They say that Mother Nature
Is to blame for the rain
The hail, the wind, the sleet
And the snow
She terrorize the neighborhood
Much worse than before

They say she visit the ocean
And bring a rapid rage
I wish I knew Mother Nature
But I never seen her face
Why is she so silent and
Distance from our sight
Why is she like a spirited shadow
Somewhere lurking in the night

Mother Nature gets the praise
For starting and stopping the rain
I never been introduce to her
So why do she gets the blame
I am trying to determine in my mind
Who Mother Nature really is
I am trying to determine in life
Is she fictional, or is she real

I have heard of Mother Nature
From my childhood back to birth
Why Mother Nature gets the credit
Remains to be researched
I read about what Jesus said
In the Holy Book
I didn't see Mother Nature
I must need a second look
I turned from page to page and
I couldn't find her in that book

I found that God put together
This whole world from birth
The rain, the sleet, hail, and snow
God decides when it falls to earth
I still wonder how Mother Nature looks
I wish someone would show me where
To find her in the book

I found that Mother Nature
Always get the praise
She has been popular in this world
For many months, weeks, and days
When I turn to the weather
Broadcast playing on TV
It always never ceases to amaze me
That Mother Nature is the topic
And she never fails you see

How does Mother Nature hides
Herself from the public eye
Is she non-fiction or a fictional lie?
All I want to know is whether
Or not the woman exist
When questions are asked about her
Why they are easily dismissed

I know Jesus because he
Lives on the inside
I acknowledge him
In all my ways
So he can be my guide
I know not Mother Nature
And discovering who she is
Has become an issue
I only want to see the woman
So does anybody have a picture?

Facing reality to night and I
Don’t like what I see
A man setting on a big throne
With his eyes pointed at me.
So many people standing around with
Their heads hanging low
I’m afraid what the Lord may say
So in my heart I must go
I tried to hide behind the crowd
Didn’t want to know my fate
The lord cried “come back!”
For you my child it’s too late

I starred at the other people faces
And we all had the same look
There’s no hope for us when
God judge us from his book
Liars, backbiters, fornicators, and all
Slipping in the darkness, led to your fall
My book is open so said the Lord
Why didn’t you stop and examine your heart
You can’t be with me, I forbid all sin
I warn you daily before your end

My book will judge your every secret fault
Everything you took, everything you bought
Beyond this door lies another door
Once entered, your time is no more
Every secret thing you thought you hid
Every no good thing you ever did
My book is open to send you in a mist
Where you will never ever exist
You hated your neighbor, lied to your friend
Took church tithes, and didn’t amend
You took from the poor and didn’t care
You ignored me every time I were there

You slept at night with lust on your mind
I tried to correct you time after time
My book is open to judge you and I will
Your time is up, your faith now sealed
My word will warn your family and friend
If they fail to listen; my book will open again.

I have this little crystal ball
I’m afraid to look inside
Afraid to see the future
Afraid of what it hides
I don’t want to see
What tomorrow may bring
It may bring happiness
Heart aches and pain

It just might show me things
I do not want to see
Causing sorrow to over take
A great part of me
What must I do with my
Little crystal ball
Should I look inside and
Answer to its call?

Maybe I will see; where
Time is no more
Or maybe it will be
Better days then before
Part of me wants to know
What tomorrow will bring
It could hold riches, or
Almost any thing

To want to know the future
They tell me it’s a crime
It’s something that bothers
Me; consonantly on my mind
My crystal ball stares at me
While setting on the shelf
I am tempted to look
I just can’t help myself

Trying to see the future
Is like a hard riddle
Keep messing with the present
You get caught up in the middle
I think I’ll throw my crystal ball
Far out in the sea
Cause only God knows my future
And what’s in store for me

I love my dad
He’s the best in the world
He bounces me on his knee
Cause I’m his little girl
He holds my hand
When we cross the street
He teach me to say no
To the strangers I meet

My dad is very unique
He’s more than grand
When I need help
My dad is the man
I will not trade him
For nothing in this world
He’s my dad, and
I’m his little girl

My father was a good man
God rest his soul
My father was the best father;
But one day he got old
He loved his family
In a kind and gentle way
My father is no longer with us
He gently slipped away.

He gave me something
That I will proudly wear
There is nothing like it
And none can compare
I will wear it with pride
Because I am free
I will wear it with dignity
Because my father gave it to me

  I will keep it polish
And pass it to my son
And he will wear it proudly
Until the day is done
I will do my best to let everyone see
That my father loved and passed it on to me

Many years have come and gone
Since my father slipped away
I hope he is proud of me
Because I wear it proud today
Father I thank you for trusting me with
The most important thing in your life


I promise to protect it
And always treat it right
Now I have a son father;
And I will do the same
Thank you always father; we
Proudly wear your name

Looking out the window while
Tears run down my face
Seems like years have passed
Many, Many days
I stare at the photo on
The dresser by my bed
Empty on the inside
Feeling like I’m dead

I know I am old, and
Feeling sorry for myself
There is pain in loneliness
And sorrow in death
This is not my home I
Don’t belong in this place
My kids left me here
Because of my age

They say I get in the way and
The burden of me goes deep
When I drop things
I never pick it up
And their kids can never sleep
I scrub floors, worked my
Fingers to the bone
Trying to put them through school
And give them a decent home

A lady came to visit one day
I still know not her name
She said: where is your family
Is the reason still the same?
Seem like you haven’t had a visitor
In a long, long time
Things look worse to you
But believe me, it’s fine

My kids left me here, ten years ago
Why they left me here
I really want to know
I did my best to raise them well
Where they are now, only
God can tell
I got a letter from my daughter
Almost five years this day
She ramble on about her happiness
But nothing else to say

Why did they leave me
In this place call home
For ten years now I
Have been left alone
How can you put away someone
You say that you love
How can you leave them
Unhappy in this world

Will I see my kids again
Before it’s too late
Will I be able to picture their face
Before I walk through Heaven Gates
I will always hold them close
In my heart so dear
The only thing I know: is
That my kids left me here

I am the reason people
Lie to one another
Hatred, jealous, and envy
Toward their brother
I will make you cry
Don’t care how you feel
And if you are not careful
Your very life I will steal
My name is what, and
Who you think it is
I am the big dog
The one and only thrill

I am known to cause
Confusion on the spot
I been chased many times
But never ever caught
I’ll make you do what
You never thought you could
I am bad, I rule this hood                                                                            
Don’t take me lightly or
Say what I wouldn't do
Anything is possible when
I choose to do it to you

All this time and you still
Know not my name?
When bad things happen to you
Tell me who do you blame?
My job is to keep all of you
From reaching Heaven
I bet you know me now
My name is the devil
I cause wars and fights
In every single town
I stick out like a sore thumb
I am easy to be found

When a person pulls a trigger
And takes someone’s life
I made them do it;
I brought hatred in their sight
I told you to leave your wife
And your husband as well
You love what I offer you
I make great sells

It’s easy to plant a seed
In most people head
Some people is easy
Prey to be led
Once you open up and
Let me inside
You will repeat all kind
Of jokes and lies
I love it when people let
Me have my way
I dance you like a
Puppet on a string
And there’s nothing
You can say

My name is, and always
Will be
Mr. devil to you
Hey! That’s me                                                                                          
I am cunning, and come
In so many forms
If you are not a child of God
My spirit you fail to learn

I am a peace breaker
I hate to keep things together
Continue to do what I say
We can spend eternity
In hell together
So the next time you are lonely
And crave to do wrong
Call me on the phone
Or visit my home
I live between purgatory
And the inferno in hell
If you forget my number
You can send me an E-Mail

I finally decided to pick up my pen again
I don’t know where to start or where to begin
So much has happen since the last time I wrote
I manage to hold on, I manage to cope
I began to look around at the situation at hand
Trying to figure it out, trying hard to understand

On one side of me there’s this pain
And the other side bears so much rain
It’s hard to look up when the tears consonantly fall
It’s hard to feel big when you feel so small
The more my pen wrote the way that I feel
It put life into reality and I knew it was real
I couldn't handle the emotional state my pen brought
I couldn't handle the truth that entered my thoughts

So I gave up on writing and threw my pen away
Not knowing that these thoughts
Would come to mind again one day
I find myself setting here holding this pen
Tightly but firmly with all my strength in my hand
While my thoughts run freely like grains of sand
Afraid to write not knowing what will come out
Afraid to believe and afraid to even doubt

I vowed never to use this pen; never not again
It brings out the worse that suddenly has no end
I have to face the facts that no one quite
Understands me the way that my pen does
It shows me love and all the hatred in this world
If I fail to use my pen I will overflow with thoughts
Hidden from the truth and somehow forever lost
When I picked up my pen I realize it doesn't judge
It doesn't feed on hatred and never grant less love

So here I am with my pen working hard again
Putting thoughts on paper that simply has no end
May be my thoughts can help someone else
Maybe I’ll find me deep within myself
I don’t know what all this pen will say
Neither what it will tell me to write down today
I am anxious and my patient is wearing thin
Because I realize that in my hand
Here lies my pen once again.

I sat in the park
Thinking of you
Can’t get you off my mind
No matter what I do
I see you with another
As you drive by
My head hang in shame
I bow my head and cry
I can’t see much, because
My eyes is fill with tears
When you walk by me
Did you know how I feel?

Every day at twelve O’clock
I come to this place
Sometimes I sat; waiting
On you for days
When we were walking
Barefoot through the sand
You could tell that you
Are my only man

Now you walk away
And finds another
Someone you chose
To be your lover
Where can I go,
What must I do?
I am not use to
Living without you

I am hurt and
Feeling all alone
Let her go; I’m yours
Please come home
I will forgive you
For walking away
I want you, I need you
What else can I say?
Rescue me from sitting
Here feeling blue
Come back to me;
I’m not use to living
Without you!

If I had one wish given
To me in this world
I would wish for peace
Prosperity and love
I would wish for good health
Joy peace and wealth
I would spread forgiveness
In spite of myself

One wish granted with
Everything combined
Sunshine, freedom, strength
With red cherries and wines

Since there’s only one wish
I’ll keep you in mind
And grant you your wish
Another day and another time

Pain is an army that fights
Without Honor
It travels in packs attacking
Your heart by the numbers
It will not pull punches
It let them all fall
It stands out, stick out
Like a tower, it’s tall
It’s to blame for most tears
And what we call our fears

Pain is strong, fearless, and holds
Strong like a leech
Very few break free and win in defeat
Never fight with pain, a fight you won’t win
You struggle all your life and
Pain prevails in the end

Tonight is tonight that I
Find out where I stand
I’m nervous, shaking
Trembling in my hand
You kept telling me that between
Us things would get better
If this being the case
Explain these pieces of a letter

I found it on your night stand
Next to your bed
When I read it, it gave
Me a pain in my head
This guy said that with you
He had a good time
He made it sound ****
And tried to rhyme

As I read these pieces
Of a letter
It hurt inside
Because I knew deep down
To me you had lied
You made me feel alive
And always charmed
I have always kept you safe
And secure from harm.

It’s hurting me inside to think
Of you and him as being a pair
And the running of his
Fingers through your hair
When we were walking
Barefoot through the sand
You could have told me
You had another man

When you tore up the letter
And left it by your bed
Did you do it to play me
And mess with my head?
My love for you goes deeper
Than the bottom of the sea
Now your lies and letter
Have all but destroyed me

Did you plan these pieces of
A letter so I could see
That all your life you
Wanted to be free?
I guess it’s over and
Nothing left to say
I guess I’ll move on and
Lick my wounds another day
You hurt me real bad, and
These tears I cannot hide
But at least I know now
How you really feel inside

Lying on the bed
Crying for help
The only other option
Is a slow painless death
She picks up the telephone
Talking to a friend
My life is useless
It somehow must end

There’s no joy in
Her soul today
Visions of suicide in
Her head do play
When she needed someone
To just be there
They turned their backs
They just didn’t care

She went into the bathroom
And looked into the mirror
Heart broken, lonely,
Sad and teary
No one would answer her
When she calls
No, not a soul,
Not anyone at all

She held up her arms and
Said, my life is a twist
Seconds later she
Cut both her wrists.
Laying on the floor
In a puddle of blood
Crying, and sad because
No one gave her love

While slowly closing her eyes
One more time she cried;
It’s over for me now
No more hurt inside
Before she planned
This selfish act
She wrote a note
And explained the facts

The note said I’m leaving
Not that anyone care
When I needed you the most
You were never there
You can’t find my life
Because Now I am free
No one ever cared what
Happened to me
I don’t have to hear
Or put up with lies
No one made me do this
It’s a planned suicide!!!!!!!

Prayer is the key to
Getting the job done
Through our prayers
Miracles are formed
When you pray
Always be prepared
Things will happen
Through spiritual prayers

Things will come upon us
And we know that they will
Tell God all about it
Just tell him how you feel
Meditate in your mind
And be persistence in prayer
God is only a call away
He is always there

Even though the eyes
Cannot see God;
He’s in the morning air
Whenever you need him
You can reach him
Through prayer

Pray for your family
Pray for your friends
Pray to be establish
Until the very end
Prayer is an honorable way
To stay in touch with God
Through this line of faith
God will answer from the heart

Prayer is a powerful weapon
Nothing else can match
It brings down the highest mountain
Now what you think of that?
Be careful what you ask
Be careful what you say
Because all things are possible
When you bend your knees
And PRAY.

There is something about
The midnight hour
That keeps me in
Touch with God.
My private phone
At midnight comes
Straight from my heart
  
When everyone is asleep
I can get a phone call through
The same God that
Listens to me will
Also listen to you.
When people do me wrong,
And make me shed my tears.
I use my private phone line
To tell God how I feel.
  
The line is always open,
Never too busy you see;
I know the Lord
God lives, because
He also lives in me.
Get on your private
Phone at midnight
And keep in touch
With God; but before
You dial the number,
Make sure you want
Him in your heart.

Some people have left God
And reaching for the Psychic line
Only two ninety nine a minute
And false information you are buying.
Will I get married and be happy as can be?
Why call the Psychic line, Jesus gives
The information free.
  
You refuse to fast and pray
It takes up too much time
So you pick up the telephone
And call the psychic line
I lost my wife, is my husband coming back?
I need to call the psychic line to get
The basic facts.
  
What you do not understand is
What you fail to see
The answer lives in Jesus who
Died on Calvary
Never be quick to believe, what’s on TV
And never forget the man
That died to set you free

The answer is not in the psychic line
So erase it from your head.
The answer lives in a man that
God raised from the dead
If you believe I speak the truth, then
Get your business straight
And divorce the psychic line before
It’s too late.

Ingredients
  
First we start with Jesus
1 Heart
5 cups of love
4 cups of understanding
3 cups of peace
2 cups of joy
21 teaspoons of long suffering
And a lot of the Holy Ghost
  
Directions
You take Jesus and mix him with the 5 cups of love, and then you go about your business spreading it throughout the world.
You take the 21 teaspoons of long suffering and mix it with the 2 cups of joy, Go out and tell the world about Mary’s baby boy.
Add the 4 cups of understanding with the 1 Heart; testify to your sisters and brothers about the Almighty God.
Now last but not least, you take the 3 cups of peace and mix it with the Holy Ghost. Now you got what you need to go from coast to coast.
This is a recipe for being a good Saint, it’s the best food I ever ate, and you can
Take That To The Bank!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a woman,
I respect myself
I am only me,
And no one else
I cry, I hurt, and
I can even love
I am beautiful, unique,
An extraordinary girl

I am brave, honest,
Cute,, and kind
Respect is earned
So today its mine
My words are simple
Short and sweet
Even the cloths I wear
Is **** and neat

My walk is slow
Seasoned with Grace
You can tell from my
Talk I have good taste
Gentle and delight
I bow with ease
A Virtuous woman
Easy to please
I need respect as
A part of me
It’s something that’s
Earned, not given free

I am young and special,
An extraordinary girl
I demand respect, and
A place in this world
When I look in the mirror
I see all I can be
I am respect; kind, graceful
And free

Every time I think
That I am free
The Image of your face
Is all that I see
I have tried my best to
Stay out of your world
I am left with no fact
And right back in love

Every morning that I manage
To crawl out of bed
Visions of your face
Flash through my head
I know that being with you
Is a waste of my time
There’s nothing new with you
I’ve heard all your lines

You told me how you felt
On our last vacation trip
It’s obvious to say; you
Ended our relationship
I tried to forget you
And move on with my life
It wasn’t easy for me, I
Had to cry tears and fight
Now I see you again;
You want to kiss, and hug
Just one touch from you
And I’m right back in love

What happen between us
Could never be again
Silent tears I shed but
This relationship has end
May be I will always
Love you in my heart
It’s better this way
It’s better that we part
I will never see you again
I’ve move on with my life
The next man I get
I hope he treats me right

Take a second, take a pause
Sat back and ask yourself
What’s the big deal with Santa Clause?
So he supposed to be this super hero
That brings good cheer and joy
But I know someone that does it better
It’s Jesus! Mary’s baby boy


So I told Santa My bills was due
And I was a little low on cash
He told me his magic
Only works once a year
Light some candles
And hope it lasts
You see, I gave
Jesus the same situation
And he told me to fret not
Just pray and leave it
In my father’s hand
He will never and has not forgot


I told Santa my family
Was hungry and
We could really use a meal
Santa response was:
I know not to expect milk
And cookies from you,
Really; what’s the big deal?
I turned it over to Jesus
And I loved his response
He said; my child;
Nothing is impossible for me
I fed a multitude with
2 fish and 5 loaves of bread

So now I am looking at Santa
And it is all becoming clear?
That Santa cares not for me, but
To be famous once
Throughout the year
But Jesus, that man alone,
And his father
Stuck by me the whole 365 days
So why not devote to him
My time and my life
So this year I probably
Won’t see Santa
And receive a balloon
Boat or ball
But who cares?
Jesus supplies my every needs and
He’s my all and all.

She’s my little girl
So bright and fair
Wide eyes and
Little nose
With long silky hair
She makes me happy
And fills me with love
I’m her whole world
And she’s my little girl.

Setting by the window
Feeling all alone
Wishing and hoping someone
Would call me on the phone
Feeling hurt, broke down
And so depressed
Looking at my life
Wondering what a mess

Empty on the inside
Is what I now feel
Realizing in my heart that
The pain is now real
No one will call or
Speak to me a word
The silence of loneliness
Now can be heard

Lonely and ashamed with
My head hanging low
Crying many tears flowing
Freely than before
All kind of thoughts keep
Flashing through my mind
And I try to defeat them
Time after time

Can anyone see the
Loneliness deep inside
Can you see within myself
What I try hard to hide
The silence of loneliness
Is pleading for help
Fighting with the emptiness
Deep within myself

This disease has left me
In a nerve wrecking state
Begging and pleading
Before it’s too late
Calling on someone to
Give me a hand
Someone who cares and
Really understand

What can I do, and
What is my choice?
Not even a sound,
Not even a voice
All that I see is a
Much horrifying end
This is what happens
When you trust loneliness
To be your friend.

I had many sleepless nights
And walked a painful path
Sorrow, heartache and pain
I remembered from my past
I've done many things
I know wasn't right
And the skeletons in my closet
Came back to hunt my life
  
In my strongest hour, I
Found myself to be weak
And I shared all night passion
With strangers in the street
I thought they would love me
When I gave them my all
I didn't resist temptation, I
Answered many calls
  
I somehow fell in love
And met a wonderful man
If he found out about the
Skeleton in my closet
He wouldn't understand
My past is now the present
That has surface to the light
The place that kept my secrets
Is now what hunts my life
  
I bear the truth in my heart
Silent as a Lamb
When he finds out
The truth, will he
Know the type of
Woman that I am
  
The skeletons in my closet
I kept them locked away
To ashamed to speak of them
Until this very day
If I tell him the truth
His love I will lose
I feel like I am trapped
I feel like a fool
  
If I had the power to go
Back and change my life
I would have no pain
And no more sleepless nights
I would have no secrets
For no one to understand
Only joy and peace, somewhere
Happy with my man!

Maybe I hurt you and
Caused you to cry
I know the pain went deep
And this I won’t deny
I know I am to blame for
All your sleepless nights
The things that I said
I know it wasn't right

I never meant you any sorrow
And I never meant
To make you cry
I am the cause of your pain
I accept all the blame
I called you cheap words
And a lot of other stuff
Sometimes saying I’m sorry
Just isn't good enough

Somehow I felt what you
Felt deep inside
So much hurt and pain
Like a reflection in your eyes
Every breath you took
Filled with deceit and sorrow
Maybe your forgiveness
Will come on tomorrow

I can’t expect you to push
This all away
Maybe another time,
Another hour in the day
If I could take the words back
That caused you to cry
I would do it in a heart beat
And you know it’s not a lie

Nothing I can say right now
Will keep your heart still
I’m sorry, I apologize for
The way I made you feel
Even a broken heart is
One that’s hard to mend
This will follow me
Until the very end
In your eyes I am the enemy
And you have to do what you must
But sometimes saying I’m sorry
Just isn't good enough

I am sorry that I missed
Your anniversary, and
I’m sorry I wasn’t there
I offer this card with love
To show you that I care

I know this card is late
And somehow over due
But this doesn’t stop me
From wishing happy
Anniversary to you

Sorry I missed your Graduation
I really wanted to be there
I wanted you to see my face
And know how much I care
Instead I’ll send lots of hugs
Blessings from our father above
Happy graduation with all my love

C is for Christ, the main man in my life
H is for helping his children create a start
U is for understanding the wrong from the right
R is for reading my Bible day and night
C is for courage and strength on the double
H is for God’s hand that keeps me out of trouble

Getting off work late
Round about nine O’clock
Running through the alley
Across from the parking lot
Three feet from my car
Someone grabbed me from behind
One man appeared
In front of me saying;
Don’t scream lady its fine

A strong arm around my neck
I found it hard to breathe
I found myself being dragged
Between two palm trees
Masks covered their eyes
Only their mouth did show
Why is this happening
I only wanted to know

“Please stop, Let me go!”
I don’t want your love
To do this selfish act
You got a lot of nerves.
A five minute pleasure
Turned into a life time of pain
I laid there on the ground
Telling myself I am to blame

All of my sorrow I
Could no longer hide
Dead and ashamed is
What I felt inside
Lying on the ground
I cried many tears
To have someone
Take my love
What else can I feel?

Nothing will ever be
The same
I could never explain
How stolen love
Left me lifeless
And brought about
A change
The whole time they
Stole from me
They thought it was a game

Now I spend most of my
Time looking in the mirror
Hating the person I see
Knowing that along the
Way I am no longer me

I cannot change what they
Stole from me that night
They never had permission
Nor did they have the right
If I had the power to change
One thing in my life;
It would be to skip the pain
That I endured that night

It must have been your smile
That glowed across the room
It must have been the sensational smell
Of my rose and honeysuckle perfume
Or maybe it was your touch
So bright, happy and true
That makes me feel so happy and
Stuck in eternity with you

Where the sun always shine and
The moon stands quiet and still
Where roses smell so sweet and
And love is genuine and real
Where holding hands somehow mends
And the feeling of happiness never ends

The listening of a heart with gentle beats
And always wondering am I stuck too deep
Somehow I don’t mind being stuck in this life
One that’s joyful, happy, and true
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

I may lose myself somewhere along the way
But knowing me; I’ll take it day by day
With the stars sending forth a bright ray of light
And the moon shinning upon our face at night
I don’t care where you are or even what you do
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

The most important day in
My life you fail to come through
You decided to let me fall.
The time I needed you most
You hit ignore and didn’t
Answer my call
.I sat there in that corner,
And cried tears of pain.
As all the trouble and hurt
I held on to started to
Drive me insane.
  
And I waited as long as I could
To hear someone say
"Hold on, wait I'll be there"
But no one showed and
It hurt more to see no one care.
You were so *******
In your selfish acts
Or too tired you proclaimed
To leave your bed
  
And I was all alone
As thoughts raced
Through my head
And before me laid
Many options: pills, rope,
A gun, a knife.
Trying to find the quickest
Way to end this pain
I called life
  
So now it’s over
It’s done, and
Everyone asks why?
But she seemed so happy
I never seen her cry
But I did, you just
Never took the time to see
Time to realize the obvious
You over looked in me
  
So if anyone out there
Can hear me
Will you truly listen
Will you remember
Take the time so this
Doesn't happen again?
Will you remember to at
Least call or text or stop
By or just drop in
Take a moment to check
On your family and friends
Don’t just say you're thankful
For people in your life
But can’t recall the
Last time you came in contact
A life is something easily taken
That you can’t give back.

This time of year
Is special in my heart
To bow my head and
Give thanks to God
For blessing my family
To live happy and free
To be in the place
Where we ought to be

To be thankful for our gifts
No matter how little or small
To be cheerful, happy,
And thankful for them all
For blessing us to eat
The food on our table
Health, strength, and
The fruit of our labor

Thanksgiving bring so
Much honor and cheer
And I know I am blessed
To be here this year
So, before setting at the
Table stuffing my face
I will always remember
To be thankful with GRACE!

I thank you for lifting me up
And always being there
I want to give my appreciation
To show how much I care

I want to show you how
Much you mean to me;
For this is how friends
Should and ought to be

I let you rest on my shoulder
All the nights you cried
I spent many hours wiping
Tears from your eyes
I couldn't stand to see you
Hurt so bad inside
But you are only human
She never realize

Now you feel like your
Whole life has fail
And if you’re going the
Right direction
Your heart can never tell
My friendship comes free
It’s clearly not for sale
I am your pillow of strength
I promise to do my best
Try me, believe in me
Put me through the test

Lay your head in my lap
We both can concur
I’m trying to be your comfort
But it’s her that you prefer
I’m crying and hurting with you
This is what friends are for
Sure she broke your heart
And left you standing alone
It’s tearing you apart because
You realize that she’s gone

I’ll stay close, as long as
Your heart wants me to
I can feel your hurt, and all the
Things she put you through
Let me help you;
And face whatever
Problem might occur
After all my love;
That’s what friends are for

The Bible is more important
Then you think it is
The Bible is a work of art
And does what it will
There’s so much to learn
If you only read the word
You’re find something out
You have never heard

You will find adventure
Romance and a lot more
The Bible will lead you to
Places you never been before
There are comforting words
When you feel this is the end
If you are feeling lonely
I’m sure you’re find a friend

Sometimes we feel that
There’s sorrow in this life
Darkness everywhere
We can hardly see the light
Sometimes we pick it up
And put it back on the shelf
Knowing all the time that
The word is your help

Stop ignoring the word
And act like we care
When we do decide to
Read the Bible; it just
Might not be there

I now believe that we are truly
Living in the end time
Killing, stealing, hatred, lying
So much hatred and crime
Peace use to be plentiful
Hanging on every vine
War has risen from way beyond
A frightening and terrible sign
Love is out battle and somehow
Fail to stick around
Hatred took its place and
Now the world is bound.

Thick clouds of sin formed
From every parts of the earth
Bringing forth pain and our
Generation it’s trying to curse
Losing so many young people
Both day and night
It’s hard to point out the wrong
And keep up with the right                                                                          

Hidden things in government policies
Seems like the world is headed for a fall
No one is in agreement, arguing, pointing fingers
And truly this is not all
Fathers missing their daughters and
Mothers crying for their sons
They say money is short, but
Yet they got it to burn
There is never nothing new always
The same old lines
Now we ask the question
Are we living in the end time?

So many churches out there but
Yet there is only one God
No one wants to communicate so
The churches are distance apart
Through all the trouble I know
An answer must lies ahead
Are we really on top of things
Or are we blind and falsely misled
Through the word of god and                                                                      
His everlasting power
There is an inward peace through
The passing of the hour

Though some may possess a lot
Of wisdom and some a lot of wealth
I try to put God first and
Forget about myself
When it all comes down to
Where we place our trust
Giving it over to the Lord
For me is always a plus
When I look all around
My eyes behold all the signs
Knowing that Jesus is soon to return
Because we are living in the End Time!

He took me for a ride one day
To get away from home
What started out as having
Fun, left me all alone
I wondered why a right turn,
Turned into a left
Where are we going, I
Suddenly ask myself?

Snow fell on the ground, and
Ice hung from the tree
There was a painful look in
His eyes, as they
Suddenly focus on me.
In the middle of nowhere
Forest and the weeds
I knew from the start
A tangled web was weaved

Forced out of the car
For no reason at all
Crying, begging, as the
Grass broke my fall
Lying on the ground, cold
And scared to death
Terror took my voice as
I tried to call for help

He left me in a place I
Never had to be
All this time I thought
The man loved me
The long road back turned
Day into night
I couldn’t find my way out
So I gave up on life

I fell to the ground covered
With ice and snow
Why he left me here I
Really fail to know
I remember closing my eyes
And hearing strange sounds
Shadows of fear covered
Me as I laid there
On the ground

When I open my eyes
I were lying in bed
Frozen from my waist down
With a cut on my head
Hunters found me there
That night in the nick of time
My boyfriend got arrested
For this indecent crime
It’s a long road back
To finding my life
But I will always remember
What I went through that
NIGHT!

The mind holds terrible things
We wish no one could see
It tells a flattering story
As flattering as can be
Deep dark secrets fulfill
This space of air
When we think we are loved
The mind says; I don’t care

In this empty space we
Somehow call our minds
Deceive a person’s heart
And somehow keeps them blind
We will never know
The inner thought
Buried deep within
In a selfish twisted mind
That somehow has no end

In a quiet place is when
The mind works best
It always distinguish itself
From the boundaries
Of all the rest
It sees things that ordinarily
Shouldn't be
It feeds on overload and
And why, we cannot see

You thought lies, envy, jealously
Always come from the heart
It always starts in the mind
The utter most selfish part
There are two things in life
You will never ever know
How the mind functions and
And how evil in the heart grow

You would be surprise all
The things the mind occupy
And all the dark evil to
The heart it can supply
It buries things you simply
Would never and cannot see
It’s like a silent hill and
A hundred year old tree
So never underestimate
The power of the mind
It somehow brings out
The worst in all man kind

The preacher is placed here
To feed God’s sheep
To give them God commandments
To always keep
To pray for the sick
And spread God’s love
Carrying this message
To the ends of the world

The preacher is God’s counsel
Listening to our problems
Seeking God for answers
On how he can solve them
The preacher has to speak
The word, in and out of season
He can’t stop the message
For any other reason

I will require the blood at your
Hand said the Lord;
If you don’t feed my people
And establish righteousness
In their heart

A preacher work
Simply has no end
As long as the world exists
There will always be sin

Looking through the kitchen
Window starring at the sky
Singing soft melodies
As the hour passes by
Snuggle beside my oven with
A cup of coffee in my hand
Watching the snowflakes fall
Like a blanket covering the land

The smell of pine aroma
Lingers in every room
And baking apple pies
All after noon
The smell of Christmas
Somehow fills the air
Lights twinkling on the tree
And toys everywhere

Friends and love ones
Sat down for a talk
With the holiday season
Embedded in their thought
Children around the fire
Place eating cookies, and
Drinking milk
Dad relaxing in his chair
After a long tiresome trip

The holiday season is
Bringing good cheer
And the smell of Christmas
Lingers near
On a cold winter morning
Drinking hot tomato soup
And a jolly old man in
His little red suit

Ham, potatoes, to
The table they bring
A feast so good, its
Fit for a king
Prayers and love
That fills the air
And the smell of
Christmas is everywhere.

This time of year I
Often think of friends;
Broken hearts and
Relationships to mend
Eating and talking
Setting around the table
Telling Christmas stories
Of a baby in the stable

Green pine trees with
Red, green, and blue lights
With present there to open
That every one might like
Bitter cold wind
Blowing from the south
Turkey and ham to
Fill everybody’s mouth

Christmas decoration hanging
Tightly on the wall
Dad playing Santa clause
But that’s not all
Setting on the table
Is cookies and milk
Mom got a night gown
Made of pure silk

A star in the sky
Shinning so bright
Eggnog and cinnamon:
And a merry good night

This time of year I
Often think of friends;
Broken hearts and
Relationships to mend
Eating and talking
Setting around the table
Telling Christmas stories
Of a baby in the stable

Green pine trees with
Red, green, and blue lights
With present there to open
That every one might like
Bitter cold wind
Blowing from the south
Turkey and ham to
Fill everybody’s mouth

Christmas decoration hanging
Tightly on the wall
Dad playing Santa clause
But that’s not all
Setting on the table
Is cookies and milk
Mom got a night gown
Made of pure silk

A star in the sky
Shinning so bright
Eggnog and cinnamon:
And a merry good night

Nothing can compare to
The great loss that I feel
Nothing can compare
To the love I had to give.
I often think about the precious
Smile on mother’s face
And the motherly and daughterly
Talk, that went on for days.

She knew how much I love her,
I could tell it in her voice,
I could tell how much she loved me;
I could feel it in my heart.
Sometimes when I felt lonely
Or even burden down
All I had to do is think about her,
And she would be around.

Mother would take her gentle finger,
And wipe the tears from my eyes
The heavy burden was lifted,
And I felt better inside.
My dear sweet mother; even
Though you are gone
I feel that you are free
But your kindness and
Courage will live on in me.

All the things you taught me,
Are kept silently in my mind
And it will keep me stronger
Each and every time
Saying good-bye is something
That has to be done
Losing a mother is never easy,
This I have learned.

If you are looking down from
Heaven and hear the words I say;
Peace is still:
My mother has gone away.
No matter what words be spoken,
On tomorrow or today
My heart is broken,
But I’ll love you anyway.

Sometimes we
Get let down
With all the twist
And turns in life
To keep your head
Above water
You are ready and
Determine to fight
You find the cost
To feed your family
Is more than you can bear
And the worries shows on
Top of your head
With black and grey hair

You try to keep up with
The browns afraid of
Being left behind
You can’t afford that
Big white house
You don’t even
Have a dime
Your wife is on
Your back and
Your baby needs
A pair of shoes
You find yourself in
So much trouble and
Now you got the blues

Your job doesn't
Pay enough money
So now you are talking
About leaving
When you think you
Got it under control
This week you
Didn't break even
Now your kids are sick
From playing out in the cold
Little Johnny has a fever
With a red and runny nose
You feel bad inside because
Others have money to burn
Hospital garnish your check
Because you had no insurance

You bow your head
With a honest heart
Fighting tears as you pray
Sleepless nights, teary eyes
Believing there must be a way
Because life takes away
Whatever you earn
With all its twist and turns
Now you wonder
How some can make it
And other can hardly stand
Half supporting your family
Makes you feel less of a man

You can’t stand the pressure
So you want to go back home
There are times in the day when
You prefer to be left alone
So you figured out that life
Waits patiently for no one
A lesson that is well learned
And life doesn't play fair
With all its twists and turns

I remember when the world
Was filled with love
Laughter, kindness, friendship
And amazing hugs
We use to help and show
Affections toward our brother
Now we fight, and
Bad mouth one another

There was a time when
We care what went on
And parents wouldn't leave
Their children alone
Preachers was concern when
A Christian fell down
Help would always come
From miles around

What happen to the joy that
Use to be in this world
What happen to the laughter
The kindness and the love
Why are we killing, and
Destroying precious life
What makes us argue, and
What makes us fight

We use to borrow a cup
Of sugar from our neighbor
Join hand in prayer
Setting at the breakfast table
We would help each other
As far as we were able
With a kind heart we would
Always return the favor

Envy, jealously, hatred, and lust
Has penetrated our heart
Relationship, friendship, and
Marriages torn apart
What happen to the joy
That made us what we are
We once spoke of peace
But now what we see is war

What happen to the times when
Your child could play with mine
And go to school in peace without
Someone committing a crime
What happen to the safety
We once felt in this world
And where is the peace, and
What happen to the love

What happen to the smiles we
Once wore upon our face
What happen to the moments
What happen to the days
What happen to the way
Times use to be,
When we felt excited, happy
And free??????????

Looking out of the window
While snow fell to the ground
Reminded me of a dreamed
And the peace of mind I found
Before I fell asleep I
Had many questions
In my heart
On how to love and
Somehow please God

I tossed and turned trying
To fall asleep
Pleasing God was like a tape
In my head on repeat
I tried to push away
The cold feeling inside
I remember about twelve O’clock
I finally closed my eyes

I dreamed I was in heaven
Oh what a beautiful sight                                                                              
Big golden gates, and
The streets shinned so bright
There were fluffy white clouds
Standing all around
I floated on air, and
My feet could touch no ground

When I walked closer to the gates
They began to swing open wide
Seconds later I found myself inside
There were Angels flying
Above my head
Welcome home child;
That’s what they said

You wondered in your mind
What it takes to please God
There were many questions
You planted in your heart
Up here there’s peace
You’re happy and free
Take a look around and
Tell me what do you see?                                                                      

I see a city with streets
Paved with gold
I see many of God’s
Created souls
Setting around the table
Eating honey and
Drinking milk
Even My gown is
Now made of silk

I see three gates in the south
West, North, and East
The saints setting around
Having a wonderful feast
I spent my time seeking
God the whole summer
Point me in his direction
I need to ask him something

I want to please him but
I don’t know how
I need to get an answer                                                                              
From God right now
The moment I spoke
A bright light appeared
I knew from that moment
My faith wasn't seal

I wanted to see his face
But the light was too bright
I couldn't see him, only feel
His present in my sight
He said its easy if
You want to please me
The answer is plain
And so simple you see

God began to tell me what
I had to do and it didn't seem clear
His voice began to fade and I
Couldn't really hear
His voice kept fading
Until I open my eyes
Not knowing what
To feel inside                                                                                      

Suddenly the sun through
The window shinned bright
And I remembered what
I dreamed that night
I wanted to know how
I could please God
This was something that
Always burned in my heart

I walked to the door
And I looked out side
Suddenly it hit me as
Tears ran from my eyes
I believe that I went to heaven
And had a conversation with God
I believed in that dream
With all my heart


He said the answer is plain
As can be
A voice whispered saying                                                                    
Just have faith in me
What I dreamed that night
Let me know it’s not too late
And to please God;
All I need is faith

What if you realize one day
You needed God’s help
And no matter how you tried
There was nothing to be felt
Sick on your bed and the
Doctor’s has given up hope
So with the little strength
Left in your hands you
Write someone a note

You said you look for God
And he were nowhere
To be found
At the point in your life you
Needed him he somehow
Let you down
Your children running wild
And there are bills to be paid
Drive by shooters, shoot
In your home, and now
You are afraid                                                                                  

So you feel like God has
Taken a vacation from all
The mess down here
Just the thought of God on
Vacation has arose
Your deepest fear
You call God with prayers
Only his answering machine
Picks up the slack
He said I’m on vacation
If you need anything it’ll
Wait till I get back

When God needed you
Just to spread the word
You refuse to do the job
Because you lost your nerves
He needed you to help your neighbor
And help the homeless out
You said I can’t give away my money
So you sat in a corner and pout
You thought you had it made                                                                  
With your brilliant education
It’s not helping you now
Cause God’s on vacation

So what if God took a vacation
And left this world alone
Where would any of us be
When he return home?
This is how God feels when
He gives you a task
He wants the job done and
He wants it done fast
So when God give
You a plan to carry
To the nation;
And you refuse his orders
Then to him you’re on vacation

What I want for Christmas
Is not material things
I don’t want a watch
Or a diamond ring
I don’t want a potato pie
Or a fruit cake
What I want for Christmas;
The chef can’t bake

I want to fill this void that
Gives me restless nights
I’m missing something;
I know I need in life
I want something that
Burns in my soul
Something that even I
Can’t control

What I want for Christmas
I dream of every night
What I want for Christmas;
Is Jesus in my life!

When Eve bit the fruit that
God had forbid her not
It put a lot of pressure on us
And things got really hot
Sin then came forth to
Tear the people apart
Satan had the perfect opportunity
To work in our heart

Eve gave the fruit to Adam
And he bit it to
Now it’s hard to get a man to trust
A woman no matter what we do
When Eve bit the fruit
The world changed forever more
Now men try to get us back
And even up the score

God help us; and
Stretch forth thy hand
Help our men to forgive us
And help them understand
Though Eve and Adam bit
The fruit it certainly not the end
God sent his son Jesus down
To wipe away our sin!!!!!

When you are young
And deep in love
It doesn't really matters
What goes on in the world
You feel like you’re lifted
High and wise
There’s this tingling feeling
That tickles inside

This is what took place
When I met my first love
I felt like I could fly
And soar high above
I thought this was the man
I would share my whole life
And I thought in my heart
That I finally met Mr. Right

He treated me good the
Times we spent together
We were like glue                                                                                    
Stuck to a letter
Six months after we married
Things began to change
He got so angry if
I mention his name

When I tried to hug him
And show him that I care
He would ****** away and
Act like I wasn't there
When I got married we
Had so much fun
I was left wondering what
Happen to the bond

I found myself holding
His picture, crying and starring
Thinking if he didn't want me
Why did we get married?
Many tears I cried
Holding my pillow tight
Being misled into thinking
I met Mr. Right                                                                                              

I decided to visit my mother
Thinking I could clear my head
I returned home unexpected
To find another woman in my bed
It was stuffy that night
In the mist of the summer
Blind, stupid and ignorant to
Think I were the only woman

All the joy I ever felt even
When we first met
Left my soul, made me cold
And I’m not over it yet
When I first got married it
Turned out to be a joke
A silly little girl, easy prey
Has now lost all her hope

Even though I feel that the
Hurt will never go away
I still feel blessed to have
Known love in a special way                                                                            
I will never wed again
No matter what I do
I can’t take the pain
That I suffered through
My scares will last a lifetime
And for love I will not tarry
Because I will always remember
The first time I got married

Why would you scream at me when you know it hurt
Why can’t you realize my heart loves you so much
Why call me nothing when I am your mate
Why we can’t resolve this before it’s too late
If loving me is so easy why I can’t see it
And if your love is plenty why can’t I reap it
Why do we scream and why do we fight
Where did our love go in the falling of the night…

Why can’t I grasp what you say is real
Why it doesn’t matter the way my heart feels
Why in this relationship we both can’t feel free
Why your eyes say differently whenever you look at me
I just want to know why we can’t be as before
Why it’s so easy just to walk through the door
Why you can’t hold me when I’m lonely and blue
Why it seems to always be about you…

Why did I think you would always be in my life
Why I don’t have strength day after day to fight
Why can’t I walk away and never look back
Why can’t I stand on the side line peeping through the cracks…
Why I can’t see that your love for me is gone
Why I can’t walk away and just leave it alone
Why I can’t see you are more trouble than you’re worth
And why I promise never to leave you on this earth
Maybe I can’t find the answers or walk away with the truth
But at least I’ll know why “I’m wasting my time with you”