And I wanna talk to somebody!
Tell them my frustrations and agonies and failures,
I wanna scream and cry and tell them the story of my hopes and dreams,
Have them talk back and understand me,
But I'm just a hopeless writer in this world who keeps one wondering on and on and on,
I keep writing,
And maybe somebody is gonna hear my writings,
I mean read,
Read and read and read,
Cause by the end of this life all I'm gonna be is a dusty book,
With those thick warm pages full of words,
Maybe comfort someone, or pull at their heart strings and make them think,
I just want this world to hear!
Hear my silent cries and worn out whispers in the night,
When I had no one!
And also hear my dying laughter,
Those moments I couldn't breathe!
But see nobody notices,
Or sees,
This lonesome quiet reader

I'm a fool that can't fall,
No I'm resistant to it's spell,
It's charms,
It's torture,
The mystery of it all,
I'm a hopeless romantic,
Too afraid to love,
And that's just sad,
But Love,
Is sorta strong, and strange,
But yet I refuse to let it in,
I got some China Walls protecting me from something more powerful then the huns,
From the outbreak of love,
The glorious disease,
Everyone else was bitten, but me,
I took the vaccine,
I knew the worse before I was able to really want cupid's arrow to enter,
While everyone else was getting bewitched,
I said no,
And ran far away,
Did not stop those others from falling,
No matter how much I advise them,
They weren't as strong,
They were hit,
Struck by amore,
And I stay resistant

And now I only realized how important you were to me when you left,
Like you were cinching together the ruptured rip in my heart torn apart by all that I've done for love,
And I felt as if it wasn't there,
Nothing went wrong either,
And if it was wrong it didn't matter,
Cause I knew that somewhere out there,
You were caring about me and would be sad to hear about me being sad…
So therefore, because you cared about whether I was happy or not,
I was indeed very happy,
But oh that evil fate that has an reared it's ugly head,
Faces me head on,
And now,
I lie missing you and wanting you and caring more about you then I ever did when you were so within my reach,
When you were there to ease the wounds of my heart,
The aspirin to my aching soul,
But now, I hurt more then I ever did before,
Cause you aren't even within talking distance,
And I try to remember the times when you weren't,
Somehow they were erased from memory,
Only to be replaced by the sweet iridescent moments of when you were there for me,
So boy,
Don't forget this heart you have so carefully and regrettably harbored for she will have a hard time forgetting you

Love,
What are you?
How do I know if I have you,
And if I don't what do I do to receive you,
For my heart is weary,
And my brain is done,
Wishing for things that won't come,
But maybe if I were to happen to meet you,
Things would make sense,
Except love isn't worthy to be made sense of,
Your confusing as hell,
Making me want people who don't desire me,
How can this be?
But when some unfortunate soul wants me the same,
Then I have a inherent tendency to run away,
Whats wrong with me?
Am I afraid?
Afraid of what?
I ask myself,
But just that I can't control it,
I cannot control emotions,
That's scary,
I cannot control you,
For sadness could come over me, suddenly,
And I be whisked away into nothing,
So love,
Please stay for awhile,
At least keep me company for today,
That's all I wanna say

Love me?
Touch me,
Kiss me,
Brush your fingers across my skin,
Entice me,
Make me miss you,
Don't just say the words and run,
Stay,
Make me want you somehow the same,
But me in strangle,
Don't let me go,
Or give me a weak hug,
I want a hug that's more then a hug,
I want pressure,
Squeeze me,
Put your arms around me and hold me long,
So do it all and more,
Don't hold back a cent of your affection,
For I've never felt love before

Homework…
losing it,
Wanting to drop dead
Yet heart won't stop beating,
Obviously
Just keep on breathing,
But still,
Twisting insides,
Wanting to cry
Alleviate this pain,
But another drink of coffee won't be enough,
The strain is like rain,
A constant pour
Never ending,
Wanting so much to run without cause,
Or destination,
Freedom,
Just a taste,
A minute without worry,
Or something,
A distraction,
An hour of lost thought,
is all I want,
But can't get

We bicker like an old couple,
But we talk like two good friends,
And I can't help but secretly want him,
Because out of everyone I've ever known,
It's also been him,
To call me unsuspectedly and chat,
No matter how many times I try to push him out of my life,
For God sake's he's in Florida and I still think of him every now and then,
Was it just false hope,
Or still a solid dream I should pursue,
Am I just nuts?
But I still look back to that night,
That first night when he put his arm around me so randomly,
I had glasses on and my hair looked a wreck,
Still…
For some stupid reason it felt right with only him