Oh will you be mine?
Though I barely know you,
But those sparkling eyes have bewitched me,
Usually I'm more powerful but yet,
I cannot control that heart of mine who plays such tricks,
Is it love, or a twist of my unrealistic fairytale,
But still I want you,
With so much of me,
I dare not jinx it but can it be?
Suddenly?
Love?
No, for the folly of the mind wouldn't allow me to fall so easy,
You have to of course win me,
Yet I cannot help but wish,
For a first and final kiss,
The passion between us cannot be amiss,
But still, could cupid have stuck us both at once?
Maybe one day we finally be one?

I'm shattered,
Like a broken window,
Cracked and queer,
I fear the best human emotion,
Which of course is love,
How devilish it is for me,
To drag you on a string,
Making you desire continuously,
I want no one, but I need them most desperately,
What am I to do?
My heart is in two,
For I think I maybe in need of you,
So what if I fall too hard,
Or not at all,
How hard would that really hurt you,
And that would be my biggest crime,
To strip your heart of it's biggest veins,
I wish you nothing but the best,
But maybe perhaps I'm not it

We get it ok,
You're "in love"
Whatever that means,
Flamboyantly displaying PDA across my Facebook newsfeed,
Great,
For you,
But seriously,
Give me a break,
For I got no arm to hold, no kiss to have, no compliments to receive,
Or a "Baby I miss you,"
Yeah that's not for me,
I watch it everyday and wonder why I'm not this way,
Probably because the rhythms in my heart are not as dysfunctional,
I can get on without a "I love you"
For that's like ropes or more like chains on my ankles,
But I don't mind waiting…
Just tired of watching of every so called friend fall to love,
When I'm resistant to all it's evils,
Maybe because I know how evil it can really be,
How attachment strikes the heart and turns a person into one neurotic zombie,
Barely even living,
I say life alone is more worth preserving,
And heartbreak is not worth having,
I feel more easy to breath with just me

God I'm so thankful first off for my room.
My sanctuary,
And I cannot be more appreciative of my annoying crazy family,
Yeah they're a riot,
But more then enough for me to handle at times,
Where I be without em?
I thank you for this amazing country right now who's future appears to be a bit bleak,
But we've survived rougher times,
And I cannot be more grateful for the words I've heard you spoken to me
Even though I don't always listen,
Still you remain, always persistent,
And I need that nudge,
And God I thank you for the ten fingers and ten toes,
They all work for your glory,
Yet you still let them shove food into my mouth,
A basic simple need that I could not live without,
So I wanna thank You,
Not just today,
But every second of every hour,
I wanna lift up my hands and just say
"THANKS!"
For being the God that You are,
means a lot to me,
And no friend or lover could ever make up for the love you give me consistently,
Even when I myself are not at all deserving of it,

And I can't see forever with you,
Although that's a long time…
Like forever,
Your not perfect,
But really now,
Who the hell is?
So maybe if I can't see forever, maybe a temporary arrangement can be made,
I know, sounds a bit inane
Look here though,
I'm not a girl who's gonna just fall right into anyone's arms,
Although yours are quite comfortable,
I gotta side that's just freedom at it's finest,
And boy,
I don't know if your ready for such a wild ride,
But hop on if you think you can survive,
For I'm not an easy gal to coincide with,
Least that's what've been told,
So you're cute and make me sorta happy,
Perhaps we can try to go along with this,
Whatever 'this' maybe,
If you're ready...

Like those eyes,
Those sparkling fireballs of burning light,
They give me hope for humanity,
And I look at them and it's like all the air I ever had in my lungs was punched out,
Now I can't even inhale anymore,
She's standing there looking at me,
Making it so **** hard to breathe,
But I can't stop staring…
Even if I lost every breath in my body,
My eyes could never get enough of looking into hers

I do not know what to do,
But darling forgive me for not falling in love with you,
Thought you silly was I,
But no,
Just strong willed,
And you are good,
Too good,
I cannot have you still,
For I am the tempest winds of the north,
Raging with wild fire,
I yield not,
I cannot yield to you,
For I am a untamable mystery that even I myself have trouble understanding,
But I bid you adieu,
Please don't mourn me,
Treasure that which we had,
And I am a unforgivable lover who does try too hard,
Or sometimes not at all,
Perhaps I should've just given you a chance,
Though time will tell if we ever end up as one,
But please I'm a unbred stallion without a bridle I walk
And I like the space and freedom I have,
Even if it is all for naught