why is it wrong for me to admit it
i am worth it
i know who i am
and what i am capable of

my legs need to push
to take these leaps
that i fear will make me fall
but i am worth it

and i am capable

i wonder why i still dwell
why i still even care
unable to walk away after all that was done

i believe i was really the one
that you loved enough to want to be different
and this makes it all hurt again
because i wish i could have been
that you were ready
and you took the chance
to be better

Today you told me to be strong
that you know i am strong
it's so ironic this is coming from you
because you're the reason i have to be
the one who made me crack
i'll never understand why i keep
letting you in
after it all

i guess i still want to know
that you care
you see me

I see his eyes
and my stomach gives me that feeling
like its falling from the clouds

But my mind tells me
it's too soon

*there is still healing to be done

How do I stop

Caring

All I want

Is to stop