Up all night
You sleep so deep
The tension never fades

How alone
Can one person be
With the choices they have made

It persists
My fear of growing old
Never reaping what I sow

I’m painfully
Aware of how
I give high and get low

We’re touching
but the distance between
Us widens every day

A deep cavern
Or an endless trench
That keeps me lost at bay

Alone
While in your presence
It’s a special kind of shame

A sick feeling
Forever lingers
As I’m swallowed up in flames

I burn
For you to want me
I resent that your fire has cooled

I twist
And mold myself
For you but haven’t got you fooled

I tell myself
I’ll leave one day
Just an empty threat I make

But I find a
calmness in my lie
That helps me not to break

You see
I choose your cold winter
Over another’s spring and heat

I’ve made
A home in this fiery pit
And I don’t intend to leave

Some things are just not
Meant to be
Like peace and war
Or reality and dream

Rain rarely exists
While the sun is out
Unless by some happy accident
Or misguided route

They should find one another
And learn to share
A sky near the heavens
Spreading colour everywhere

Is it too impossible to think
That magic should start
From two things that are fated
To be forever apart

Could we be beautiful together
Or does an attempt end in vain
As you stay the beautiful sunshine
Without I: the sad, dark rain

I’d travel for miles,
You might wait around.
I’d lay down my life,
You might watch me drown.
I’d bare my soul and open my chest.
You’d most likely laugh or smile, at best.
I’d be there in an instant,
You might show up late.
I’d place you first,
You might save the date.
I’d give you the stars and all that comes with.
You’ve been promised before so you won’t hold your breath.
Who ruined you?
Why can’t you show love?
Why do I try when
I’m never enough.
I’d be loyal to you and I’d never stray,
So why can’t you just meet me halfway.

I’ll get rid of your family
And leave you all alone
Turn your friends against you
With some lies that they should know
I’ll get you kicked out of school
And fired from your job
Leave you in the poorest health
All your money, I will rob

I know I’m not priority
So what else can I do
Than to remove all of your number ones
And make you start anew
I’ll isolate you completely
With no where else to turn
To change my place as last resort
All your bridges, I must burn

What's in a soul
That we find of such interest
Captivating and consuming
If the eyes are its windows
What do we hope to find
For even windows tell lies

About what is within
We see what we want
It stands to reason to believe
That eyes are not the windows in fact
But they are the illusion makers
And perspective shapers

The eyes hold other eyes
Convincing while locked
Displaying what is meant to be displayed
The soul stands on its own
It is not shown until it is desired to be shown

I don’t want you anymore
Your hair has greyed
Your body is rounder
Your youth has run out

I don’t want you anymore
You don’t help me
You are lazy, ungrateful
You are preoccupied

I don’t want you anymore
You’re no partner to me
You’re a pet to take care of
You’re a burden

I don’t want you anymore
I did for so long
I can’t remember why
I know why I stopped

I don’t want you anymore
Like you, I have other priorities
Like you can’t be bothered
Like you, who let go first

I don’t want you anymore
I know you don’t care
I know you don’t notice
I know you will be fine

I don’t want you anymore
So don’t come back
So don’t wait around
So don’t you dare touch me

I don’t want you anymore
And I tell myself again
And again and again
And I almost believe it

I’m slower than most
I walk my own pace
I speak my own words
To match my calm face
I’ve never moved fast
I’ve never rushed time
I’m cautious I know
But it’s worked out just fine

Until I fell for you
I knew not of speed
I dived in headfirst
I lost track of my feet
But quicker than that
Was the length of your stay
As I miled-a-minute
You pulled far away

Now my heart rate has settled
Back to slow and reserved
I miss the thrill of your rush
With my caution unnerved
I’m slower than most
But I just never knew
How painfully slow I’d be
Getting over you

It’s been so long
The distance begs
To be traveled on
By weary legs
I rise again
But do not flinch
I cannot stand
To move an inch
Nothing waits
If I go back
I am too late
It’s time I lack
You made your choice
And I made mine
Quiet your voice
I think it’s time
I’ll give you up
You’ll let me go
Begin to cut
The ties we know
I’ve come not for
The love we shared
So wait no more
The end is here.