Kaibigan

Isang salita.
Dalawang paraan ng pagbigkas.
Magkaibang kahulugan.
Madalas magkamali at mapagkamalan.

Kaibigan o Kaibigan?

Sinabi mo sa akin sa isang Liham
Malakas ko itong binasa,
"Salamat at ika'y aking kaibigan"
Mali.
Kaibigan pala.
Napaisip ako,
Mas magandang pakinggan
Ang salitang kaibigan
Kumpara sa salitang
Kaibigan.

Tayo

Isang salita.
Dalawang paraan ng pagbigkas.
Magkaibang kahulugan.
Madalas magkamali at mapagkamalan.

Tayo o Tayo?

Sa iyong mensahe, aking natanggap
"Tayo na."
Mali.
Tayo na.
Ako naman tong si tanga,
Padalos dalos sa emosyon
Naniniwala nanaman sa mga ilusyon.

Ngunit sa aking mga guni-guni
Minsan mas nakakatuwang pakinggan
Ang ibang salita
Na ang pinagkaiba lamang ang munting pagbigkas.

Ito.. Magkatabing nakahiga, nakatingala.
"Kay ganda ng aking nakikita."
Ako sayo'y napatingin,
Kay ganda talaga.

Mga bituin.
Patuloy na nagbibigay buhay
sa gabing walang kakulay kulay

Sinasabi nila na ang mga bituin
lumalabo kapag lumalayo.
Ngunit nakikita parin ang kanyang ganda
Kanyang liwanag,
patuloy kaming namamangha.

Sinasabi nila na ang mga bituin,
ginagamit upang mahanap mo kung saan ka paparoon
Isang instrumento ng direksyon
Mawala ka man,
tumingin ka lang sa kalangitan
tutulungan ka nitong mahanap ang inaasam na daan.

"Bulalakaw!"
Hinawakan ang aking kamay.
Pumikit.
Humiling.

"Anong hiniling mo?"
Wala.
Wala na akong kailangan pang hilingin.
Ika'y tinitigan.
Hindi ko na kailangan ng mga bituin
at mga nagliliparang bulalakaw
Araw man o gabi mahal,
Tanging ikaw.
Oo. Ikaw.
Ang aking naging pinakamamahal na bituin
Na nagbibigay ilaw saking buhay
Na tila isang gabing pagkadilim dilim.

Sigarilyo at Uling.

Mainit.
Umaapoy.
Nagaalab.
Nauubos.

Uling, inilalabas ko sa tuwing may pagtitipon
Ganap ng katuwaan
Lumalagablab sa tamis ng pagmamahalan

Tila mainit,
Ngunit sa pagliit ng apoy,
Pinapaypayan pa't baga'y lumago

Sigarilyo, inilalabas sa tuwing may pait,
sakit, pagkabigo, pagkasawi.

Sinasabi nila na ang sigarilyo
tsak na mas papatay sayo
Ngunit sa aking pananaw,
ang dalawa'y pareho lamang

Sigarilyo't uling na tila panandaliang kasiyahan
Ngunit naisip ko,
Sa simula lang pala nakakatuwa.

Parehong baga'y
Nakakapanghina, nakamamatay.
Sa mga huling sandali'y
Ika'y baka hilahin bigla sa hukay.

Magkatulad nga ang baga ng sigarilyo't uling
Pareho itong unti-unting
nauubos, namamatay
at nagiging abong walang buhay.

Gaya ng pagmamahal ****
naging abo at tila naubos
Pag-ibig **** panandalian lamang
Mahal, pansinin mo.
Tuluyan na akong hinila sa hukay.

Nang makilala kita tila nagbago,
Nagbago ang mundo ng pagkabigo.
Isang rosas na puno ng ganda
Ang halimuyak ng bulaklak
Nang lapitan ka'y, dibdib kumaba

Mahal ba kita?

Isang tanong na bumagabag sakin isipan
Isang tanong na hudyat ng hindi kasiguraduhan
Gayunpaman, ika'y ikinilala
Tumagal ang panahon
Ako'y sigurado na.

Mahal na kita.

Isang pangungusap
na kumakausap at nakikiusap
at humihingi ng isa pang pangungusap
Na tila isang salita lamang
ang kailangan palitan.

Mahal din kita.

Nakakatuwa na sa isang salita
ay mababago na ang tunay
at kung ano ang pakay
Ika'y lumapit, yumakap
Nagsalita ang iyong bibig,

"Mahal sana kita."

Tanggap ko at maghihintay ako
Tawagin mo man akong martir
Pero mahal, hanggang sa huling dako
Wag sana mahuli at mahuli ng ibang tao
Hanggang sa aking huling paghinga

Mahal parin kita.

Bakit nga ba nangyayari ang mga bagay bagay?
Di ba may mga basehan,
Na kung saan laging may mga kailangan

Kailangan **** huminga
bago ka mabuhay
Kailangan **** mawala
bago ka mahanap
Kailangan **** pumasa
bago ka makapagtapos
Kailangan **** tumawa
bago ka maging masaya

Kailangan.
Ang dami **** kailangan.

Ako rin. Puro kailangan
Kailangan ng ganito
Kailangan ng ganyan

Kailangan ko ang iyong mga ngiti
Kailangan ko ang pag gapos ng iyong mga bisig
sa napakalamig na gabi
Kailangan ko ang iyong matamis na oo
na walang kailan ma'y pagsisisi
Kailangan ko ang iyong kaunting oras
Araw't gabi, sa bawat sandali

Paumanhin, kay dami kong kailangan
Simple nga lang ba?
Na ikaw ang sanhi
Ikaw na aking kailangan
Pero mahal, isa lang naman talaga
Isa lang ang hinihingi
Kailangan ko..
Kailangan ko ang ating pagmamahalan
Sana'y kailanganin mo rin.

I don't speak much of my feelings
Loud is my mind thinking of you
But quiet when you're around
Full of love I have for you
Overflowing jar of hearts,
Room full of roses, Pink skies
All of them I have since you came
Though, I can't express my thoughts
One thing's for sure,
As peaceful as the night's breeze,
My heart speaks of your name
In silence, I love you
I choose the silent love
I don't want to be vocal about it
Don't be mistaken
I love you truly
Straight path of love I see
I'll do anything
Even getting the moon and stars
Just to make you smile
But surely, I'll do it in the silence of our hearts

I'll tell you something,
When I'm with her,
It seems like heaven.
A feeling of enduring love and spirit
Pink skies, pink clouds, pink everything.

When with her, it feels like I'm home
Home is where the heart is.
She's the best person I've ever known.
She's better than anyone I've ever known.
Better than me I recon.
She's even better than my lola's Sinigang.
That's how best she is.

An epitome of beauty and kindness
A smirk that can create one's day
Dreamy eyes, soft cheeks
As Coldplay sings it,
"You're a sky full of stars
It's such a heavenly view"
There maybe cracks to Ms. Perfect,
But one thing's for sure,
I love her for who she is.

9pm I shall finish everything
10pm I'm tired, I want to sleep
11pm Can't sleep, too much in mind
12am Feelings of loneliness, no one beside
1am Past memories. Thoughts which **** everybit of me
2am I cry until I fall asleep

A kind heart never prospers
An enlarged yet malignant curse
Losing by being good enough
Unsteady like a house of cards
A kind heart always ends with bad note
A recipient of unspoken mockery
Heavy hearted, one sided, confused senses

I feel lonely..

I feel lonely when I am gazing upon the stars
Jealous that they are shining as one
While here I am sitting alone dreaming
and wishing that this solitude will go on

I feel lonely..

I feel lonely even when I am with my friends
Drinking, smoking, conversing
While here I am thinking if you are fine
and worried if you are still smiling

I feel lonely..

I feel lonely when its 12 in the morning
Everyone's fast asleep and dreaming
While here I am creating an image of you
Pretending that you are here with me
Keeping me company..

I remembered like it was yesterday
As cliché as it may sound
I still think of that moment everyday
You were somehow mystical
Crazy and strange you were that night
For a moment, I thought you were psychic

"We wouldn't work"
"Our friendship would break"
"I might hurt you"
"We are not going to last forever"

I don't know how you came up with those
It's like you used a crystal ball
Or even ask for assistance from a future ghost
I don't know.

One thing's for sure.
Your predictions came true.
We didn't work because we didn't even start.
Our friendship did break.
You did hurt me.
We didn't last forever because you already thought about the end.

Can you feel the rain come pouring down?
The rain that makes everyone see and feel dreamy
Dreamy it is the rain where tears come from the above
Tears that ****** through the emotions of heaven
Mixed feelings as I feel about it
Gloomy, weary, happy, sad, whatever
What’s important is that it is real

Can you feel the summer’s day?
Shades of happiness and smiles everywhere
Seems like a feast everyday where every grin is present
Laughter fills the sound as if its music in the air
Paradise, yes paradise it is for there’s the sea of positivity
And everyone can feel the heavens as the sun shines brightest

Can you feel the night’s breeze?
Marriage of stars lighting the way
I feel and I see what of paradise
Yes beauty of the night stands out the best
Truth is there’s darkness around us
But with your light and guidance,
All is well; alas I can see the beauty of your stars

I love you, but I don't know what to say
Yes, I'm in that dreadful dilemma again
Forgive me, I'm not good at wordplay
Always expressing my feelings in a subtle way
Saying I love you is indeed not a piece of cake