This time of year I
Often think of friends;
Broken hearts and
Relationships to mend
Eating and talking
Setting around the table
Telling Christmas stories
Of a baby in the stable

Green pine trees with
Red, green, and blue lights
With present there to open
That every one might like
Bitter cold wind
Blowing from the south
Turkey and ham to
Fill everybody’s mouth

Christmas decoration hanging
Tightly on the wall
Dad playing Santa clause
But that’s not all
Setting on the table
Is cookies and milk
Mom got a night gown
Made of pure silk

A star in the sky
Shinning so bright
Eggnog and cinnamon:
And a merry good night

I got something to say to you
And I hope you Understand
I hope to get the message through
To interrupt your plan
You walk around with your nose
In the air looking down on me
You walk around conceited
Thinking you is better than me

Your hopes and your dreams
Are no better than mine
You need to hear the truth
And from where I stand its time
You wear red rose lip stick
Finest perfume money can buy
Everything you stand for
Isn't anything but a lie

You say God answer your prayers
Because you know how to pray
You know how to move God
With the correct words to say
To me my sister; it sounds
Like you got a lot of issues
This whole statement about God
You got the wrong picture
There is no respect of person
In God’s sight or in his mind
He loves all his children
All the same, and all the time

You think the world revolves
Around how you want it to be
And the self-centered person you are
You can’t and will not see
It’s all about God, and
What he wants us to do
It’s not about long prayers
And it’s not about you

You think that your riches
Makes you special in this world
It’s not worth a dime
If you don’t have God’s love
Your gold necklace
And diamond ring
Will not score brownie
Points with God
And your high heel shoes
Is not worth
Anything with a
Conceited concrete heart

I thought it was time
To set the record straight
You can’t get through to God
When your heart is fill with hate
So think about this; and
What it takes to be true
Today you get the lecture
And remember its
Not about you

I awaken from my sleep one morning
In search of poor old me
Where have I gone?
Where shall I be?
I walked over to the mirror and
I couldn't believe my eyes
There stood a selfish woman
With unspeakable pride

I went in the living room and
Jealously walked out of the kitchen
Something is terribly wrong; because
Hate was washing the dishes
I went in the bathroom
I just knew I was in the tub
I raised the shower curtain and
Stupid was making suds

I said excuse me Mr., Stupid
I am in search of me
I have been looking and looking
But where I am, I cannot see
He said did you look in the closet
You are sure to find you there
Among all the clothes, the glare,
And the heart that just don’t care

I know I am in here somewhere
But where can I be?
So much stuff in the way
My eyes find it hard to see
Somewhere in the den I saw
Crazy hanging from the wall
And envy danced a jig
Walking down the hall
Judging sat on the sofa
Making a phone call
While peace breaker laugh
And had himself a ball

My head hung in shame
No wonder I am lost
Backbiting sat in the corner
Eating cinnamon apple sauce
Oh my God! No wonder
My search is in vain
No wonder I am hid and
Can’t find a thing

I started out this morning
In search of me
Never thought I would find
So much junk to see
Now that I know what
It takes to clear the air
Seven days a week in
My life will be PRAYER!!!!

There is something about
The midnight hour
That keeps me in
Touch with God.
My private phone
At midnight comes
Straight from my heart
  
When everyone is asleep
I can get a phone call through
The same God that
Listens to me will
Also listen to you.
When people do me wrong,
And make me shed my tears.
I use my private phone line
To tell God how I feel.
  
The line is always open,
Never too busy you see;
I know the Lord
God lives, because
He also lives in me.
Get on your private
Phone at midnight
And keep in touch
With God; but before
You dial the number,
Make sure you want
Him in your heart.

He didn’t answer me when
I call him on the phone
Setting in this dark room
Feeling all alone
Images in my head of
Him with someone else
I’m feeling so empty
I can’t help myself

A knock at the door with
Him on the other side
I couldn’t answer him
For the tears in my eyes
When he walked through the
Door, he had a different look
The smell of perfume on his shirt;
For me that’s all it took

My entire life with him
Filled with many lies
When he lifted up his head
I were in for a big surprise
I said not a word but
Went straight to my room
It’s my birthday, and he
Didn’t bring baboons?
I guess it took courage for
Him to give me the news
He said; I never loved you baby,
Surprise! You been used

When you tried to touch me
Wanting to share my love
All the time you lay in my arms
My heart were with another girl
She told me that she loves me
And want to share my life
I am going to marry her
And hold her every night

Don’t act like you hurt,
You knew this all the time
When I came home with lipstick
On my collar smelling like wine
You thought that I love you
And that I even care
How could you think that?
I were never there

When he walked away from
Me, I fell to the floor
He never looked back
As he hurried through the door
For 10 long months I
Screamed and I cried
Knowing I would never get
Over; my whole life fill with
LIES!!!!

Take a second, take a pause
Sat back and ask yourself
What’s the big deal with Santa Clause?
So he supposed to be this super hero
That brings good cheer and joy
But I know someone that does it better
It’s Jesus! Mary’s baby boy


So I told Santa My bills was due
And I was a little low on cash
He told me his magic
Only works once a year
Light some candles
And hope it lasts
You see, I gave
Jesus the same situation
And he told me to fret not
Just pray and leave it
In my father’s hand
He will never and has not forgot


I told Santa my family
Was hungry and
We could really use a meal
Santa response was:
I know not to expect milk
And cookies from you,
Really; what’s the big deal?
I turned it over to Jesus
And I loved his response
He said; my child;
Nothing is impossible for me
I fed a multitude with
2 fish and 5 loaves of bread

So now I am looking at Santa
And it is all becoming clear?
That Santa cares not for me, but
To be famous once
Throughout the year
But Jesus, that man alone,
And his father
Stuck by me the whole 365 days
So why not devote to him
My time and my life
So this year I probably
Won’t see Santa
And receive a balloon
Boat or ball
But who cares?
Jesus supplies my every needs and
He’s my all and all.

Laughter is good medicine
That somehow heals I’m told
It lifts, it mends, broken
And torn souls
Laughter is the beauty
That comes from within
It has no measures
It has no end

Laughter lifts the mind from
Things that weigh you down
It conquers any situation
To bring you back around
So laugh in the morning
Night, noon, and day
Let laughter mend your soul
Let laughter have its way

I love Jesus do you love him too,
Do you put him first in everything
You do?
If he knock at your door would you
let him in,
or would you turn your back on him
stand in a corner and grin?
Think of all the wonderful things that
you can have with the Lord,
And before you leave Church today make
room for him in your heart.

One night while watching television
I suddenly fell asleep
And when I open my eyes
This stranger I did meet
A wild looking creature,
Bolder then I had seen
Somebody shake me and
Tell me this is a dream.
  
I did not want to be here,
This is a mistake
Wake me; shake me,
Before it is too late.
The creature began to laugh,
As he laughs so hard;
You are down here to stay
So said the Lord.
  
You had your chance
To live a Christian life
But you didn't count on
Taking this deep sleep tonight.
Listen careful my child,
Don’t you hear the bells?
You missed the streets of gold
And ended up in hell
  
I started to scream and plead to God;
He never heard me as
I stood there in the dark.
People was crying and gritting
Their teeth; my night gown caught on fire
From the intensity of the heat
I yell out with pain saying
Forgive me, this is a mistake
I realize it was the devil when he said;
Take your place I appointed
You in the lake.
  
All while you live,
I stayed ******* your back
You down here with me
And there is no looking back
I showed you things
That drew you from God
Not giving you a chance
To receive him in your heart
Oh foolish one, how foolish could you be
I did not want you in heaven,
But down here with me.
  
You did not have to come here,
Or allow yourself to be fool
I do what I want,
I got nothing to lose.
I know how heaven look,
But I did not care
I want all of God’s people for myself
Maybe you should have loved
God without a doubt
The day I got unruly up there,
He simply put me out.
  
.I got all kind down here
With me, young and old
I am out to **** and
Destroy all of God’s souls.
As I talked with the devil
My heart did ache
My head hung in shame
Because I knew it was too late
I scream loud as I could
To the top of my voice
Suddenly I open my eyes
And grabbed for my heart.
  
I remember everything
I had seen that night
I had no time to waste,
To get my soul right.
I got one more chance
To try to save my soul
I got one more chance
To walk the streets of gold.
  
You may say that this is a poem,
And you are right
But what if you fall asleep
And go there one night?
Do whatever it takes
To live the holy way
Time waits for no one,
It must be today.

C is for Christ, the main man in my life
H is for helping his children create a start
U is for understanding the wrong from the right
R is for reading my Bible day and night
C is for courage and strength on the double
H is for God’s hand that keeps me out of trouble

It must have been your smile
That glowed across the room
It must have been the sensational smell
Of my rose and honeysuckle perfume
Or maybe it was your touch
So bright, happy and true
That makes me feel so happy and
Stuck in eternity with you

Where the sun always shine and
The moon stands quiet and still
Where roses smell so sweet and
And love is genuine and real
Where holding hands somehow mends
And the feeling of happiness never ends

The listening of a heart with gentle beats
And always wondering am I stuck too deep
Somehow I don’t mind being stuck in this life
One that’s joyful, happy, and true
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

I may lose myself somewhere along the way
But knowing me; I’ll take it day by day
With the stars sending forth a bright ray of light
And the moon shinning upon our face at night
I don’t care where you are or even what you do
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

I feel that people don’t listen and
They really fail to hear
How my depression goes deep
And how it opens my deepest fear
My mind tends to play games and
Nothing seems the same
To open up about my feelings
I feel so ashamed
I am this worthless person
Not able to pick myself up
I feel I am not worth it
And life really *****
Depressed in the morning,
Depressed all day long
Depression is my middle name
So I want to be left alone
When I look in the mirror
I hate what I see
I wish I could fade away
It’s a tough journey every day

I am just an old frame and
A broken down old shadow
Why am I stuck in this body
And why life doesn’t matter
Tears became my breakfast
And pills is always my lunch
I feel like I’m in a boxing ring
Knocked down with every punch
I don’t know how to make it
And I fail to simply get through
I’m only sure there is no joy
No matter what I do
Others may understand and
Find a way to cope
From where I stand in life
I can’t find and see no hope
Maybe if I'm lucky
My life will bring a change
And if I'm only dreaming
Depression will always
Be my name

Lying in this little room
Tied down to this bed
Men walking round in white coats
While insanity in my head
Laughing, talking, hanging
Out with my friends
Led down a lonesome road
Where I could see no end

One little taste, I
Swear that’s all I took
Now I’m lying in this little room
Strung out and hooked
I am dreaming of a life
I wish I almost had
But I’m lying in this little room
With my heart feeling sad

My friends are all gone
Nowhere to be found
They led me on a wild ride
And then they let me down
I’m in this little place
So cold, and dark
I can’t feel my body
I can’t feel my heart

I took a final vow
And took a new oath
No more little rooms
Or men in white coats
One night of happiness
For only a short time
Restraints holding me down
While I slowly lose my mind
My life now for everyone
Has become an open book
Lying in this little room
Strung out and hooked

I didn't bring a flower mother
So I hope its alright
I didn't bring you candy
To eat in bed tonight
I brought something special
That you can always see
Guess what mother?
I brought ME!

This time of year I
Often think of friends;
Broken hearts and
Relationships to mend
Eating and talking
Setting around the table
Telling Christmas stories
Of a baby in the stable

Green pine trees with
Red, green, and blue lights
With present there to open
That every one might like
Bitter cold wind
Blowing from the south
Turkey and ham to
Fill everybody’s mouth

Christmas decoration hanging
Tightly on the wall
Dad playing Santa clause
But that’s not all
Setting on the table
Is cookies and milk
Mom got a night gown
Made of pure silk

A star in the sky
Shinning so bright
Eggnog and cinnamon:
And a merry good night

I now believe that we are truly
Living in the end time
Killing, stealing, hatred, lying
So much hatred and crime
Peace use to be plentiful
Hanging on every vine
War has risen from way beyond
A frightening and terrible sign
Love is out battle and somehow
Fail to stick around
Hatred took its place and
Now the world is bound.

Thick clouds of sin formed
From every parts of the earth
Bringing forth pain and our
Generation it’s trying to curse
Losing so many young people
Both day and night
It’s hard to point out the wrong
And keep up with the right                                                                          

Hidden things in government policies
Seems like the world is headed for a fall
No one is in agreement, arguing, pointing fingers
And truly this is not all
Fathers missing their daughters and
Mothers crying for their sons
They say money is short, but
Yet they got it to burn
There is never nothing new always
The same old lines
Now we ask the question
Are we living in the end time?

So many churches out there but
Yet there is only one God
No one wants to communicate so
The churches are distance apart
Through all the trouble I know
An answer must lies ahead
Are we really on top of things
Or are we blind and falsely misled
Through the word of god and                                                                      
His everlasting power
There is an inward peace through
The passing of the hour

Though some may possess a lot
Of wisdom and some a lot of wealth
I try to put God first and
Forget about myself
When it all comes down to
Where we place our trust
Giving it over to the Lord
For me is always a plus
When I look all around
My eyes behold all the signs
Knowing that Jesus is soon to return
Because we are living in the End Time!

They say that Mother Nature
Is to blame for the rain
The hail, the wind, the sleet
And the snow
She terrorize the neighborhood
Much worse than before

They say she visit the ocean
And bring a rapid rage
I wish I knew Mother Nature
But I never seen her face
Why is she so silent and
Distance from our sight
Why is she like a spirited shadow
Somewhere lurking in the night

Mother Nature gets the praise
For starting and stopping the rain
I never been introduce to her
So why do she gets the blame
I am trying to determine in my mind
Who Mother Nature really is
I am trying to determine in life
Is she fictional, or is she real

I have heard of Mother Nature
From my childhood back to birth
Why Mother Nature gets the credit
Remains to be researched
I read about what Jesus said
In the Holy Book
I didn't see Mother Nature
I must need a second look
I turned from page to page and
I couldn't find her in that book

I found that God put together
This whole world from birth
The rain, the sleet, hail, and snow
God decides when it falls to earth
I still wonder how Mother Nature looks
I wish someone would show me where
To find her in the book

I found that Mother Nature
Always get the praise
She has been popular in this world
For many months, weeks, and days
When I turn to the weather
Broadcast playing on TV
It always never ceases to amaze me
That Mother Nature is the topic
And she never fails you see

How does Mother Nature hides
Herself from the public eye
Is she non-fiction or a fictional lie?
All I want to know is whether
Or not the woman exist
When questions are asked about her
Why they are easily dismissed

I know Jesus because he
Lives on the inside
I acknowledge him
In all my ways
So he can be my guide
I know not Mother Nature
And discovering who she is
Has become an issue
I only want to see the woman
So does anybody have a picture?

I cannot forget you not today or ever
I can’t let go of what held us together
A soft gentle touch on the side of my face
Your hot burning kisses that last for days
A candle light dinner, underneath the stars
Soft gentle hands, oil, and a massage
Trying to let go within myself
But memories of you is all that’s left

Bodies melting together on summer’s night
Burning desires taking me to new heights
Flowers and pictures hanging on the wall
Pride always comes before a great fall
Never not ever got over your death
Memories in my heart is all that’s left

Your face rotating in my mind on repeat
To many nights without enough sleep
Holding on to something I’ll never get back
Your shirts and ties on the table in a stack
Seeing your shadow passing in the night
Quickly floating out of my sight

Wondering about some of the things you said
Hurting, remembering you while crying in bed
When I thought I couldn’t do anything right
Your comfort made everything shine so bright
I will not give you up, no one should dare try
To make me forget or even say goodbye
Everything you were I’ll keep to myself
And realize that of you
Memories is all I have left

This time of year
Is special in my heart
To bow my head and
Give thanks to God
For blessing my family
To live happy and free
To be in the place
Where we ought to be

To be thankful for our gifts
No matter how little or small
To be cheerful, happy,
And thankful for them all
For blessing us to eat
The food on our table
Health, strength, and
The fruit of our labor

Thanksgiving bring so
Much honor and cheer
And I know I am blessed
To be here this year
So, before setting at the
Table stuffing my face
I will always remember
To be thankful with GRACE!

The world was in chaos
Dripping down in sin
I must destroy this world
This world must end
Prepare me a body
I will redeem man
I will take his sins upon me
And help him understand

This is my only son
I send down to the world
To redeem man of his sin
And show him how to love
I will supply riches
According to man need
This is my beloved son
In whom I am well pleased

I am God, I am love
I created man
And my son will
Redeem the world
To die is to gain
And the victory is sought
My son came into this world
And his own received him not

I gave all that I had
Because I love man
I created this world, and
I brought forth this land
I am God, I am love
I am the greatest
Throughout this world

By my stripes, you are heal
Through the blood of my son
This world shall live
I gave to you my only son
And now on earth
His work is done.

I was walking down the
Street one day
When I felt it in my heart
This feeling deep in my soul
I knew it must be God
A new path had come to life
And set before my eyes
Tears ran down my face
Because of how I felt inside

I could see my old life
But it was in the past
I felt something in my spirit
I didn't know I had
God was reaching out to me
Because I am his child
When I thought on his goodness
I couldn’t help but smile

I finally found something
That changed my whole life
My worrying days are over
Now everything seems right
God reached out to me
Saying child take my hand
All the things you
Wanted to know
You now understand

I learned a lesson, that
Changes are made
The price for my soul
Jesus died and paid
I am no longer the
Person I use to be
Thank God almighty
I'm finally set free

I am gave you sunshine,
I am gave you spring,
I am that I am who
Gave you everything.
I am gave you flowers
And planted every tree,
I am delivered Moses
Across the red sea.

I am was crucified
And hung on the cross,
I am gave his life to
Save that which was lost.
I am is the one and
With me you will win,
I am delivered Daniel
From the lion's den.

I am healed the sick
And did raise the dead,
I am always did
Just what I said.
Who is this man, a
Meek and humble lamb,
Remember he told Moses,
I am that I am.

Drugs is the number one killer
Of our young people today
It’s abusing and destroying them
In a sad and hurting way
We act like we don’t care
Turning away our head
We are finding our young
People strung out and dead

Looking and talking about
It, just won’t do it
We need to band together to
Help them get through it
Call a meeting and tell
Them about drugs
Show them some consideration
But most of all our love

We can do our best
To offer our affections
Put our arms around them
And offer our protection
They are looking for a way
To take back their life
Crying, fearful, fill with fright
Our young people are reaching
And trying to find hope
But we need to tell them
That poison is dope

We need to steer them in
The right direction
Building a bond
With love and affection
If this doesn’t scare you
Then tell me what will?
Drugs is on the streets
And we better wise up
So our young people can LIVE!

You say you love the Lord
And want him in your life
You say you need a true friend
To comfort you at night
You said the Lord saved you and
Fill you with the Holy Ghost
You never stop lying
Running from coast to coast
Stop pretending you are doing
Right if it's not in your heart
Stop saying you are holy
When you don’t love the Lord
  
You go to church on Sunday
Because it is a tradition
Serving the Lord everyday
Is always the main issue
It seems to be in your mind
And not in your heart
You are playing your script just right:
Down to the very last part
  
When you stand before the Lord
On that great getting up day
If you didn't live your life right
What do you think he will say?
Do what the Lord ask you
Right down to the very last part
Stop living church in your mind;
And start living it in your heart.

Looking out of the window
While snow fell to the ground
Reminded me of a dreamed
And the peace of mind I found
Before I fell asleep I
Had many questions
In my heart
On how to love and
Somehow please God

I tossed and turned trying
To fall asleep
Pleasing God was like a tape
In my head on repeat
I tried to push away
The cold feeling inside
I remember about twelve O’clock
I finally closed my eyes

I dreamed I was in heaven
Oh what a beautiful sight                                                                              
Big golden gates, and
The streets shinned so bright
There were fluffy white clouds
Standing all around
I floated on air, and
My feet could touch no ground

When I walked closer to the gates
They began to swing open wide
Seconds later I found myself inside
There were Angels flying
Above my head
Welcome home child;
That’s what they said

You wondered in your mind
What it takes to please God
There were many questions
You planted in your heart
Up here there’s peace
You’re happy and free
Take a look around and
Tell me what do you see?                                                                      

I see a city with streets
Paved with gold
I see many of God’s
Created souls
Setting around the table
Eating honey and
Drinking milk
Even My gown is
Now made of silk

I see three gates in the south
West, North, and East
The saints setting around
Having a wonderful feast
I spent my time seeking
God the whole summer
Point me in his direction
I need to ask him something

I want to please him but
I don’t know how
I need to get an answer                                                                              
From God right now
The moment I spoke
A bright light appeared
I knew from that moment
My faith wasn't seal

I wanted to see his face
But the light was too bright
I couldn't see him, only feel
His present in my sight
He said its easy if
You want to please me
The answer is plain
And so simple you see

God began to tell me what
I had to do and it didn't seem clear
His voice began to fade and I
Couldn't really hear
His voice kept fading
Until I open my eyes
Not knowing what
To feel inside                                                                                      

Suddenly the sun through
The window shinned bright
And I remembered what
I dreamed that night
I wanted to know how
I could please God
This was something that
Always burned in my heart

I walked to the door
And I looked out side
Suddenly it hit me as
Tears ran from my eyes
I believe that I went to heaven
And had a conversation with God
I believed in that dream
With all my heart


He said the answer is plain
As can be
A voice whispered saying                                                                    
Just have faith in me
What I dreamed that night
Let me know it’s not too late
And to please God;
All I need is faith

Butterflies in my stomach
Joy in my eyes
This crazy feeling in my heart
Burning me inside
No appetite to eat
Trembling in my hands
A joyful sensation even
I don’t understand

My heart beat fast when
He walks through the door
My eyes tends to light up
Brighter than before
Just the mention of his name
Takes me higher than drugs
I can’t explain this feeling
But I think I’m in love

Day dreaming of him
All the day long
Setting in my easy chair
Talking on the phone
Looking out the window
While setting in my room
Wasting all my money
On expensive perfume

Driving around in my car
Hoping to see his face
Just the sight of him
Gives me energy for days
The more I fight to
Let this feeling go
I find myself sinking
Much deeper than before
I’m wrapped around his fingers
And trapped in his world
This feeling is telling me;
I think I’m in love!!!!

I let you rest on my shoulder
All the nights you cried
I spent many hours wiping
Tears from your eyes
I couldn't stand to see you
Hurt so bad inside
But you are only human
She never realize

Now you feel like your
Whole life has fail
And if you’re going the
Right direction
Your heart can never tell
My friendship comes free
It’s clearly not for sale
I am your pillow of strength
I promise to do my best
Try me, believe in me
Put me through the test

Lay your head in my lap
We both can concur
I’m trying to be your comfort
But it’s her that you prefer
I’m crying and hurting with you
This is what friends are for
Sure she broke your heart
And left you standing alone
It’s tearing you apart because
You realize that she’s gone

I’ll stay close, as long as
Your heart wants me to
I can feel your hurt, and all the
Things she put you through
Let me help you;
And face whatever
Problem might occur
After all my love;
That’s what friends are for

I thank you for lifting me up
And always being there
I want to give my appreciation
To show how much I care

I want to show you how
Much you mean to me;
For this is how friends
Should and ought to be

Who carried you for nine months
Through heartaches and pain?
Who sheltered you,
And gave you a name
Who rubbed your tummy
And dried your little eyes
Who said baby it’s alright,
Every time you cried?

It was me; it was me all along,
It was me that stayed there with
You when everyone else were gone.
I did all I could and
Gave you as much as I had,
It was me which God gave,
Strong arms to last.

It was me that whispered to God,
To heal your body and strengthen
Your mind, it was me that cried
Out for you each and every time.
With God help it was me that
Clothed you and kept food on the table,
It was me that did this
As far as I was able.

It’s still me, and I will be
There until the end,
I am not only your mom,
But also your friend.
May be you didn’t have name brand
Clothes growing up through your
Life, but I know I taught you well,
And I know I raised you right.

Now you are a man,
And I can shout it loud
I can shout it from the roof top,
Because your mother are proud.
Remember my son, and never fail to see,
That in your life it was always me.

The most important day in
My life you fail to come through
You decided to let me fall.
The time I needed you most
You hit ignore and didn’t
Answer my call
.I sat there in that corner,
And cried tears of pain.
As all the trouble and hurt
I held on to started to
Drive me insane.
  
And I waited as long as I could
To hear someone say
"Hold on, wait I'll be there"
But no one showed and
It hurt more to see no one care.
You were so *******
In your selfish acts
Or too tired you proclaimed
To leave your bed
  
And I was all alone
As thoughts raced
Through my head
And before me laid
Many options: pills, rope,
A gun, a knife.
Trying to find the quickest
Way to end this pain
I called life
  
So now it’s over
It’s done, and
Everyone asks why?
But she seemed so happy
I never seen her cry
But I did, you just
Never took the time to see
Time to realize the obvious
You over looked in me
  
So if anyone out there
Can hear me
Will you truly listen
Will you remember
Take the time so this
Doesn't happen again?
Will you remember to at
Least call or text or stop
By or just drop in
Take a moment to check
On your family and friends
Don’t just say you're thankful
For people in your life
But can’t recall the
Last time you came in contact
A life is something easily taken
That you can’t give back.

This Christmas season will
Bring something new
Memories of an old friend
Kind and loving like you
Another year has gone
And finally come to an end
It’s a long story; of all the
Places we’ve been

It’s wonderful to have
These memories in mind
Just thinking about old times
Remember how the snow
Would fall for days
And the cups of eggnog we
Would always crave?

The fresh smell of pine and
Colored ornaments hanging
From the tree
Brought close friendship
For you and me
Memories are photographs
That will always last
They are of the present
The future and the past

I will always keep these
Memories in my mind
And we will bring them up again
Another year, and another time

Broken in life we
Search for a path
And hope that our
Life will always last
But like all  things
Life can often mend
So during this holiday season
I am glad we are friends!

Getting off work late
Round about nine O’clock
Running through the alley
Across from the parking lot
Three feet from my car
Someone grabbed me from behind
One man appeared
In front of me saying;
Don’t scream lady its fine

A strong arm around my neck
I found it hard to breathe
I found myself being dragged
Between two palm trees
Masks covered their eyes
Only their mouth did show
Why is this happening
I only wanted to know

“Please stop, Let me go!”
I don’t want your love
To do this selfish act
You got a lot of nerves.
A five minute pleasure
Turned into a life time of pain
I laid there on the ground
Telling myself I am to blame

All of my sorrow I
Could no longer hide
Dead and ashamed is
What I felt inside
Lying on the ground
I cried many tears
To have someone
Take my love
What else can I feel?

Nothing will ever be
The same
I could never explain
How stolen love
Left me lifeless
And brought about
A change
The whole time they
Stole from me
They thought it was a game

Now I spend most of my
Time looking in the mirror
Hating the person I see
Knowing that along the
Way I am no longer me

I cannot change what they
Stole from me that night
They never had permission
Nor did they have the right
If I had the power to change
One thing in my life;
It would be to skip the pain
That I endured that night

My children came into my
Room one winter afternoon
My daughter softly said
Mama we tried to tell you this
Sometime in the middle of June
We have all decided that we
Have our own life to live
Somewhere down the line
Something had to give

We have decided to take
You to a home and we
Hope you like it there
Nurses around the clock and
People that really care
I can’t began to tell you
What I felt in my heart
Everything I lived for now
Suddenly torn apart

I saw no regret as I
Looked in their face                                                                          
My son said mama learn to like it
Because here you will spend
The rest of your days
They picked me up and tossed
Me around like a rag doll
I could feel the heat inside as
My blood began to boil

Two months in that home
My worst fears came to pass
Orderly slapping me around
While others stood back and laugh
They rolled up a newspaper
And hit me on the head
When I needed to use the bed pan
They laughed and said use your bed
I had no strength in my legs
To carry me to the bathroom
Because of that I laid in
My own waste all afternoon

A young girl came to my room
Carrying my dinner tray                                                                      
She took her gin pouring
It in my tea, and said
Drink and eat hearty today
Where are my children
Must this continue be
What did I do so wrong
For this to happen to me?
I heard about the treatment the
Elderly endure while living in
This place they call home
But I always knew that in my
Heart here I didn't belong

My worst fears in
My whole entire life
Has finally come to pass
I have no more strength
Don’t know how long I will last
There’s nothing I want more
Than to be release from this torment
When I asked my kids to get me out
It turned into an argument
My children said they couldn't
Care for me they rather be alone                                                                  
And that I should try to get
Use to my brand new home

They have children and what
Goes around will come around
As they will plainly see
And they will someday regret
What they didn't have to do to me
I am going to see my Lord
He won’t let this go on
Soon I will be from earth bound
Settling in my Heavenly home
When I see Jesus it will be
Worth the suffering and the pain
My worst fears will have died
And eternal happiness I will gain

You have a great loss that
Seems to bring you down
I am sorry it hurt so much
And I couldn’t be around
I know that he loved you
No matter what the cost
It’s been a long ride
And I am sorry for your loss

He took a great part with him
The morning he slipped away
Joy will return to your life
This I always pray
When you fall asleep at night
His visions fill your head
And tears flow silently
As you lay there in your bed

It’s a sad time for you as
You think on this great loss
Remember Jesus feels your pain
The day he paid the cost
I know you feel empty
Like there is no tomorrow
I will help you bear your pain
And help you share your sorrow

Tomorrow is a new day
It shines bright as the stars above
Remember the joy he gave you
And never forget his love
Jesus love will always cover you
Like a winter’s frost
Take care my dear friend
And I'm sorry for your loss

Sometimes you think in life
That the end beats the beginning
And you look for your life
To have that fairy tale ending
You look at other people and
Say; you got success and
Tears fall down because your
Life seems like a mess

You fought many battles
But the war lies ahead
You should control your life
But your life controls you instead
Recording of negative thoughts
Play over and over in your head
When you should be sleeping
You toss and turn in your bed

If someone would care about
How you feel inside
The pain it brings when all
They have to offer is lies
There’s this numb feeling when
You find yourself alone
The hurt twist your head
And your joy somehow has gone

You take a deep breath and
And try to count to seven
As you push through the anger
Trying hard to reach heaven
Just one little word you try
Hard to whisper in prayer
If God would only answer
You know that he’s there

Struggling in this life to
Do that which is good
What you know is best and
What you thought you could
No one ever told you that
This life would be fair
No one ever told you that
The world would care

Now it’s your time to
Build high upon faith
Believing you is somebody
With the keys to the gate
Which is your life that you
Fight to keep straight
Built upon love and a
Long way from hate
Think about this the next time
You feel sorry for yourself
Life becomes dusty when
You leave it on the shelf.

I hope this Christmas find you
As happy as can be
I pray your life is filled with blessings
As you receive best wishes from me
I hope that this day will bring
You closer in love
And may you feel the Christmas spirit
As it spread throughout the world
May your friends and family see
How special you really are
And may you get your wishes as you
Wish upon a star
I hope that you feel the love I
Share with you in my heart
True friendship is one that can
Never be torn apart
You are a special person and
To this I am a witness
From my heart now and always
I wish you a Merry Christmas

Just to hear the word
Make me shake in my soul
It’s no picnic there
I am often told.
It is a lake that burn with
Brimstone and fire
If God say it is there
Then you know it’s not a lie.
  
Just imagine being in that offer
Place they call hell
There is no time out
They won’t even ring the bell.
Fire is going to burn you
So what can you do?
If there is water there
I bet you; it is hot too.
  
There is no cool side
From one place to the other
I wouldn't wish this on
None of my brothers
They say you will hear screams
And people crying for help
I am afraid to go there
I only speak for myself.
Hell is a place that we should
Try to escape
It’s not up for review, nor up
For debate.
Hell is a place you cannot
Talk your way through
Whether you believe this
It’s strictly up to you.

Things go wrong in our life
And we know that they will
We find our self-struggling
Climbing steep hills
When we find our-self low
Reaching for the sky
Afraid to smile
Because we have to sigh

The cares of the world
Pressing us down
The mountain gets
Higher round by round
Life amazes us with all
Its twists and its turns
There’s a higher power
We seems to learn

We try so hard in life
To just stick it out
The burden gets heavy
And we often doubt
Sometimes we often wonder
What is and what ain’t
Not knowing that our victory
Is closer than we think
Faith and failure
Walks hand in hand
The little things in life
We find hard to understand

Trouble seems to find you
No matter where you go
And you find your-self sinking
Much deeper than before
You count the time of rescue
Every second in the hour
And now the day
Seems brighter, Thanks
To a Higher Power
There’s a lesson we must learn
When things turn inside out
Trust in the higher power,
And just stick it out!

I am the reason people
Lie to one another
Hatred, jealous, and envy
Toward their brother
I will make you cry
Don’t care how you feel
And if you are not careful
Your very life I will steal
My name is what, and
Who you think it is
I am the big dog
The one and only thrill

I am known to cause
Confusion on the spot
I been chased many times
But never ever caught
I’ll make you do what
You never thought you could
I am bad, I rule this hood                                                                            
Don’t take me lightly or
Say what I wouldn't do
Anything is possible when
I choose to do it to you

All this time and you still
Know not my name?
When bad things happen to you
Tell me who do you blame?
My job is to keep all of you
From reaching Heaven
I bet you know me now
My name is the devil
I cause wars and fights
In every single town
I stick out like a sore thumb
I am easy to be found

When a person pulls a trigger
And takes someone’s life
I made them do it;
I brought hatred in their sight
I told you to leave your wife
And your husband as well
You love what I offer you
I make great sells

It’s easy to plant a seed
In most people head
Some people is easy
Prey to be led
Once you open up and
Let me inside
You will repeat all kind
Of jokes and lies
I love it when people let
Me have my way
I dance you like a
Puppet on a string
And there’s nothing
You can say

My name is, and always
Will be
Mr. devil to you
Hey! That’s me                                                                                          
I am cunning, and come
In so many forms
If you are not a child of God
My spirit you fail to learn

I am a peace breaker
I hate to keep things together
Continue to do what I say
We can spend eternity
In hell together
So the next time you are lonely
And crave to do wrong
Call me on the phone
Or visit my home
I live between purgatory
And the inferno in hell
If you forget my number
You can send me an E-Mail

I am a woman,
I respect myself
I am only me,
And no one else
I cry, I hurt, and
I can even love
I am beautiful, unique,
An extraordinary girl

I am brave, honest,
Cute,, and kind
Respect is earned
So today its mine
My words are simple
Short and sweet
Even the cloths I wear
Is **** and neat

My walk is slow
Seasoned with Grace
You can tell from my
Talk I have good taste
Gentle and delight
I bow with ease
A Virtuous woman
Easy to please
I need respect as
A part of me
It’s something that’s
Earned, not given free

I am young and special,
An extraordinary girl
I demand respect, and
A place in this world
When I look in the mirror
I see all I can be
I am respect; kind, graceful
And free

Tonight is tonight that I
Find out where I stand
I’m nervous, shaking
Trembling in my hand
You kept telling me that between
Us things would get better
If this being the case
Explain these pieces of a letter

I found it on your night stand
Next to your bed
When I read it, it gave
Me a pain in my head
This guy said that with you
He had a good time
He made it sound ****
And tried to rhyme

As I read these pieces
Of a letter
It hurt inside
Because I knew deep down
To me you had lied
You made me feel alive
And always charmed
I have always kept you safe
And secure from harm.

It’s hurting me inside to think
Of you and him as being a pair
And the running of his
Fingers through your hair
When we were walking
Barefoot through the sand
You could have told me
You had another man

When you tore up the letter
And left it by your bed
Did you do it to play me
And mess with my head?
My love for you goes deeper
Than the bottom of the sea
Now your lies and letter
Have all but destroyed me

Did you plan these pieces of
A letter so I could see
That all your life you
Wanted to be free?
I guess it’s over and
Nothing left to say
I guess I’ll move on and
Lick my wounds another day
You hurt me real bad, and
These tears I cannot hide
But at least I know now
How you really feel inside

Prayer is the key to
Getting the job done
Through our prayers
Miracles are formed
When you pray
Always be prepared
Things will happen
Through spiritual prayers

Things will come upon us
And we know that they will
Tell God all about it
Just tell him how you feel
Meditate in your mind
And be persistence in prayer
God is only a call away
He is always there

Even though the eyes
Cannot see God;
He’s in the morning air
Whenever you need him
You can reach him
Through prayer

Pray for your family
Pray for your friends
Pray to be establish
Until the very end
Prayer is an honorable way
To stay in touch with God
Through this line of faith
God will answer from the heart

Prayer is a powerful weapon
Nothing else can match
It brings down the highest mountain
Now what you think of that?
Be careful what you ask
Be careful what you say
Because all things are possible
When you bend your knees
And PRAY.

Setting on the sofa watching
A little TV
Things not in order
The way they should be
Combing my hair with one hand
And the remote in the other
A bake potato sat on the end table
With a little sour cream and butter
With everything that’s going on in life
Maybe I should be in pain
But tonight my heart smiles
So in life there is no rain

Looking at a photo taking
Many years ago
Feeling the exact same as I did
All those years ago
I have a heart that smile no matter what
I act lady like at times and
On occasions I act like a nut
Even when the sun stops shinning
And trouble stacks in piles
I will continue to reach new heights
Because of the heart that smiles

Even though the storm may rise
And water fills my eyes
It doesn’t stop the rhythm of this
Old heart that smile
Sometimes when you are going through
There’s nothing good you can hear
Place your hand on your chest
And you will feel your heart there
With every beat that you feel it’s
Giving you a message
Saying even though you are going through
A smile the heart expresses

A tender gentle breeze that blows
In the air
A warm fuzzy feeling that explodes everywhere
Boldly it tells us what and who to trust
Some are strong unbreakable and tough
Even in danger, afraid but yet smiles
The heart is remarkable traveling
Between space, time, and miles
This is what I think while setting here tonight
And a deep part of me know that it’s right
The heart is what judges us in life
It’s what God sees through his sight

It can let go of things you never thought
You had
It can make you feel good or condemn
You to feeling bad
Nevertheless; I can conquer the saddest troubles
And make it all worthwhile
Simple because God has given me a heart
That smile

He took me for a ride one day
To get away from home
What started out as having
Fun, left me all alone
I wondered why a right turn,
Turned into a left
Where are we going, I
Suddenly ask myself?

Snow fell on the ground, and
Ice hung from the tree
There was a painful look in
His eyes, as they
Suddenly focus on me.
In the middle of nowhere
Forest and the weeds
I knew from the start
A tangled web was weaved

Forced out of the car
For no reason at all
Crying, begging, as the
Grass broke my fall
Lying on the ground, cold
And scared to death
Terror took my voice as
I tried to call for help

He left me in a place I
Never had to be
All this time I thought
The man loved me
The long road back turned
Day into night
I couldn’t find my way out
So I gave up on life

I fell to the ground covered
With ice and snow
Why he left me here I
Really fail to know
I remember closing my eyes
And hearing strange sounds
Shadows of fear covered
Me as I laid there
On the ground

When I open my eyes
I were lying in bed
Frozen from my waist down
With a cut on my head
Hunters found me there
That night in the nick of time
My boyfriend got arrested
For this indecent crime
It’s a long road back
To finding my life
But I will always remember
What I went through that
NIGHT!

May God bless you and
Your family today
Lord let them be blessed
With the words that I say
Lord fill them with joy
And happiness to
Lord let them prosper
In everything they do

Lord let this family know
That they have a friend
Someone that is specials
And will love them till the end
Let them be happy and
Know that you are there
Let them be heal with
This Christmas prayer

Lord let this family be
Filled with so much cheer
And Lord you bless them
Throughout the year

Love is like a little blossom
Unfolding by the hour
Mixed with warmth, secret desire
And awesome burning power
A little bit tingled with
Butterflies in your stomach
Heart beating fast
Something is definitely forming

Eyes glossed with a color that’s
Very seldom seen
Makes a man feel like a king
And a woman feels like a queen  
Love is like the fragrance of
The best perfume money can buy
It conquers the hardest heart
And never says good bye

Love is like the glue that
Holds together a letter
It mends, it holds, it
Really doesn’t matter  
It sticks to the inside and
Can’t be pulled apart
It’s not in the mind but
Sealed deep in the heart
Love is the healing that
Most of us needs
Without love on our side
How many relationships
Rarely ever succeeds?

In the beginning; God created
The heaven and the earth
He said let us make man
And he loved him so much
God made the garden
And let man live there
He gave him a wife
To show that he care

In the beginning; God
Call the light day,
And the dark night
He breathe into a man
And gave him life
God made two great lights
One rule by day,
And one by night
He smile at his creation
For this is good in his sight

In the beginning; with
His work, he was please
Adam took a wife, and
He named her Eve
Eve bared two sons
And they were brothers
One became raged
And killed the other

In the beginning; God
Made this world
He formed it with his hand
With so much love
To redeem us from sin
His son he did give;
Because of the beginning;
Through Christ we yet live!

Lying on the bed
Crying for help
The only other option
Is a slow painless death
She picks up the telephone
Talking to a friend
My life is useless
It somehow must end

There’s no joy in
Her soul today
Visions of suicide in
Her head do play
When she needed someone
To just be there
They turned their backs
They just didn’t care

She went into the bathroom
And looked into the mirror
Heart broken, lonely,
Sad and teary
No one would answer her
When she calls
No, not a soul,
Not anyone at all

She held up her arms and
Said, my life is a twist
Seconds later she
Cut both her wrists.
Laying on the floor
In a puddle of blood
Crying, and sad because
No one gave her love

While slowly closing her eyes
One more time she cried;
It’s over for me now
No more hurt inside
Before she planned
This selfish act
She wrote a note
And explained the facts

The note said I’m leaving
Not that anyone care
When I needed you the most
You were never there
You can’t find my life
Because Now I am free
No one ever cared what
Happened to me
I don’t have to hear
Or put up with lies
No one made me do this
It’s a planned suicide!!!!!!!

I woke up this morning with my life in so much despair
I couldn't find my joy and my peace wasn't anywhere
So many things happening and going on in this world
It keeps me on my knees praying to my father above
Hatred on the rise, strange thing happening everywhere
You see things in life that you never seen before
Things that was long hid coming from behind closed doors
It makes me afraid because I don’t know what I’ll face next
I don’t know what’s coming my way or what to even expect

I don’t know what tomorrow may suddenly bring
Will it be sunshine or could it be a great change
I consider it a blessing just to see another day
Happiness fills my soul when sunshine comes my way
I wonder many times about the dreams in my head
Are they trying to tell me something, or am I misled
What is the answer to what’s going on in this world?
What happen to the joy, what happen to the love
I try to be uplifted in spirit wherever I may go
Will I ever find strength; Lord I just want to know

Maybe there is a reason why life is so tough
Why the hill is hard to climb and the mountains so rough
This is a pressing way just in life to survive
It’s a struggle to lay down at night and the next day to rise
I know where I come from but not where I am going
Life is always a lesson that’s too hard to learn
I can’t live the future by holding onto my past
I can’t shed tears without expecting to laugh
I don’t know if the life I live is only a test
Even I fail sometimes when I try to do my best
Since I don’t know much about these things
And the future is further than my eyes can see
Taking one day at a time will always be enough for me.