The End

And as the days go by you rub away at me and peel back the pages of my skin
Soon I shall be raw sore and broken
As you undo me so you have undone me once again

And I am me and you are you and we are nothing

I am broken and your hands are too small to gather me up so I fall through the cracks each day a little more
Then what's left is the black side the dark spiteful Sharpe bits like leftovers of a roast chicken

Photos of us are in the shadows overcast by clouds our hands held strong covered by darkness sat with the what ifs and the could've done

So I wait and you wait for the sun to shift and show us the light again
But the clouds don't move and we never again feel the same

So we are gone fallen to the low ground the ground beneath the grounds where people rarely go as they never make it back again

Claw away at the mud cracked on our bodies trying to get to the light
Every day the we that we were is further away

After a time we close our eyes and forget what was till there is nothing left of us
Just two people that used to be in love

The Brackens

Do you remember the Brackens
We went there when we were young
That was our secret place
Me and you had so much fun

That's where the woods are winding
Tall tall trees
The earth went on forever
At least that's how it seemed
I could smell the earth around me
Hear the owls within the trees
Tiny animals scurrying around beneath the fallen leaves

Do you remember the Brackens
Sky so clear it gleamed
Running together through the woods
You used to make me scream

On our backs counting stars
I was so full of hope
Playing beneath the moonlit sky
The moonbeams did elope

Do you remember the Brackens
I do every day
My face pushed down into the mud
The mice and deer decay
The thorns that cut into my back
My sore and bloodied knees
The rotting leaves within my mouth
Under the dying tree

The horrible way you took
The way you made it hurt
Ripping through my insides
Cutting through my thoughts

I remember the Brackens
I think of those woods each day
I'm still trying to build a life
To keep the mind at bay

I remember that you loved me once
There on top the hill
I remember that you ***** me once
And your friends did too

Do you remember the Brackens
I really hope you do
The way you gave me to your friends
To do with me their will

Them shouting and cheering in my face
Pouring ***** down my throat
Pulling at my underwear
After ripping off my clothes
I felt their hands all over me
Shoving in my hair
As they pulled my head back
And had their way right there

The insides of me did curl up
I closed my eyes real tight
As they entered my inner parts
And bashed away all night

Now I have your attention
Your eyes are right on me
I'm going to make you see

You didn't completely shatter me
Just winded me a while
As you can see I got back up
Hunted you down have I
Although it haunts me everyday
I'm better than I was
I got up out of bed
To **** all of you off

I was not your puppet
Never yours alone
What you did to me was evil
So your never make it home
Please don't look at me like that
I'm not the first to lie
I can see your doing what your friends did
I see your gonna cry

Now be a good boy
Open up your mouth
This is how dead leaves taste
As I blow you through the mouth

That Kiss

I fell backwards
Seeing all in slow motion
You standing, you kissing her
So our love has run its course
This fact sinks in with a whisper
As you trail back to me
Not knowing I've seen
Your stuff is waiting on the
pavement when you get back
All neatly folded
I thought that was the end of
that
No awkward lies, no need for
parting words
Just the end.

I'll wipe you out of my memory
while I stare at the ceiling, as
midnight consumes
Glowing stars pointing me back
to the reality of the unfeeling
I never feel much anymore
I'm not human you would say
Truth is
Its easier this way

The iridescent sky leaks gold
And Angels slumber in an
eternal life of bliss
As everyday gets more difficult
with it
I plan things in my head
Amazing how much time you
took up
I twiddle my fingers, agitated
and restless
Life beckons within, then a
possibility of happiness
Surely I should take this

It was but one kiss, I know this
Shadows loom with it
This tiny slight of happiness
As the nights get darker
I remember how moonlight
would flicker
as a candle on your face

Little snippets start to rise
through the mud
Dirt that I burried on top of you
I thought that was the end
But little things keep getting
through

You hunted for the Santa Claus
film a week before Christmas
I didn't feel festive and fell
asleep through it
Waking up to Christmas
pudding and eggnog,
that warm cuddly festive feeling
came back to me
It resides somewhere still in me

In Paris we sprinted from a five
star restaurant bill
Wearing silk, breaking my heels
This night you captured my
heart
as we ran through Paris
barefoot in the rain

The hotel room in Venice had
rats in the cupboard
We didn't want to leave the bed
So we made picture's on the
ceiling with lamp light
Falling asleep to softly slapping
water,
that night I Knew it would only
ever be you
It's still you

You skinned a cable for the
copper,made me a bracelet
The arthritis in my wrist was
driving me crazy

You drew me a Christmas card
every year, even when you
turned thirty

You were useless at making me
coffee

We were so care free ,
look at what's happened to me

These little things keep
wounding me, but also make
me happy

If I could take back that kiss
It still would've ended as this
You needed more than I could
give
In my world it wasn't important
That you
Knew how I loved you
How I needed you
That every morning I thanked
God for you
You never knew
As I never told you
And now it's too late to