oh my god who is that
i think it's myself but
only because i'm looking into a mirror
but it doesn't look like myself
my nose looks strange
so do my eyes
and my mouth
and my ears
everything
it can't be me
my face is melting
but then it comes back
it must be me
these movements are not my own
but whose are they
and
i'm scared
and the room is too small and i am suffocating
am i dying is this what dying is
because i don't like it very much
are they really my parents
am i awake am i dead
my hands are melting
i am melting
my body is gone
where the hell am i
i want to go home

sometimes i feel like
sometimes
sometimes i feel like i'm in a dream
but only sometimes
and it's foggy
it's hard to tell
maybe i'm awake and it's more clear than my usual dreams
but then
what if i'm dreaming
what if i'm not real
what if
what
is going on
and my brain goes in a million different directions
my handwriting is messy
so is my head, i guess
that's all
i guess
i don't know
my hands are just making words
this room is filled with a cloud
hey guys
my name is ally and i think
i may be dreaming
how about you
how are you