I'd like to ask you a question ?
When you veiw this photograph of me

Who are you really looking at
Who is it that you see?

Do you recognise anything
Trigger memories from the past?

Perhaps my smile
The way I've posed
Or are those memories
Trashed

My first steps gone
First day at school
Very first Christmas day

My dance competitions
Parents nights
My role in the school play

I married my first love
It was nothing like yours
My home held no trouble or strife

For a few years I found happiness
Saw such beauty in life
The bubble burst eventually
It's now all in the past

Never married again
But now I've found a love
That will always last

A beautiful child I've been given
But unlike you I realise
That parentings a huge commitment
You have to compromise

Time has come between us
Hours and minutes fade away
Light becomes the darkness
Tomorrows another day

Yet there is no way of changing
Events long gone
Good or bad
As time it waits for no one
No we can't change anything dad

I really must be honest
I wonder how different life would be
If you and mum had never met
But then I realise

I wouldn't be me.

Eerily quiet there it stood still
That old rugged cross
Upon the hill
A shadow strewn across the face
Of the one who died
For the human race
Such pain suffered
Such a loss
As they hung him high
Upon that cross
With bloodied crown
And anchored feet
His demise reluctantly
He must now meet
For all of us
Our sins to bear
Sacrificed
truth is
Do we care
If your heart is closed
filled with doubt
Please read his words
Then you'll find out

Satan rules he is the master
He leaves behind
A trail of disaster
His aim never to enjoy
Destruction is his game
His ploy
His spoken words
They spit like fire
No truth
Evident
From this liar
His gift to all
His twain shall meet
Corruption >pain>lies> deceit

I had a little angel I held her in my arms that night
I didn't want to say goodbye I held on to her tight
I stroked her face I kissed her hair
I looked at her just lying there
And as a mother I felt defeat as my tears trickled  down upon her cheek
There was nothing I could do
Nothing I could say
To stop fates hand from taking her away
As she took her last breath and let out a sigh
A part of me began to die
I felt my heart shatter the pain was slow
As I grieved for the child I'd never know
Her pram was empty the nursery bare
I was left just with a vacant stare
I had no emotion didn't know how to feel
Didn't want to sleep In case the nightmare was reall
My body carried on but I wasn't there
Left just with a vacant stare
Heard her cries but awoke to find
An empty cot just a trick of the mind .........

I do not fear the earth I tread
Beneath these darkened skies
My quest  is to walk in honesty
Escaping deciet and lies
Each day I am reminded
By this challenge of mine
It's like scaling the highest mountain
That man will ever climb

Affliction her addiction
Her thoughts held no restriction

She stumbled through her life blind
Leaving all who loved
Behind

No more harm
No more pain
Will never hear her voice again

The blade she sought as her best freind

Took her life in the end ........

If I call you will you hear me
Or will silence stare me out

If I reach out my hand to hold  you
Perhaps you'll here me if I shout

Is there any way to reach you
Distance seems to be your  friend

When I'm with you, do you see me ?
I am still here, on that depend
I have watched you in my bedroom you kissed my photo by the bed
I saw you remove your dressing gown
But then  you put mine on instead

I see you in the evenings staring out at the full moon
Then I note a smile  plays on your lips as you breath in  my perfume
We never saw this coming now we're separate and alone
What a price to pay for driving while answering your mobile  phone. ....

This life is but a journey
Of which lessons must be learned
Before our cup is empty
Our final glory
To be earned
Opportunities set before us
To allow us all to shine
No restrictions on our choices
We have a designated time

It doesn't really matter
If you are rich or poor
But how we treat our fellow man
Reflects the consequence
We endure

So smile at the stranger
You pass on a busy street
Welcome all who ask of comfort
Be kind to all you meet
Do not judge with hatred
Or turn your back on those in need
Show a heart of warmth~compassion

Shine
***
Like a light

Through word and deed .............

I've shut down no more speak
Heart punctured
Voice week
Thoughts frozen stuck in time
Energy reserved to lick these wounds of mine
People I've loved given too
Don't realise what they say and do
Has an impact on the heart the soul
I feel robbed  their words
Taken their toll
I'm so confused by what they say
I try so hard this game to play
But somehow I have lost my way
Shut down
Tomorrow's another day

I like L words
They are simple
Yet significant
They are my template
For life
I act upon them each day
Live  Laugh  Love  ......

Let me find a quiet place
Where I can revel in your grace
Away from all those memories stored
A world of discord ,wanting more!
Quietly I your spirit seek
When silence echos
I hear you speak
It's not a voice that I can hear
Rather a connection of drawing near
To a presence felt
Like a warm embrace
Like the warmth of the sun
Shine upon my face
My soul so hungry
For you layed  bare
In the hope you'll leave your essence there
May your gentleness speak upon my lips
My heart touched by your fingertips
My flesh my bones
nurtured
Deep within
Cleansed
Renewed

So Free from sin

So many reasons to be happy
So many reasons to live
So many reasons to love
So many reasons to give
So many things to do
So many places to go
So many things to celebrate
So much more I'd like to know
Going for walks
Looking at trees
Enjoying the wonderful air I breathe
Painting a picture of a beautiful scene
Writing poems about what life means
Chatting to friends that make me smile
Watching films I haven't seen for a while
Making cakes til my hearts content
Singing ~dancing
such time well spent
Being able to walk ~ hear and see
So many reasons to be ~   happy

I could carve your name into a tree
Or send you a bottled message by sea
I could display your name way up high
By aeroplane up in the sky

I could leave a love note at the end of the bed
Or a telephone answer machine message instead
I could sing you a love song
That simply says
The words


I love you

There's so many ways ....

To know you
Is
To love you
More
Each day
Still trying
Still searching
For
Perfect words
To say?

He prowls around like a hungary lion
Looking for his bait
Be alert of sober mind
Don't let him be your fate

He is the prince of darkness
This is his world of rule
The leader of temptation
Deceit his favourite tool

He's arrogant he's boastful
Satan is his name
His followers the Antichrist
Destruction is his game

The master of disaster
The distributor of fear
Be on your guard
He'd like us all
To believe that he's not here

I used to walk in darkness
His path I walked along
I told fortunes by reading tarrot cards
Then realised this was wrong

Through ouija board I met him
And spoke with his spirits too
He spits deceit to all he meets
Including me and you

His aim is of destruction
Many ways he'll surely find
To annihilate abolish
The  (love ) of all mankind

To all who don't believe in him
Just Look around you'll see
So many in his image

( There's only Christ can set us free ~)

Now is the time to rearrange
The thoughts of things
We cannot change

To just accept
Then leave behind
Those troubled times
That haunt the mind

Now is the time
To just embrace
Those future years
With a smile
On your face

To plan ahead
With goals in sight
Positive things
That bring delight

Now is the time
For you to shine
Enjoying

Each precious moment .....
Of time..........

Stop the world it's spinning too fast
Feels like im Losing my mind
Stop the world there's too much hurt
Destruction  ! against mankind

Stop the world
We  must evaluate our principles for living
Show more kindess , caring , sharing , give more thanks
Than we are giving


Stop the world
Look around us
If we see a need we should try to meet it
"This is our world "lets eradicate
Pain and suffering
Try to defeat it

Stop the world
Each one of us is capable of changing
We need to act no time to waste
Take part in rearranging
The environment
society
There's only us to blame
Stop being blind
To the deception of
Riches lust and fame

Stop the world
Just give a smile to a stranger on the street
A few kind words
A gentle touch
To each person that you meet
No money required
No credit card
No debt incurred while giving

What an  impact this will truly have

"Simply Priceless "


As our world
Keeps right on spinning !

Take the time to look at the rainbow
After the storm  has blown

Take the time to smell the flowers
After your gardens grown

Take the time to smile at strangers
Who's path you"ll one day cross

Take the time to care- to listen
To those suffering or lost

Take the time to hear the birds
Singing early dawn

Take time to appreciate beauty
Of morning dew drops on the lawn

Take the time to be silent
Find a quiet place

Take time to spend on relationships
And with a heart of love embrace

If I speak. ~  Will you really listen
If I cry.     ~     Will  you feel my pain

If I fall or even stumble
Will you help me up again

If I get lost in life's confusion
Will you search ~forever
til life's end

Is this love just an illusion
Of two ~who've met
But now depend


Would you climb ~the highest mountain
Or even swim the ~roughest sea
Then make the choice
To spend each memory
Of your life's     time
Here
with me......

Many have walked along it's sand
Sharing glances
Holding hands
Listening to its thunderous sounds
Children looking
Seashells found
Dogs delight enjoying the fun
Owners follow as they run
Seagulls chatter overhead
Hoping they will soon be fed
One visit evokes
A return for more
As you paddle along
The outstretched shore
Admiring sunsets gold and peach
There's tranquility found
Down on the beach ...

Many evils surround us hate jealousy rage n pride
But there's a bridge gods left for all
His love waits
At the other side

Like a whispered word
It flutters by with elegance and ease
Amongst the golden daffodils the ascending summer breeze
The captivating beauty
So delicate
Demure
Such freedom
It encompasses the spectator with much allure
Fleetingly it travels kissing natures path and sky
So astounding is the beauty of the butterfly

I prayed hoped and wished
To meet you
Hoping to emerge together as one
(Then I contradict myself)
(Keeping part of me in reserve)
(As Compulsory preservation)

We both admit our deepest
Most intimate feelings for one another
Our needs met
Our desires set
Our life path carved
Hand in hand
We walk
Together
The depth of our language is unseen
The rock upon which we stand indestructible
The emotion between us like a tsunami
Years have now sealed our bond
Overwhelmed by our love
Devotion
Integrity
Trust
We are so blessed
My love

Accepting you is like embracing my own reflection
Now we are entwined in harmonious bliss
We have what most people  seek
But my
reserve
I hope I never have to tap into
If you first depart
Neither do I want you to suffer losing me
Better to have loved n lost
Than never to have loved at all?
One of us is destined to find out
Love~
A double sided coin

Many things have been invented
By geniuses in times past
There's been television
Radio
Electricity and gas
The invention of the light bulb
Let's not forget the wheel
And of course the ship
Titanic
Made from 24,000 tons of steel
Communication lines were open
By the invention of the phone
But there's one simple invention
That stands out on its own
We use it to communicate
Every single day
Without it I would struggle
To say the words I need to say
The name of the inventor
Who I'm sure was very proud
Was an absolute genius
John J loud
He possibly never realised
In 1880
Way back then
How important was the invention " To all of us"
The simple  ..... Pen

Im near the edge
Don't push me
I'm struggling
Don't provoke me
My shell is thin not invincible
I too have limits
I'm being poked prodded used
I don't like it
I'm detatching
Myself
Only then will you appreciate who I am

I walk alone
I cannot see
There's no one here
Only me
My mind is filled
With thoughts of doubt
I'm trapped
I'm scared
There's no way out
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Then daylight dawns
Another day
I suddenly feel
The urge to pray
If there's a god
And it's true
Let's see what
He plans to do
~~~~~~~~~~~~
I only ask
He'll show a sign
Of this mighty one
So divine
I challenge him but here no sound
Silence echos all around
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Where are you lord
Do you care
I'm filled with loneliness
Despair
Please fill me now with your grace
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(He replies my child)

All you need is
*****
F
A
I
T
H

As I stand here by the waters edge
I hear not even a whispered word
The beauty overwhelms me
The display of flowers
The soaring birds
The colours of the changing leaves gracefully fall upon the lake
These sights make me aware
Of every living breath I take
Oh how fortunate am I
That I have the chance to be living
On mother natures sacred earth
That she has freely given.......

I like to watch the stars at night
As they twinkle in the pale moonlight

I like to watch the dawns sunrise
Lightning up the heavenly skies

I like to watch the magnificent sea
As its restless tide renders free

I like to watch winter birds fly
Overhead above the sky
These things they mean
So much to me
Reminding me
Of my gift
To see.

To all you fellow poets
Who inspire me to write
I read your work for hours
Well into the night
Just knowing there are others
That take the time to share
Makes me feel I’m not alone
you people really care
So many may not realise
What positivity they sew
Just by writing comments
To a poet they don’t know
Each time you contribute
A golden thread is sewn
Into the very heart
Of the poet yet unknown
This leads to a tapestry
Woven over time
Knitting us together
By the spirit
Heart and mind
Priceless is this tapestry
No naked eye can see
I’m grateful to everyone
On hello poetry ........

Beneath these skies so much surrounds
The air we breath with darkened sound

Noise from traffic fills the air
Pollution Spewing everywhere

Skeletal frames of the human race
Reflect upon the ground they face

The clock it rules it regulates
It delegates anticipates

No escape no release
An intruder -til our time does cease

Responsibilities scream and shout
Following us til we check out
No where to hide
No where to run
They encroach our freedom
****** our fun

So little time to laugh and play
Not enough hours in a day
Evaluation is the key
Awareness of identity

Our purpose here
Our hopes our dreams
What really matters
What life means

Careful of each step we take
Learning from each mistake

So many things  a desired need
So much waste so much greed

As we walk beneath these skies above


Know -       the greatest gift

Is.

Love

And

Be  Loved

She stands alone in a darkened place
Familiar thoughts of shame disgrace

Consumed with guilt
Self loathing surrounds

The love of self
No where to be found

Self esteem dispersed
Asunder
No hope no dreams
No eyes of wonder

Encompassed by these chains that bind
Her thoughts beliefs controlled by the mind
Her actions governed from deep within
Trauma fear dissociation

A monotonous cycle hard to break
Yet possible
If sound advice you take
Your destruct button must stay on hold
Look deep within your very soul

Your thoughts about yourself must change
To allow harmful  actions rearrange
Take care
A new relationship begin
Persevere don't give in

Reverse your thoughts
Of self
Be kind
Leave
All the hurt and pain behind


Do not stay down
Instead stand tall

(Learning to love yourself)        

Is

The

Greatest

Love

Of

All. X

Hands they can build bridges
When too much waters there

A tender touch
A hand to hold can really
Show you care

We use our hands when greeting friends
Again we shake to make amends

Our hands we even use to speak
A child from behind there's will peek

And when a marriage takes its place
We then hold hands
Stand Face to face

When our family's rumbling tummys demand
In the kitchen we welcome helping hands

When charities highlight another's plight
We use our hands to give what's right

A baby's grasp helps us understand
The importance of touch
By the human hand

And as we learn more
Every day
That hand outstretched
Helps guide the way
And when we're older
Like when we're small
Loving hands
They   save   our   fall.  

So significant in all that's planned
(The inspirational)
(Touch of the healing hand ) ....

Why are kisses shaped like this X
Who invented it and why
It's  such  a meaningful  symbol
Can bring a tear to the eye

Or if we lose touch
For a little while
Send a card with a x
It can raise a smile

It can mean more- than the words we write
Especially texting last thing at night

This symbols amazing
No other can compete
The way in which it moves us
Can make a heart skip a beat

I'm sent it often but ,sometimes it's not there
I then think some things wrong
Wonder "does he not care"?
Then all of a sudden I get loads like thisxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Nothing compares to the sight of the kiss

People speak through colours
But they don't realise
Sometimes they hide behind them
Their a reflection of the eyes

Colours are a language
That each of us convey
A way we all communicate
In a subtle kind of way

When we choose  the colour yellow
Our child within seeks fun
The heart feels warm and gentle
Radiant like the sun

White displays purity
A need to start a new
A calmness found
Security sought
When we choose the colour blue

Red speaks of a confidence
Of one who likes to dance
One who dares
One who dreams
Of beauty and romance

Green it tells a story
Of one who's brave and bold
Not afraid to speak their mind
But doesn't like being told

Orange speaks of someone
Full of energy and zest
One who likes to sing out loud
And always does their best

Purple wearers like the peace
Of quiet natures sound
They are not ones to meddle
Their feet firmly on the ground

Pink reflects a gentleness
A reluctance to fight
Preferring nothing heavy
Keeping all things light

Black ~beige and grey
All neutral
Speak of those in the background
they'd rather be spectators
Of others all around

My aim when writing this poem
Was Simply to amuse
But has it got you thinking
About the colours
That you choose?

The rose is the most significant flower
Representing many things
When sent or hand delivered
Much heartfelt joy it brings
There are many different colours
Not everybody knows
Just what each one represents
In the receiving of the rose

There's white representing purity
Orange for desire
Red for love and romance
Pink to spark that fire
Yellow reflecting friendship
Gold forevermore
Then of course on valentines day
It's more significant than before

Of all the flowers
In the garden
This one stands out the most

No need for words

It says it all !

By the language of ... The Rose

I Never knew just how precious time really was
How important each second that ticked by would be treasured
Etched in my memory
Imprinted in my heart
I never thought this would be
The day you were born
The same day you'd leave
Such devastation
The end of my dreams
Entering into the darkest tunnel
Of nothingness
Not knowing my way back
Wondering if somehow you could still see my silent tears fall
Hoping you were somewhere beautiful and safe
Knowing that my love for you is forever
I never knew the first time I held you would be
The last time

Just sealed a letter babe
Been standing here waiting

For you

I'm wearing your favourite perfume
Did my hair just as you like it
I'm looking at  a pic of us
So happy -in love
I drop it
Daren't turn it over!
As I do
The shattered glass reflects my heart- my very soul
Broken I leave it there
I feel in unison with this sight so in that  split second "something makes sense"
I have written you a poem
The one occasion I did not want to write!!!
Don't know if I can read it aloud. For you I will try , I will
I've always loved writing , talking  ,     but not today
You used to joke " I always had  to have the last word"?
I see you arrive

Your in our lounge

I smile through my tears , "as in your once loving hand"
I place the letter I've written.  
You were  right  again!
As we drive to the church
I dread the ghostly silence
Reaching your last destination
I rise from my seat "I too feel I'm somewhere else"
As I speak
(I hope some how you can hear the truth) -the love -the passion -the beauty we shared
Our loves reflected in my poem I've written
And still today
As I post this
I know you'll be looking down
Smiling
She always has to have the last word
Here they are

I love you.

Welcoming all
Standing tall
Embracing its place in the entrance hall

The aim it's beauty
To enhance
Patiently decorating every branch

In admiration I gaze a while
It never fails to raise a smile

Covered in ornaments
Head to toe
The branches tipped
With winter snow

Awash with colors shining bright
Adorned with twinkling fairy lights

A spiritual calm evoked by sight


As it lights the darkness  
Induced by night


Inspired~ blessed~ entranced are we
By the beauty of the Christmas tree

There was a man behind the voice
Who spoke these words I write

God why have you forsaken me!
The sin of man
His plight

The pain endured immeasurable
The suffering the loss

For all of us
He hung up high
To die upon that cross

He performed so many miracles
While he lived for all to see

For these he'll be remembered
For all eternity

But that wasnt his intention
Why he gave his life that day

But rather that we follow him
The truth the light the way

He asked that we renew our thoughts
Unto him -be of like mind

Only then his light -his love -his truth

Can guide us all so blind

As Christmas time approaches
And we're eager to prepare
We should take the opportunity
To show we really care
It's not about the presents
Or the cards that people send
But about the heart of love we show
Upon which others can depend
There's many of your neighbours
Friends and family
That will feel sad or isolated
Without company
So why not think of others
In the spirit of good cheer
Spread the care and love of Christ
As his special time draws near

I thought I saw an angel
It was late into the night
Above her head was glowing
I saw a halo shining bright

Her hands were reaching for me
A smile was etched upon her face
I leaned toward her presence
And felt her warm embrace

I asked her why she came into
My room next to my bed
Her voice answered oh so tenderly

"This is what she said"


So many hearts are broken
So many are deceived
So many think there is no god
So many don't believe
So many think this life is hell
They live it every day
So many people are so lost
Please tell them they should pray

If they should seek then they will find
The answers to their plight
No longer plunged in darkness
Rather they will discover light
Please tell them they are not alone
There is somebody there
He will always guide them
Whenever there's despair

His love it has no boundaries
Lift your heads look up above
For he is their creator
Who looks down on them with love

He left his word to guide them
As they go on their way
Tell them they should read It
Every single day

So many believe the evil ones
Have the upper hand
But that's not true
As just like you
Outside heavenly gates
They'll stand

Their life will flash before them
Judgement will prevail
God sees the heart
Though some may repent
Those  corrupt hearts will fail

I promised I would pass on
This message that I write
As i believe it came from god

(Through his angel )


(Late that night)

Within the mind the thoughts that dwell

Can make this life heaven

Or make this life hell

He does not think before he speaks
Wounding all with words he meets
A trail of destruction left behind
Oblivious of his dysfunctional mind

Never wrong he's always right
Insecurity is his plight
An enemy to himself within
Everything always about him

No middle ground
No compromise
He'll twist the truth
With articulate lies

His ego grandiose
As he stands tall
His aim to watch you
Retreat and fall
Emotionally void
From the human race
Defiance etched upon his face

Your life now fraught with  pain and worry
As he does never intend to say
I'm sorry

Allow me to hear you play those symphonic words
Touching me in  a way the physical can't comprehend
Take me on a path I'd dare not tread
Where I'm shackle free
Teach me your language
Quench my thirst
In a moment of time I've succumb
"To your orchestra"
"You are the master"!
I immerse myself in your sonnet
My soul dancing like an elusive summer breeze
Our symmetry mirrors copulating
Entranced by the melody of your written words
I am now nurtured  fulfilled  transformed forever !..........

I look in the mirror at my vacant stare
But I can't see me I'm no longer there
My body is numb my mind frozen in time
What has happened to this heart of mine

I pick up the pieces it's what they'll expect
Put on a brave face its what I must project
So many people not knowing what to say
Most when they see me turn the other way

I ask myself this question how do I carry on
I'm damaged and broken the old me has gone
I watch television but can't take it in
I try to read a book then throw it in the bin
I pick up my paint brush trying to paint a scene
But I can't it's not there.  I just want to scream

Ten years have now passed
Its took that long to find
The inspiration to write again from a clear heart and mind
I still look in the mirror griefs taken its toll
But my heart is no longer lost with my soul

So many days and years gone by
So many times I wondered why
You went away
No words were said
Didn't know
If you were alive
Or dead
Other People
Played their part
In trying to remove you
From our hearts
They sewed the seeds
Of lies deciet
Hoping to severe
Our desire to meet
But they underestimated
The power of love
That guides my life
From god above
No fear of man
Nor mountain high
Can force us
To say
A last goodbye
Too much time spent
Too much love spread
For us to accept
Your long gone
Dead
We've found you now
We've met today
So much we found
We had to say
We held you close
We took the time
Lovingly placed
Your hand in mine
We've cared for you
From the start
A love that's difficult to part
Held you close
In heart and mind
Remembering this

(All who seek)
(Shall find) , !

From a darkened state
I will arise
No longer will I hear these cries
Of wounded thoughts
Of heart felt pain

Once more I will arise again

Towards the light I seek to find
That heals the heart
The troubled mind
Peace within
my aim
My goal
A flicker
Of hope
To heal
My soul
At his feet I kneel
In humble prayer
To tell him of my pain , despair
I feel the warmth
Upon my face
As tangled memories now erase

His light
His truth
His love

Remain


Once more I shall arise again .......

Remembering past
Enslaves the mind
We are on rewind
So many things we can't change
So much time and energy-wasted
Re living
Harbouring feelings and thoughts of regret
Guilt shame anger and resentment

Life wasn't created to live backwards

When we live in the present moment
We are aware of where we are now
Even if things are tough
There are gifts we hold that money can't buy
Sight sound taste touch breath

We are here

A grateful heart allows us to embrace the moment
The now -to find inner peace
When we look to our future
apprehenshion anxiety and fear
Can fill our thoughts
As this walk is blindfolded
No one knows
What lies ahead

The answer to -is there life after here?
Envokes the same reflective emotions
As life itself is a gift
The best place to be is ironically called   ..... The present.

Sometimes there are storms ahead
They uproot us from the ground
Our clarity of thought distorts
No answers why?
Are found

Our inner core is challenged
Our sole purpose why we're here
These times are sent to test us
In the hope we will draw near

To a greater presence
To which every knee will bow
His love for all mankind once shown
Still
Prevalent to us now

He only asks for us to seek
His love's where we begin
To open up our hearts
And pray that he shall dwell within