazing about a girl so messed up in her head,
And your so nice and sweet and ever present,
Gosh I just want us to be together,
Maybe though if we were,
You'd finally realize how clingy I can get,
Or how the wounds in my heart have't healed quite yet.
I just don't want you or I to ever get so hurt,
Because you should know by know,
I'm so far from your idea of perfect

She was mad,
Heated, lost in love and anger,
Causing her mind to go numb,
In the rain waiting for a guy she wanted,
Wanted more then air,
And he was inside and ignorant,
As the rain came pouring down,
Unaware that she was there,
Standing, struck with unrequited love,
Wanting him on her, but he was quite lost himself,
Should he keep on going it alone?
She knocked on the door in the rain,
He heard with unconcern,
But opened anyways,
Looking into those docile eyes of soft blue,
How could he leave her there?
So he gripped her tighter then he ever did before,
Admitting his wrongs and downfalls,
How could he let the poor thing fall,
He smoothed the stray strands of hair and pressed upon those lips,
Which were so desperately need of his kiss,
And she couldn't help but to not give in

Single,
That's me,
One big label,
But I ask, not for pity,
I ask for the ability to be free,
Without a fear that I am at all lonely,
I like it,
Really I do,
Cherish the loneliness that is not at all sad,
It's quite fulfilling and why you may ask?
Well it's difficult to say,
Especially if you are not this way,
I can do, whatever, with whoever, whenever I want,
And sure that seems sickeningly selfish,
But hey, that's me in a complete sentence,
Probably that's what happens with writers,
We are ok, for the characters we make up in our head fill the void that people think we need,
I need nobody!
Except a cup of coffee every now and then with a bright and bubbling conversation,
That's all I want,
To cheer me up,
Yeah,
So go ahead and hold his hand, and kiss him every night,
I'll be just here writing my dear,
Single as can be,
Doing happily as possibly

What about me?
You push, and part and now you're breaking my heart,
All for a boy who says he loves you,
So what about me?
Who was there for you when you were upset,
Who was there during those dark days, trying to get you to work,
And who was there when the seems ripped opened and you were hurt?
Yeah…So not trying to be possessive, but what about me?
And I want you to know we never fought,
I can't even remember one disagreement we had,
Our friendship was filled with sparkling smiles and fun,
But no,
I guess it was all just a fling,
Gosh **** it, I can't help but want to inflict the same pain you caused me,
Call it jealousy, but what you're doing to me is injustice
Pure and absolutely douchbaggery at it's finest,
And what do you got to say for yourself,
But a stupid little sorry,
Hell no man,
It'll take a lot more then those garish crocodile tears,
I cannot again help but be mad,
For this is not the first time i've been thrown aside,
Like just being alone is hard enough,
I just keep sliding by,
But ***,
I guess we might be done,
Although this battle you might have one,
Taking my slashed bits of my broken heart,
And breaking it into smaller pieces
I hope that's want you wanted

She's a spitfire. A kinda girl that makes you want her no matter how poisonous she can be. With an infectious smile, and a swing with those wide hips, she make your mind melt. Like a shaken glass bottle of coke, she was bubbles of carbonated water mixed with sugar and unknown chemicals that make your taste buds sizzle. But she explode on you if you weren't careful. She wasn't afraid to say, "I hate you". She often said it quite often, especially to boys who tried too hard, or not at all. She was a wild thing and liked fire even if she got burned. And she wasn't afraid to hurt you. And if you hurt her, watch it. If you hurt someone she loved, then you better run. But a ****** she was, and sparky, sorta spinster sort of attitude she had towards love. She didn't want it. She needed it not in her mind. But alas at night she be alone and cold, wanted some arms to have to hold her. And her cold hard eyes defied their love. She was crude and not careful, and said words that make those boys want her more then they should. She teased and taunted and played with em all. Wanting nothing to do with them and their easy hearts. She wanted someone who was strong. Someone who wasn't so easy to or so nice. She didn't like nice, because as hard as she tried she couldn't be nice. She wasn't nice or selfless or loving. She was war, and strife, and like to make other people mad. She say stuff she didn't mean, and make sure people knew what she thought, even if it didn't matter. She wanted a guy who could manage it. Who could settle her down and be ok ruffling her feathers and calling her names. She wanted him keeping it interesting, unlike the others who bored her to tears. Yeah, she was the one that I didn't want to tame but loved so much anyways.

I'm so sick of this never ending war of politics,
It doesn't really matter in the end if you're a democrat or republican,
Cept I admit I'm of the far right of this so called fight,
But really now,
Can't we just agree of matters that are so logically right,
Like killing babies is a crime that we cannot deny,
And going out and having a smoke is just a joke,
What are you doing with your life,
And college is just a mind warping society of educational hussies,
Like why can I get fined for parking in the wrong spot,
But if I wanna get high, somehow that's considered fine,
Anyways back to all this war of politicians,
Like let me speak what I believe for God sakes,
Ain't that what this country was based off of,
And somehow you feel compelled justified with all those lies,
Backing up that you need government funding to live a good life,
Well I'm just saying that doesn't fly with me,
Yet you'll turn around and say nasty things,
Nothing personally bro,
I just don't agree with you,
And I said it to your face, like nothing bad at all,
So let me tell it to you straight,
I think I'm right…And in the end we'll learn the hard way,
Won't we?

You're so **** beautiful boy,
And you don't even know it,
Like I look at you and you inspire lyrics,
I can't even prose a real voice,
One look of you turns me into an unrelating author of love,
I can base books off of you,
Tell the whole world my love of you in a book,
Yeah, it's so crazy,
But gosh you make me lose it all,
Make me want it all, want the world and lose my soul,
And I don't know if I love you and all that other ****,
But boy, I'm wanting to write words that last centuries about you…
Why?
I don't know…
Something about you just stirs my insides,
I can't help but wonder why the hell why.
I'm not obsessed, but for sure I am desperately wanting you,
Not sure if the feelings are to be ever requited,
If not,
At least I got to look at you...

Looking at my nation makes me wanna cry,
Whatever happened to so called freedom and independence you guys?
But citizens are getting greedier and demanding,
Expected to be handed money just cause of circumstances they can't control,
If I sat in my house all day,
Nothing would get done at all,
And just cause you don't have a job doesn't mean the government should reach into my pockets and
TAKE! TAKE! TAKE!
That isn't their job! But you expect it to be,
So you'll vote and vote and vote,
For Robin Hoods and supposed heroes that don't get much done,
But spend and spend and spend,
Because we all deserve equalness…
But don't you get it,
We are never equal,
God didn't make us equal and for life to be fair,
And no,
I didn't say a flaming big explosion created us all to evolve,
Please, lets stop that hopeless dream,
Like, I'm the minority for sure without a voice,
But back in 1958 it wouldn't have been my choice to remove my child from my womb,
Yet it's a sad, sad, sad world, getting worse every day,
I'm tired of not being heard my words and being called ignorant,
For I'm a well informed voter, shouting off some concerns of my own,
Don't I have the **** right as everyone else to be heard?
But there's no point if I'm not listened to, right?
If this type is never read,
Then my thoughts forever are dead,
Please don't take away my rights, to believe what I've always believed.

Yeah, I love Jesus,
You wanna know why?
Because I sin lots,
Sure I'm a Christian, but I ain't perfect,
Yet I sure get judged for my faith,
But I'm pretty sure they're all just as fake,
I got a God who loves me nonetheless,
And you know He doesn't hate gays, or the alcoholics,
Those are the ones he wants the most,
Those are the ones he came specifically to save,
The people that need love even after they fall to temptation,
Because sometimes we just can't resist,
So I may love Christ,
But I am not him,
Like at all,
I'm suppose to try to be like him,
But you know that doesn't always work out,
I fail,
And I'm publicly admitting it right now,
I'm a faulty hypocrite
Just like the rest of you,

Maybe cause you make it so easy,
Admitting it all for me,
Yeah, that's cool that you like me an all,
I don't know why I'm so hesitant about the fall,
Well everything about you I can like.
Your tall and cute with a well built physique,
Although,
There isn't that spark, ya know?
That electricity starting,
The internal connection, that'll will create in me a more wilder heartbeat,
It ain't there, and I swear, I'm so tired of it not clicking,
You gave me the power so I can't lose,
**** it,
How dare you do that to me,
I'm a little more evil then you see,
I'll manipulate and manage that heart you've so willingly given to me,
I don't know what now,
But honey don't trust me,
These sugar coated lies, breaking me apart inside, but the truth is so tried and dried,
God,
I wish there was something that I could do,
Start on over,
Reset each other,
Pull out my plug and begin again,
Erase all the memories we had,
Like you drive me,
And I need you to keep on this charade,
Even though I may not at all feel the same,
And like you as well as you have so liked me

Love aint my thing. I don't understand it too well. The feeling is mutual. Sorry bro, but you have permanently friend zoned.
And why? You may ask. Well let me break it down. I am a GIRL.
Read my lips. Not your dude that you can just kiss every now and then. Why don't you try?
Like admit it. Do something significant.
You standing there is wasting my time. I cannot initiate.
I mean sure, let's say I did, what good would that do, or even prove.
Oh my God, you are so scared.
And it makes me want to hate you. But I stare, waiting and wishing, some confidence would grow from underneath.
Taking me within the covers of your sheets. I am not asking for a wedding ring, well least not yet.
Marriage is a long time, far into the distance.
I like my space.
If you give it to me, maybe I'll let you enter mine as well.
I cannot trust girlfriends.
They lie, they cheat, and **** my heart consistently.
Which is why I've been talking to you so I don't feel so lonely.
Why don't you take the opportunity?
Come on, get to know me!
For God sakes,
Take over,
Just a lil bit,
I don't know where to go or what to do,
Howbout you and that brain figure it out,
I don't have time to go on with these silly games…
Just ask me out already!

I want a letter written to me,
Starting with Dear and ending with my utmost affection,
I wanna be brought up during those days where guys tried,
Like not afraid to get denied,
Lets pretend the internet isn't alive,
I wanna dance ballroom style, and let a man take the lead,
I want him to pretty much just protect me,
I'm trashing all this feministic ****,
Lets go back to those days when girls were respected and taken care of,
Rewind and replay the parts of Pride and Prejudice,
Or I wanna be Scarlett O'hara battling it out with Rhett,
I want a man who won't be so afraid,
Sure my face is pretty and whatnot, but why don't you say it to me?
Like grow a pair,
Grab me,
Make a move,
Don't be so **** afraid to hug me,
Please,
All I'm asking,
And I want to be dressed to the nines with ball gowns that go down to my ankles, and my hair all curled like Maria Antoinette,
Ok so maybe I've lost my mine,
But I sure wanna ride a carriage at twilight,
And have candles light the night,
Silly of me I suppose,
But still I cannot help but want those ancient times,
When men had to act right

You don't need a somebody!
You got you,
You should know you're good enough,
The models on the tv screens with their perfect bodies are fake,
You should believe in yourself,
Like you got everybody wanting something from you,
Your parents, your friends, your boyfriends and last but not least, that little voice screaming for help inside of your head,
The one that's the bona fide you,
The other you, who puts all that makeup on and tries to diet,
The one who tries to act like she is strong enough,
I don't even know who that is!
Like the one who tries to be book smart, and boy smart, and street smart, and like tries to hold it altogether, when insides she's dying of unhappiness,
Yeah, thats the you, you've been hiding,
The ones who's afraid to love and be kissed,
The ones who's not able to admit she needs someone,
The one who wakes up feeling so inadequate and imperfect and unworthy of life itself every morning of every day,
Yeah, thats the you, that you are honey,
And I'm not saying that's ok,
I'm saying I wanna fix it for ya,
I'm trying to be here and make it fine,
But for God sakes you are so stubborn,
It's as if you enjoy that sorta pain,
You want it to hurt,
You break open you own stitches and watch the blood pour out,
Let them heal,
Allow it to scar over all ready,
I mean, I got ears,
I'll listen with them, just let me hear,
Even if it doesn't make sense,
Scream the demons out,
Cry! Sob! Just quit trying to be in control of life cause you're not and never will be,
And hurts seeing you so wrecked up and confused,
Loving won't be enough I fear,
But whether your hair is blonde or the color of navy blue I can't help but not be so enamored with you,
Still though, I want you to feel the same for yourself first

I don't think you'll ever understand me,
Like the way I do you,
The way I'm constantly unhappy and do the things that I do,
I lie,
And I sometimes tell too much truth,
But I still want people to like me,
I mean doesn't everybody?
Not that I'll change,
I'll stay the same of course, but I wish I wasn't just watching,
I wanna stop looking to be like you,
But being different has its vices,
No one gets it,
I may sound like an the infamous teen angst,
But really, never have I ever met another who truly gets my brain,
I'm an alienated person who likes knowing she's in control,
I won't party or drink because what if I do something that isn't me,
That's the reason though people do those things,
I'm not like that,
I sorta wanna be,
Have fun,
Every now and then,
Just throw back my cares,
For once,
Be free,
Just for a day, I don't wanna be me

Her hands were cold,
Lips frostbitten,
And she was sad and didn't know why,
And he left her,
Like out of the blue,
Dumped and damaged,
Once again,
She recalled his hot and intense kisses,
Like shot of whiskey poured down her throat,
And her mind was numb just thinking about him and his hands on her,
Pressing into her impressions that she never forget,
Grabbing, caressing and kissing,
Again and again and again,
Now all faded into the wall of memories that she have to hold back,
In order to not fall apart,
What was romance?
And why was she so hurt,
Knowing it wasn't meant to be with such a bad boy,
But to have love for once in return would be so good,
She walked on by, hoping that faithful time would heal all those wounds,
Wishing she hadn't let a guy in to ruin her world,
Letting down her guard just to simple suffer,
Oh silly beautiful girls, keep your head up and you'll find a better off man who won't just want in your pants,
For someone up there has plans that one day dreams will come true, may it be with or without a boy

I am not in love,
Well at least I don't think I am,
I mean what is love exactly?
Is it like some crazy obsession with some special person,
Does that person have to be even special?
Like I'm not in love,
Or at least I am pretty sure I'm not,
I would know, I least I hope,
Isn't love, like crazy,
Like indescribable, unattainable, a mystery in itself that cannot be written down and understood in just one poem,
So I guess I'm not in love…
I want to be though,
Although maybe I am because my mind sorta drifts back to you every now and then,
You and your vast mix of imperfections,
Like how you complain constantly,
And how you never know what you want,
And how you insult me every chance you get.
You aren't afraid to be mean, and call me out for my flaws,
Like you don't worship me like other boys do,
I mean, if anything we are friends, but perhaps I like you more...
Weird how it just is ok when we are around and we can talk to each other, openly, with out any censoring whatsoever…
I know more about you then I ever wanted to know,
You remembered my birthday,
And knew when I wanted to be kissed,
Are we just too stubborn to be each others?
Or has fate just not yet allowed us yet,
But I don't know, I just feel normal around you,
Like ok, and If I had a life with you to feel that way,
I be happy, forever
And no perfect boy could ever recreate that mood within me like the way that you do