I can hear the enemy pounding at the door of my heart
Scratching, clawing, tearing at it, trying to get in
I see the the darkness closing in all around me
Suffocating me, pushing me towards the brink of destruction
I hear the enemy in my head, whispering in my ear
Telling me I'm no good, I am unclean, I am nothing
I see the people falling, being consumed by the devil
Falling into the awaiting jaws of the beast
I hear the lies being spewed like ***** in every direction
I see a nation being led astray
I hear the enemy
I see death

But Wait!

I hear the enemy turn and run!
Scrambling, crying, screaming to get away
I see the light bursting forth
Pushing me towards salvation
I hear the Lord in my head, declaring triumphantly
Telling me that I am great, I am blameless in Christ, I am everything to Him
I see the Chosen rising up, being protected by God
Diving into his loving arms and His sea of grace
I hear the Truth being proclaimed loudly in the streets
I see a generation seeking God
I hear the Lord
I see life

My own mind torments me awake at night
My own flesh wages war against the Spirit inside me.
My past eclipses my future
I cry out to heaven but there is no response
God has not forsaken me though
No, I have forsaken Him
My heart and soul long for His presence
My flesh runs from His Truth
My heart desires His love
But my actions spit on His bloodied face
My will is to do His work
But my nature curses His name
If actions speak louder than words am I truly His follower?
If faith without works is dead than what is works without faith?
I long for a miracle but do I believe it will come?
Is my faith bold and secure?
Or like a ship tossed about on a stormy sea?
Is it unwavering?
Or like a sapling fighting the wind?
I am not worthy to be called a Child of God
I am like trash in the sight of the Almighty
There is nothing I can do to make myself worthy
In Christ alone I find my redemption
In Christ alone I am made clean
Even though I deny Him daily His love for me never changes
Jesus! Make me clean!
Rescue me from my afflictions!
Stand before my accusers and declare me blameless!
Renew my weary spirit
Refresh my strength so that I may do great things in your name
Let all I do be for your glory
Guide all of my steps
Sharpen my mind
Make me aware of the enemies many traps
Lead me out of suffering and into your arms
Replace my anxiety with peace
And my sorrow with joy
Remember me on the day of judgment
Declare me righteous
Usher me into your presence for all eternity!
So that I may worship you forever and be made complete by your love!
Amen

Lord,
I am lost and can't find myself,
My true self is somewhere walking your straight and narrow path,
But here I am like a scared little boy lost in the woods with no way out.
The wolves closing in around him, around me.
Every now and then I catch a glimps of who I'm supposed to be,
Then like a dream it is gone and I'm left with the version of myself which I hate.
Help! Show me the path that leads me to safety before the enemy devours me!
Save me from myself!
My afflictions are my own fault.
Forgive me Father for I have sinned against You.
My sin is like a veil that covers my eyes,
So I am like a blind man trying to escape a maze.
Forgive me Lord Jesus, remove the veil so that I may see you and your purpose for my life.
Reveal to me your perfect will.
Guide me down the path of righteousness,
So that I may live my life completely for you.
My ways are destructive to me and all who know me.
Your ways are perfect and uplifting.
Make me the man I am supposed to be.
I give all to you for you are my Savior, my rescuer.
All that I have is yours for all I have came from you.
My heart is yours and no one elses.
My body is your temple, send your Spirit to dwell in me
Guide me in every move I make.
Make me selfless, make me like you.
Holy Spirit you are my compass and I will follow wherever you lead,
Jesus I am your disciple and Father I am your child
Forever and ever amen.

Sometimes in life it seems
That we never really are free
We just trade one captive for another
Never truly being released

We fight against what is natural to us
We fight against submission
Even though no matter what we do
It is in submission to something

When will we wake up and see
That it's not about being free
Or about not submitting to anyone or anything
It's not about being in control

It's about WHAT we let control us
It's about WHO or WHAT we are submitting too
It's about WHAT we let take us captive
When will we wake up and see?