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Lillieanna Oct 2014
The dark has come around once again
To eat me alive to break me down
But this time...
They're bigger and stronger and know how to distroy me this time
Lillieanna Oct 2014
I go up
Then go down
My head is spinning around
First I'm gregarious
Then I'm diffident
Chaos starts to begin
As new pages rip in
I get irascible
When people ask me questions
I'm an emciated person
With stress going about
With this bipolar linking on
Tears begin to crowd
To a laughter if mismaze
My relationships are hard
For I cannot keep one
For this bipolar is to strong
I wish I could be normal
And not take pills
But bipolar has controlled me
To my birth to my will
I will have it till the end
Till I'm old and grey
It's going to be a part of me
Forever and today
Lillieanna Oct 2014
I'm like a dead flower
With my petals falling off
With no water or sun to keep me alive
For I am dead with no love
I'm in despair with a broken heart
That can't be fixed
Once a flowers petals fall off they can't be put back on
Lillieanna Oct 2014
I found it!!
My wish finally came true
Happiness came to be
While the darkness was around me
The dark is getting smaller the light is getting brighter!!
God is giving me hope
I can do this
Stay positive I say
For now I can look forward and not be so down on myself
Keep your head up!!
Walk forward more into the light
I got faith now
I'm going to make my life right
Lillieanna Oct 2014
He hits me here and there leaving bruises left and right
he does these things day and night
He is coerce with me
Making me do things I don't like
I cry myself to sleep with the pain erupting in my heart
I was in love with this boy but he turned into a monstrous man
I can't no longer be with this guy
Or I'm going to die
Lillieanna Oct 2014
I'm a foster kid as you know
With no one by my side to stay
I am alone with problems
Great...
I still cut and hide but that's what I'm good at
But let me start at the beginning
I was a gregarious kid who was witty and smart
Then came the day where it all went wrong
A CPS lady came to the house
And commotions came about
There was yelling and screaming
There were tears that were running around
And I had to pack my bags to get out
As you know I was abused in the household and was threaten here and there
But I still loved my mom for she was the only one there
But it was an unsafe
I couldn't stay
She took me away and here I am today
A sixteen year old gal who is living on her own
With no one by her side
With scars on her skin
I say "it's my fault I was taken away" but "it's for the best" they'd say
But she loves me but in reality that wasn't true
So now I hide and no more gregarious as I was before
I'm no longer smart as Im starting to fail school
I'm no longer witty cause there's no need for that anymore
I'm just useless in this world
For no longer I shall stay
For there's no reason to
For I am actually no one
Lillieanna Oct 2014
I am lonely day to day
With no one by my side to stay
Everyone just leaves me
Which is sad
I have no family but I guess that's too bad
I'm a foster kid so now you see
How I feel and how it came to be
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