Foreword:
Husbands too should be addressed but this letter is specifically for the wives.

Dear wives,
Do not cheat on your husbands.
Hold strong to your marriages and speak good of your partners.
Protect the sanctity of your marriages.
Do not fall prey to the wolves who only see you as meat. You might be left with only bones to hide.

Dear wives,
Do not cheat on your families.
If you fall prey, ensure you are protected. Do not birth a child with a possibility of it being another man’s without checking.
For your husband and your families will love that child like they have never loved before. It is unfair to any person.

Dear wives,
Do not cheat on life. For when your husband discovers the child he has loved and lived for is not his own, the devastation will break him. His whole world will crumble. It will feel like a kind of death has happened when he realises the person he has given his entire being for never actually existed. Not in the way he believed.

Dear wives,
Do not cheat on yourselves.
For a moment of euphoria, can and possibly will, give you a lifetime of regret and sadness.

Dear wives,
Do not cheat on your offsprings.
Do not bring life to a world you built on lies and deceit. Innocence does not deserve such torment. Remedy what is wrong with right, with the truth.

Dear wives,
Trust my little message. For my eyes have shed tears like the hidden oceans of Europa and in my chest sits a thorn shrouded heart. Every beat piercing to the sound of “my” son’s name.

Dear husbands,
I hope you never have to feel like I do. And if you do, don’t you ever, never ever hate “your” child for they only know love for you. Feel as you must towards the mother but give only love for the child for your love might be the difference between their future being sun rays or dark clouds.

With love (or whatever that’s left),
A man with a broken heart who has just found out he isn’t the biological father to a beautiful little boy and doesn’t know what to do.

Not thinking about what you have because you never imagined you someday won’t - Lang leav

Distract yourself
With making your child happy
With making your car fast
With making the best of all that you have
Cause all you have won’t last

Convince yourself
That it’s not worth the anger
That what goes around comes around
That this world was constructed in every way to break a person down

Rid yourself
Of the pain that she’s inflicting
Of the reminders that you’re no good
Of every little thing she’s doing behind your back that a spouse never should

Remind yourself
How we will all be judge one day
How we will all face the same fate
How we’ll be resurrected from our place of rest to answer to every deed, done and said

Tonight the lump in my throat has become a boulder
If my eyes decide to bleed I will not find a shoulder
Tonight my veins know not what runs through it
Rage? Anger? Confusion? Sadness? Old lies new heat

Soiled in your fuel of lies I held my fire high
I'm running out of strength to constantly try to try
But now my arms draw near as I soon hold myself in disgrace
And it is now the time has come, I have set myself ablaze.

There's a little black hole at the end of my room.

Where a little black man sings sorrows to the moon.

Now a little black spot on my heart springs my doom.

But little won't stay little unless she comes home soon.

Oh dear lover, how your tongue is so sly.

When words can come so easily.

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But how strong your pride is more than your tongue is sly

When you can say all but "I'm sorry"

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But guarded is this heart from such strength in pride

For when both of us put you before me

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Maybe if you look into your heart deep down inside

You'd find being wrong is not wrong unless you stand for it unjustly.

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The amorous history of you
that she so well denies,

sometimes reveals itself,
though she hides it from her eyes.

I do not hate you.

Though I envy you,
I do not hold a grudge.

I only hope she has shed the skin that once resonated your touch.

In the midst of searching
for myself.
I found you.
And now
I've forgotten
what I was looking for
to begin with.
But I've found myself a purpose.

Suddenly, the need to hold and be held surges through me like a familiar electric feel.

The monsters are back again with no forceful intent, only to remind me how this is all too real.

How have I effortlessly allowed you to crawl in and break open a forgotten shrouded seal.

You have unmasked me and now I am vulnerable, I hope you did not come to ****.

Take me back to the days
where i was careless and free.

when the wind was what pushed
me as i ran across fields

when the stars were bigger and
i stood for justice for who went first on slides

days i did not understand
why there were any reason to fight

i wanna go back to the time when
i believed my folks knew what they were doing

where every word they said were
of wisdom and every bit of it deemed true

if you can take me back
i wish to bring my brother

for the playgrounds now come in forms of pills and potions
and i, the fearless, am scared shitless that i might not know what to do.

to keep him safe here.

I'll shave the lions mane
Dare me and I'll do it
Fight a million Cobras?
Headfirst into the pit

I fear not pain nor suffering
For my heart is but a stone
I could survive amongst the billions
And I'd strive being alone

My heart and mind is strong
But weak is my mere soul
The suffering it has plowed through
Has thus turned it cold

Searching far and wide
Not a thing could cause reform
For a clear location untold
Where lies another's warmth

As of now,
you are like Schrodinger's cat to me.
Both good and bad
if I don't take a look.
But could it be
that the outcome might be judged
by my actions too?
Or am I foolish to think
that me being good
will result in
your reciprocation of good?
And in this confusion
in search of truth,
I too am Schrödinger's cat,
both alive and dead
at the same time.

Why do you still sit there
Don't you know you don't belong?
Wait, don't get up.
Maybe if you stayed, it wouldn't  be wrong.
Does it make sense,
if I want to finger draw incoherent lines down your spine?
But I don't want to touch you.
Cause I have to stop wanting what isn't mine.

Clouds roll over
the morning sky

Reminds me theres no
turning back time

Life is a journey
No sitting idly by

You can't skip chapters
You can't rewind

If there was a lesson,
if its a lesson at all,
that I've learnt from indulging in Kerouac's oeuvres,
it'd be to know that I too am lost in this world and in this life.
And being lost is ok,
because I, I 'dig' life.

The script ends here
'tis the death of a playwright
The curtains crash down
A surrender without a fair fight
Respects to the thespians
Rendered lost by such a plight
I exit stage left
Cause only you were always right

Hello,
I'm the broken one.
And I noticed you are too.
Let's put our broken bits together.
If it fits we'll build something new.

Sincerely,
The stranger sitting behind you.

Chap you better
straighten out
before you reach
the pearly gates

That's the thing
my parents
my friends
and lovers often said

See I'm not
that deep pocketed
man that any
lady wants to date

Just a raw
average looking
gentleman
they want to see in bed

And it's not
much of a wonder
there's only two things
that I've got straight

My ******
orientation
and the endless
thoughts in my head

But before you start
pointing fingers
or blaming this
on fate

Or thinking
that not knowing
what I want at 24
is a little too late

You have to
sit with me
Meditate
Articulate

Know that what
matters most to me
is my family and friends
and food on our plates

And all the world
is a friend
means I only wish for peace
and an equal share of bread

Yes, I differ a little
but I'm just like you
Cut me open
I still bleed red

And when time ends
and the world stands still
Just like you
I too will be lying dead

I am not lost in this world
Though I care not where I go

The music may play fast
But my heart, it beats slow

And if you ever wonder
How I know the things I know

I've lived the highest high
And withstood the lowest low

Come one come all
to the biggest light show
in all the world

Keep your coats and hats on
cause no big top can hold
such a spectacle

Be not fooled
though there are no carts
you're in for an inescapable ride

trust me by my tongue
I advise best to keep
your beloveds alongside

Be it night or be it day
watch the sky light up
in shocking ways

None more majestic
so feast your eyes
for not a penny will you pay

'Tis the music of the skies
rumble and sway
just heed this wondrous call

Alas! It's been too long
for now comes rain fall
come one come all

come one come all.

I let the negative vibes
Devour me for a bit

I had to

Cause only with the sour
Can I appreciate the sweet

Without you

With every victory
There is an opposing defeat

That'd be me

Yes I've lost this time
Play me that southern beat

Good vibes I foresee

Exhausting
That's what it is

Cold and heartless
Like a blade to a wrist

To pull it all nearer
And watch it slip away

Just to feel your worth
The search for a better day

Stop asking me
these questions

I have not
answers for you

I'm not your
desired reflection

Just a drug for you
to abuse

I could
up and go
any day I wanted

I should
forget this
Design unrendered

I will
let it pass
Slip through the cracks

Cause I am the evil to you
Of misconstrued facts

A day will come
When you will learn

That nothing matters
And all things burn

Will you invigorate
The world with good

Or prevail with malevolence
Because you know you could

You're practically together,
Yes a million Yes, I hate that.
You try to impress him,
For that I'll tip my hat.

I wouldn't know if you,
have or will taste the lions groin.
But games over my friend,
Insert another coin.

Another place
Another time
It is I who holds
the picket sign

No more nights
No more days
If you keep up
Your wretched ways

No more nights
No more days
My little picket
Sign would say

You took what's mine
And made it yours
But my demise
Will be your loss

I gave you life
As mine fades grey
An end will come
And with me shall you lay

Love,
Mother Nature.

I sleep closer
to the edge of the bed
so I don't see the space
you've left behind

I dive deeper
in my fantasy
to push you further
into the back of my mind.

I watch the waves
rollover each other
and try not to envision
our own destructive habit.

I fight these memories
in my head
bottle-bottoms harness strength
for me to brave it.

In time I'll walk
back on dry land
and a path of my own
I'll try to find.

If only I can wipe you off,
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

I worked.
I played.
I learned.
I taught.

I gave.
I took.
I apologized,
Forgave and forgot.

I blinked.
I blinked.
Oh no, I blinked.
Where is my twenty thirteen?

I drown myself with
Everything but love
Tell myself
I don't need you
Truth is
I don't
Yet our realities are
Self fabricated
And in my reality
I do
Need you

Every word accompanied
By ear pleasing sound
My mind slithers back
To thoughts of you
You. You. You.
But the truth will set in
And it'll pull me back to
Logic-constructed reality
I don't need you
Not till I think
I do
Need you