I see his eyes
and my stomach gives me that feeling
like its falling from the clouds

But my mind tells me
it's too soon

*there is still healing to be done

i wonder why i still dwell
why i still even care
unable to walk away after all that was done

i believe i was really the one
that you loved enough to want to be different
and this makes it all hurt again
because i wish i could have been
that you were ready
and you took the chance
to be better

expressing my thoughts
and feelings
i've come far
i deserve to show it
feel it
live in it

we all fall
i have too many times for me
to feel proud any more
but i am returning
to my heart and soul
still running from the darkness

Today you told me to be strong
that you know i am strong
it's so ironic this is coming from you
because you're the reason i have to be
the one who made me crack
i'll never understand why i keep
letting you in
after it all

i guess i still want to know
that you care
you see me

How do I stop

Caring

All I want

Is to stop