Dust on the mantle,
Candles in a box

A reminder
light is beyond the horizon,
To return as quick as it went

And place roses
Where another left thorns.

1:31
feet up
soul peeled
layers open;
blood or metal?
who gives a ****,
they taste the same.

It's late
Almost midnight
Your eyes are sealed and sleeping not far from mine
on my mind
As usual
I regret not saying
I love you tonight.
I'm scared you'll get tired of hearing it and forget it means something.
Kinda like the *** that doesn't mean a thing anymore.
I'm terrified I'm losing you to the spaces I can't seem to find
But they exist because why else would you be feeling an ocean between our shores.
I feel it too and it terrifies me.
There's a bridge in your mind
you're on one side surrounded by water turning red
I have a superficial hold that
may break like a vine wrapped around a tree
What's changed I can't quite say
But I need you right now
To tell me you won't go
but you're sleeping
And I'm feeling like I'm about to cry because you mean more than the world
But something is off
And I'm worried it won't come back
I'm worried you'll realize there are girls with their priorities straight
Who don't try to be three people at  once
they are beautiful and kiss much harder
But I love you
I can't speak for them
But I think it's okay to say
I'll love you more then they ever will.
I want you right now
to sit on your lap and shrink to half my size
I want you to hold me and comfort me
But what if you don't and what if I'm all alone
I can't hold myself
my arms aren't long enough
I remember what it feels like to have a broken heart and I can't
I just can't right now.
I don't want you to feel trapped because if you want to go,
Go
But realize what you're leaving behind
For a new girl
Who won't know what color your heart is and why

Someday someone
will love me like they do in the summer
even when the snow falls.

one person turned my stomach inside out
flowers wilted
fast as promises made
of smoke.
Cigarettes lied to me,
all four I've ever loved.
Little mirrors
and naked boys
sang a song of pomegranates.
From the tree
to her crown it fell;
snapped branches from her hair
laid down beside another wet cheek.
Sadness is intimate
for me to create:
and destroy
not for ***** feet
on white carpet.
your wings were my wings
remember that?
on a path haunted
by rocks and maybe bears.
wound tightly around your center
this vine won't hold
forever.

There's a place
between my veins
and bones;
It's orange
and filled with parts of you
I refuse to share.

How much blood
can fit inside the hole in a guitar
the highway was your stage
three words
that meant about as much as your favorite song
on repeat the time
you first told me
I was talking over
the music.
Five in the afternoon and all the world was
sleeping
on a Sunday
I lay,
palms facing up,
away from a mattress stained with
sweat.
By day
by night
only one tear
fell
when out loud was muttered:
you turned my eyes to red
with smoke
and blood
but whats the difference?
a day off my life
just a day
get the **** over it Lil.