I fake a smile so you wouldn't know what I feel
I hide my feelings so I don't have to cry
I fake being happy so you don't have to be sad
I fake everything...
Cause the real me is just a depressed little girl with no hope at all
My heart is broken that has fallen into pieces
That can not be fixed
I fake a smile a laugh even emotions
I put a mask on my face
I don't want people to see me like this
See me in the dark with no light

Yes I'm the girl who has scars on her wrists, arms and legs
But my heart has the most from the people leaving
I have emotional, mental and physical scars
I used to hide them with long sleeve shirts and skinny jeans
But people would ask why would you wear that its 90 degrees
I stopped hiding
My scars showed
But...
People stared and looked and cried...
They never knew the reason why I hid them this whole time
But now they now and now they left
I'm all alone just me and my scars

I miss when I was a kid
Feeling free with no care in the world
Just skippin along with the breeze flowing through my curly hair
doing cartwheels in the grass and picking dandelions here and there
Just smiling with no care no reason just happy

Why is this a cruel world?
With evil, guilt and sorrow?
With monsters and demons roaming around that are living inside of us?
Why must we cut our beautiful bodies to feel alive and to cut the monsters out of us?
Do drugs to feel free and to escape the reality?

I want to die
End this pain and agony
But My demons know how to swim
Why cant they drown and take me with them
This world doesn't need me
I'm boring and I'm lifeless
I need to drown and end this all
End all of this
End me...

You don't know what I've been through
Te childhood I had
How much I hate myself
What I do to myself When I'm alone
How much I want to give up...
How tired and how hurt my heart is
How much I cry at night
How much I want to die...
I'm slowly giving up on life I have left
And If you could read my mind everyday you'll be in tears
The only thing I'm good at is hiding
For me its like walking through a dark hallway with little light not knowing where it will end and when you'll reach happiness