Pull the curtain from over your eyes
See beyond the constructed lies

Stop your judging and demented cries
Of those whose point of view you deny

Feign ignorance to the truth you will not see
Watch the tide rise as common sense recedes

Hunker down in your dogmatic cocoon
Only to emerge and naive buffoon

Logic and science are trickery and bewitchment
Such are the thoughts of the ignorant  

Stick to your beliefs and fears like glue
For you read it in a sacred book so it must be true

Ask no questions and deny no absolutes
See where that takes you if you are so resolute

Watch the world crumble around you and blame the devil
For hes the creator of all ills and evil revel

Watch the powers that be consume and destroy
As they take away all living things health and joy

Pretend I offend your moral code
But deep down inside you fester with hypocritical mold

To NOT ask questions and seek new ways
Is to annihilate the future of all earthly days

Starry eyes starry skies
I listened to those whispered lies

celestial bodies destined to collide
destined to destroy the core inside

magnetic attraction with a deadly extraction
you left a black hole in my heart with your reaction

icy hands and icy lips
we're two galaxies stuck together in a death grip

Where do I go from here
"who am I," is ask myself
who is going to care like he did
where do I want to go

who do I want
"where can I find him," I ask myself
where should I look
who can I trust

why did I do this to myself
"what have I become" I ask myself
what should I do
why do I feel this way

What will the future hold
"why cant I be satisfied alone," I ask myself
why should I need him
what will it be like without him

where do I go from here
but into the unknown

When I hear that electronic chirp of sophisticated miniature machinery
I get excited because I think its you
I shouldn't
I have a momentary notification of
heavy disappointment when its not
You poke around my brain
There is no reason for me to feel this way
I know only artificial rays of light entering your eyes
You shouldn't hold such high status in mine
I am nothing to you in actuality
and you should be nothing to me

I sometimes sit and think about how I wouldn't mind if the world ended
I know its wrong of me to say that at face value, but deep down inside I know we all think it
not that the earth itself should be destroyed into oblivion, but the opposite
that the world should live on
and the cancerous growth of humanity should be cured
its a pessimistic way of looking at things , I know, but I cant help but feel this
short ride of ours on this planet is careening out of control
I'm not a nihilist or an anarchist or an environmentalist
nor a ******* for that matter
I'm not afraid to die because I believe I will no longer exist when I do
but the pointlessness of it all and the blatant disregard for others,
other species other lives other kinds other minds
disregard for the future for cleanliness leads me to these thoughts,
that a septic surplus has arisen on this singularly magnificent gift
of life in this one and only known universe and we sit here ******* all over it...
I sometimes think it'd be best if we all just left

I dug myself a whole
when I gave you my heart

ever since then I've done
nothing but fall apart

so much time and so much shame
to have wasted my life an someone so lame

I take solace in being free
why there's so much fish left in the sea

atrophied and out of practice
I update my relationship status

cold and naked like a newborn
cut from the womb with a knife

I am a fresh soul once again in this unforgiving life

I want to run in a field
holding hands
with you

uncomfortably unsure
so unstable is being content
one minute so sure the next not

the utmost unrest lies within the gut
what was solid is loose
what was safe is confining

one contaminant
one seed planted can uproot
the entire foundation

such a fanatic into a heretic
there is no such thing as permanence
and those in the wake will hurt

oh rotting flower
oh how pretty you look sitting in your vase
how nice of your purple pedals to open and curl
and your leaves to wilt and crunch under my heavy hand

such a paradox that you sit upon my table slowly meeting your end,
painfully I would imagine,
as we "ooo" and "aww" at your grandeur and rarity
such a fine line between acceptable death,
beauteous death,
and ugly smelly death

one day your wilting stem and ****
was cute in a sad way
oh rotting flower how I feel for you
as one would feel for a friend
being laughed at or taken advantage of

because I know what end you will meet at
the hands of coveting eye

oh rotting flower thank you for your sacrifice

Sinews and cartilage and bones and liquid
this useless air bag and thumping engine
will one day become rigid

eyes and ears and mouth and soul
a gooey mess of synapses
its use takes a permanent  toll

strength and toil and sweat and grit
we can all live forever
just for a bit

failure and faulty parts
hospital visits and mental floss
**** doctor sold me a dud heart

so eat an apple a day
and keep your heart in a cage
to push death away

just one more day

Oh what triumphant columns of stone
what perennial mounds of granite
how infallible is their existence
such achievements and monuments
pertinent to our time

in our own ignorant devoid concept of time and space,
atop our mounds of ****, we declare victory
and smile sitting in our own excrement
yelling
to Glory! to Memory! to History!

in time
even the strongests stones and metals
crumble under the right pressure or chemical

oh how clever
for something which seemed so permanent and strong
to be a fake

to leave us feeling safe and secure

but alas
A million stars will live and die
and no one will ever know we existed

not even a star can live forever

Tidal waves haunt my dreams
   an overwhelming feeling of fear
and rebellion takes hold

I sit upon the shore looking out to
sea the dune where I am sitting is
              steep
            and
       angled
dangerously
towards the shore as to create  a
well  between the waves and me

I am calm upon this hill
unaware of the danger, I  
    d
       e
         s
           c
             e
               n
                 d
to the foamy energy below to dip
my feet.   I    swim       out             a                   bit

Panic

I look out and see a wall of
     water, fast moving, tall and
               furious
                 I am not quick enough to
     swim and climb back up the shore
                        It's as if the dune has grown one hundred feet in the air
                                                              I am destined to be smashed in between

                 the wall of sand
                              and the wall of water
                 in my well of fear

I have drowned once before in my dreams
it was not painful yet I struggled
in my realization

I felt the cold liquid enter my nose
it felt like icy fingers reaching down my
throat
filling me with the emotion of my acceptance

I did not reject what was to come and
stopped the fight
yet my consciousness did not leave me

I watch myself sink into blackness
and float on like a
dead plant stuck in the current

The passion of our lust has left me wounded
your ambivalence, your ignorance to your lacking care
is burning a hole into my side

Like a burning piece of paper, I wither and flake away
as the embers move through my body
the unknown
the stillness of your actions
the quietness of your words leaves me bitter

I bite my tongue and spit on your name
seething with unknown emotions my subconscious tries
to scream it's
wanting, but hating I curse you

While you confide in another, your harem grows
while my contempt expands

used, useless, unless, undress I say
be gone from my life my dear
before I burn away

I sink my mind into deep open water
imagining myself floating in the cold abyss
the silent reverberating sound of my submersion
is like the womb of a mother
quiet yet pulsing

Here I lay myself to sleep
transfixed on tranquility
deep in thought removing all

fear
anger
hate and disgust
self revulsion

And open my mind to the nothingness
to get over the days battles
I sink into the darkness
and pretend to meet the end