why am i
so afraid
to see you

when i
have already
rehearsed
this day
a million times

maybe i
just can't believe
how quickly
we drifted apart

this time
last week
we were
so full
of life

from that day
forward
we never really
saw
it coming
(or did we)

but we did
we did
we did

*we died

I am the woman molded from your rib
I'm meant to be by your side

I am the spider crawling underneath your clothes
but you're not afraid of me

I am the moon who keeps a part of herself hidden
But I'm always the full moon for you

I am the shadow that stalks you through the day
and crawls under your sheets at night

I am the wind that whispers to your ears
and breezes through your body

I am flawed, and *******, and aimless
but I love you
from the deepest and dustiest corners of my heart

I miss you
and it hurts
to be able to see you
but can't touch you
nor hug you
nor kiss you
believe me
I want to
(really really bad)
I want to breathe
the air you breathe
I want to hold you tight
too tight it makes me weak
I want to
but I can't

and it hurts so asjkdgksadjfgadskfga bad

I'm afraid that one day I will no longer remember the way you walk or the way you eat, or the way you write, the way you speak, or the way you tilt your head when you look at me, even the way you make your eyebrows meet. Or how you pull me closer, or hold my hands, or smell my hair, even the way it makes you jokingly wanna puke.

I'm afraid that one day I will no longer remember the taste of your lips, the shape of your face, the smell of your skin, the sound of your voice, the texture of your palms, the places of your scars, or moles, or your calluses.

I'm afraid that one day I will forget everything that matters..
*But the thing I fear the most is having to wake up one day
and feel forgotten.. by you.

Like a lion crying for a mouse's rescue
or a caged bird seeking for the sky,
I need you

Like a shore that dries up without the ocean
or the moon longing for the glimpse of the sun,
I miss you

Like a star I spent the night wide awake
searching for the right metaphor to say
but in the end I cannot conclude
for nothing compares
to
how
much
*I love you