So this is what we've become
unrecognized numbers
appearing on a screen
after it all
all the parts of myself
I put into you

I only wanted to tell you
Happy Birthday

I can remember when I woke up the next day
not wanting to open my eyes
there was a split second
when it felt like i forgot
but once the coldness sunk into me
I was done for

Looking back on that day
I wish I could look at that girl
and tell her to stand up

I swear I thought this was going to **** me

I don't remember when it turned, it just did.
I started waking up without hesitation
to open my eyes
thinking of my mornings now
I realize I'm alive

and I'm beating you at your own game
because you wanted me to stay under the covers, didn't you?
you should of known me better than that

I know I have further to go
today was a start
I've come to realize that your actions
have brought me to view myself
as small
insecure
worthless

Today I see
I am none of these things
that you've brought me down to believe
possibly for your benefit

I am worth
I can be enough
for myself

why is it wrong for me to admit it
i am worth it
i know who i am
and what i am capable of

my legs need to push
to take these leaps
that i fear will make me fall
but i am worth it

and i am capable

You wrote me a letter
and left it on the door step
to my surprise
you said
"there was a time I was who I wanted to be"

These words will forever haunt me
because it goes to show
you could of done it
we could of been
for longer than the moment
and then I ask
was it my fault?

Why couldn't you hold on longer?
or fight it harder
these answers will never come

You will never come back.