I feel a storm in my gut
It tosses and tumbles and groans against the waves
Clouds kick and thrash without the wind
Rain thick and fierce flies up
Impossibly drawn to my voice, my foggy head
My hands tighten to hold back the thunder
And lightening, oh light stings my mouth and eyes
From icy toes a deep anger resonates
Rough soles flash fury and singe my ears
I will not be cruel, I have known heartache
What I give I have received
This rain is nothing to a crack in the sun
With my storm came hammer and chisel
And now, for what you make me break, ache
You’ve given me a dull rolling hate
Pulsing and breathless a torrent on my sea

There's a boy in my hometown
He loves me more than anyone
Said he'd wait until the end of time
But his is the love of a child' s memory
And he can't catch one wild as me
He says he just wants a simple kiss
A quiet afternoon in the same old place
And he doesn't understand why
I spend so long starring at the moon
Or why I'll always turn and run
When we talk he says he's good
And I know all he says is true
The things he says are blatant casualty
He is steadfast and I am distant
His word is honest, he smiles carefully
But I won't be rescued or protected
I know he won't stop chasing after me
And I know I break him a little more
Each time I reach out to lock the door
But I can't help if I don't feel
Everything he swears is real
I can make him smile if I look too long
My words can hurt and heal, I know
He is young in so much younger than I
But I am long gone much too high
And all the things I crave fall to me
When I am alone and untamed
In that moment he can't see in me
Where reality collapses on fantasy
I leave him his bewildered smile
My head and heart run far and further
It's everything I ever wanted
But it's everything I want alone
So I smile and again I'll leave him
To the innocent love he'll give
There's a boy in my hometown
Who loves me longer still
After I've secretly found the freedom
He never thought was worth finding
All this he can't see inside of me

I haven't got
Anything in line
Let alone my soul
It's all somehow mine
The half-hearted schemes
My dreams of creeping insanity
And the bitter scars I have in mind
I have yet to earn my callous stripes
And I'm hoping to get my heart caught
Only to bruise my love of the already weary

I've got something and its mine.
You can never have it.
Don't be mad.
No. Get mad.
No one ever does.
I like it when you are mad.
It means you lost control.
It means I  haven't.
It means I'm stonger than you.
It means I have it.
And you don't.
That's all I ever wanted from you.
Now I've got it.
And you can never take it away.

Beauty
Where I have yet to see it
Is the most beautiful thing of all