Lisa Pike

Lisa Pike Sep 2016

*******

12345- didn't think I would stay alive.
How did I survive?
Feeling alone, if I dissapeard would he notice?

No one knew.. Shhhhhh . Secret

Big mishapen.. Yellow, brown, green and blue.
They fade.

Broken, but carry on. Why? Just for another slap or a nice little punch.
Don't want to be alive.. What have I done for such punishment?

Please humiliate me some more.. Or why not punch me in the face?
You won't though. Not now

Coward.
Your not brave strong or manly.
You weak pathetic *******.

Lisa Pike Sep 2016

Music

Drums beating. Bass humming.
I feel you, thank you.

Headphones on. Walk on.
Step out and get ya freak on and shake that ***

Yellow, indigo,let's go go.
Don't wake me up before you go go.

Rise up and just let go.

Wiggle, giggle dance like no one is watching.

Express yourself, dance like a *** machine.

Have you heard that meat is ******?
Well I never! Hang the DJ!

The scientist is yellow , can you fix him?

Eric, where's the *******? How's Layla? Did you shoot the deputy?
She looks wonderful tonight

How many song lines can you get?

Lisa Pike Sep 2016

Synapsis

Round round round round
Stop start, round and round
Stop the spinning. Let me rest.
Is this a test?
A test to see if I have to do all of this again?

No more mistakes..No more anger.
Goodbye frustration..
Seriously? Never happen

Round round. JUST STOP
I wanna get off.
I need shhhhhhhhh. Get off the the **** up train .
Brain rest.

Cup me protectively .. Hold me gently.
Fragile synapsis..Broken and no connection.
Not firing on all cylinders.

Stop start
Round round
STOP!

Lisa Pike Aug 2016

Sleep.

Sleep. Where did you go?
A weekend away?
****** cheek
Full of emotion and snot.
Crying for my morning ***.
Every ****** day it creeps up on me.

Lisa Pike Aug 2016

Why?

Liar. Liar. Liar. Liar.
Stupid. Stupid .Stupid
Danger
Red
Sabotage
Not outwardly botherd.
Internally screaming
Burrowing, squirming.
Contagious. infected vile
Why do you like me?

This was written way before I was diagnosed with Bi-polar.

Lisa Pike Aug 2016

Alive and Survived

Burn devil burn.
We have seen unknown circumstances and survived.

The words mean nothing now, but a reminder of some pasts that should be laid to rest.
Red,yellow,blue,white and black.
Flames and smoke like smouldering dirt and the devil.
One hope I have learned from this.. Past is past.
The holy ghost and the devil fighting their battle.
Goodbye finally to the old gritty, angry and self loathing.
Hello to cleanliness.
Words of hope and glory, amen to words for a future of greatness. Fantastic,plastic even gymnastic. Yay for the holy ghost, you've won.

Alive and survived

Lisa Pike Aug 2016

Crap Morning

Every day I wake.
Sometimes I hope to never.
Cant feel anymore than I do.
Waking up with emotions
Lightened
Do I cry of have a coffee first?