It's been a year
since I saw you
die

since I slept rest-
lessly, my forehead pressed
against your
hospital bed

Night after night
your struggling
breath and
the beep beep beep of
your monitors

It's been a year spent
licking my wounds
in hopes that they
would heal,
like people say that
time will do

It's been a year
since I saw you
die
and, my
love,

I still can't
live without
you.

"Beautiful"

One word and just like that
I am broken into two

Do not call me something so wondrous
If you feel anything less than love for me

Do not use such a heart-warming word
If you do not mean it with every bit
Of your soul

Do not call me that
Unless you have held me
Kissed me
And declared
That we will always be.

You're stuck in the part where
You're having to live for other people,
But sooner rather than later,
You're going to start living for yourself
And the world looks so much better.

*the world becomes yours.

You're killing me but you're why I'm trying to stay alive

You don't trust me,
And I want you so far away.
She is too kind,
And you are too vain.
It is not her responsibility
To make up for the love
You failed to be given.
Learn.
Or I will campaign
For your removal
At her side.