I have never really known my past. The frequencies are vague. The bundle slips out of my hands, and the whole world shatters. Thoughts crumble into dust. Now everything is vivid. Bold beyond statement.

Daggers kiss my heart
Suspended in a trance like coma
Blood rushes to my head flooding the labyrinth
There was no possible exit
Delirium, my imaginary friend
Fails to wake me up
I am drowning yet calm
Falling but flying
Stitches starts to pop underneath flesh
Pure skin ripped off the bone
Trapped in this prison of pleasure
Euphoria courses through my entire anatomy
Tortured by sin, Holy water is my alcohol
The sweet release of passion becomes a vice
My heartbeat pulsating to the metronome
Blood has already traumatized the corneas to the brink if despair
Adrift in paradise.

Firstly, I don’t like being told what to do. Everyday I feel like my head is being hammered  against a wall. I think I know where all of these horrible headaches now come from. I’m also starting to believe that love is only a myth crafted by gods hands alone that is rare to find. Something tells me that writing in this madness isn’t enough for you . It takes a simple calmness to be what you want to be. Everything outside of it just feels like non-sense. What drives someone to hell is what thoughts they put inside their mind. If you fall prey your moral vanishes. You feel defeated, you feel as if all the seeds that you’ve sown have dried up never to be able to taste the sweet fruit they bare. How do you propose I escape? I like this life and no one can control it but me. Keep the peace inside your mind, it must be the only thing that keeps us sane. What do we do once that peace is destroyed? We seek other ventures correct? In order to build and recover that part of us that has been broken. Will we ever heal? Look through your soul’s perspective the true form of which everything manifests, praying violence doesn’t take us over, poorly using the negatives to our advantage we must be truly blind and unacknowledged to what the world holds for us.

Here we are, you still haven't told me your feelings at all. How are you going to release this anger. Nothing grows inside of me, a fire screaming in all it's terror. It won't ever burn out as far as I'm concerned. The peace inside my mind remains placid for all to hear while the lies are starting to sting. Every ounce of moral poured down the drain. As violent as tender love may be it embraces me and wraps me around it's arms. Tears roll down my face and their is no explanation as to why this pain won't ever heal my soul.

there is nowhere
to put these flowers
for a broken vase
that holds no water

Maybe you thought it was better this way. To make me care like I never gave a **** about anything that you did. The flowers I thought had blossomed beautifully have shriveled, So these dead flowers should look just fine.

I pray you can teach me more. I went through so much pain and now that we decided not to talk to each other we ran away from our dreams. That was the stupidest thing we have ever done, upset at the outcome. The future sounds better, I know it will be. I needed faith from you, why was it that I didn't believe you? I guess I was frightened on how you would hurt me so I decided to hurt you. I ****** up so bad, It probably had to happen this way. I'm just sick of waiting for you.

Free flowing ink drifting slowly
time collapses before any light
strings of fate are knotted
wandering in my dreams
will I perish in this lovely abyss
where peonies blossom
and rose petals blow
me kisses whilst I sleep

It's a wonderful night to be sober. Dreaming wouldn't have it any other way. The night sky like our voice was dreary. I lent you my jacket but you said that you were already warm. The movie was nice, the lady never found her son. The spicy tuna and dragon roll's we shared at the sushi restaurant couldn't be better. Your smile leaves me in amazement. I walked you you home gave you a kiss on the cheek and you gave me the best hug I have ever gotten in my entire life.

I had to know what was ticking in your head. Your explosion was the worst kind. It was like being buried in quick sand up to my neck. There is no way I can leave. I'd rather stay lost in this world with only you. The last remaining hope for us is to love this life forever.

Another step
Another promise
Cracks on the sidewalks
This continuous walk frees my mind
Slowing time
The environment refined
Anything to forget the daily grind
If the grass is finally green
What does it look like on the other side?
Synchronizing every step
Making sure not to stumble
Leaves on the ground silently humble
People are passing by, not a word being said
Only the wind and calming thoughts in my head
I look at the cement and all of my doubt is dead
Picked up a dandelion
It smiled and told me
Smile for what's ahead.

What came over me? There was no reason to hurt you. I destroyed the best part of you and watched you weep under my control. This terrible feeling eats at me. I won't let them use me. I can't wait until I die. This life is ******. I'm not happy with this. It has to be you. God must must have planned this. All of this pain must be worth it.

Every petal of life
Reminds me of your flower
a sweet temptation
kisses that are sour
lies that are brutal
the laughter you make
brightens my day.

The silence of the wind calms my spirit
The sun beaming off of my skin
Feels like a burst of fresh energy
The revitalizing touch of life fills my soul
Drinking from the river
My thoughts are clearer
All of my doubt seems faint
While positivity is the only thing left
Fear is non-existent in my world
Light becomes brighter
All that was meant to be said remains still.

How did my life turn out this way? I feel hopeless, the clock keeps ticking and I'm still going nowhere. My undying love I will not give up. I want to hold you close and I can't wait until I get to be with you again. The wreckage of my being cannot take anymore without you. nothing I have ever felt before is melting in my heart. Can you ever forgive me? Blood on the ground and your screaming, it shouldn't be this way. Your angel's speak of violins, always on your mind. Dearest true love

I'm sorry that I broke your heart, It wasn't meant to be. Everyday waking up with you. This misery is murdering my insides praying for a second chance. hoping things go right, not just fly away. I was too fast and you were too shy. I won't ever forget the tears, hopelessly in love, let's find our way.

Every night thoughts of you creep inside of my head. Arrows are thrown at my heart. Symphonies hum inside of my eardrums. These urges are uncontrollable. Craving the sound of your voice, drugs flow throughout my veins. Waiting for you, every comet is our love sending signals of what we could be. Your whispers are sweeter than sugar, every poem for you becomes a tooth decay. Extraordinary beautiful lightning flashes before our souls. Darkness tries to take over, we live this ****.

You are my favorite color, your heart
A diamond in the rough
Stars glimmer from the dazzle
Of your smile, the Moon is our palace
While we salsa on the solar system
Stardust falls off of your body, as I
Speak of comets.
The scent of your breath heaven scent
Twist of fate is in our wine glass
If my heart was to be torn open
It would look like a pomegranate
Magic falls from the sky like the most
Beautiful meteor shower, bathing in
The celebration,tracing our fingers
Through the cosmos, our destiny intertwined
Stitched in the fabric of space, time has no idea
The world has never seemed so big
Satellites orbit our thoughts
We are God's magnum opus.

You are my exile
You are my truth
My faith leads me nowhere but to you
You are my glistening diamond
you are the sweetest thought
You are intoxicating words
You are my strength
You are my rock
Your skin is cocoa butter that heals my wounds
You are my pain
You are the apple of my eye
My finger tips hush you lips whenever you are afraid
You are my solace
You are my prayer
Every kiss tonight I will be here.

What is next for you honey is a lifetime full of surprises. The sun has never felt hotter while the breeze matches your cold heart. We were so worried about what might happen instead of what should happen and now this love is proving worthy of everything that we could never imagine. You mean the absolute world to me. That precious moment when we are together. This life is meant to be lived to the fullest the best way we know how.