This rap and Poetry thing makes no sense
Y'all like something I wrote
But if I write something that I cope
Then try to make it sound dope
I'm trying too hard
Give up
I'm not getting that far
Gasp for air when I spit fast
Staying up for days when I get mad
Can't be around when I get sad
At the time I had a fragile bubble
Cause when you pop it
I black out waking up founding out i'm in such trouble
Phone ring
Hearing my parents say i'm on the double
So as they Push the throttle
I Grab the bottle
Acting like a i'm drunk when i'm stuck in sorrow  
But I realize that the bottles empty
Where did it go
Did I drink it swiftly
How many cells did I **** up in me
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The world that I see man its gone and vanish
Woke up in this land with no eyes attended
I don't wanna speak cause I'm so offended
Hearing people walking trying dis my sentence
So I cut my ears made me fully senseless
Cause next it was my tongue and nerves
Do finally get this?
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No feeling

I ask questions
I can mind my business
My nose has strong sent
That doesn't mean I have to hunt for realist
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Some people make the realist prohibit
So models are manikins now
The category of the fakest description
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Checking phones
To see who's on
Hiding things from people who try to stay for very long
Never spoke words of it
Until they dead and gone
Hearing heart beat going slow
Like its a controlled metronome
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I mean
Getting stab by a friend
Now a days seems cool
Even getting shot
And to live you had to hide
So i hid in water
And start drowning in a pool
Not knowing what to do
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Every step I take makes wonder if I can trust you too

I'm sitting in this noisy chair
Thinking why silence is my violence to my biggest fear
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And my goodest friend
So I don't mind if it reappear
I threw the Gen
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Cause I want to remember everything I dealt with
Better yet
Took it and accept it
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Understand better
My moves to situations became clever
Then why I'm still the one to lose
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I guess I'm use to it
Want it to stop
It can't be conclued
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Cause the things we focus on leave us looking weak and stupid
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My darkestness
In the room

I got people that could be apart of me
Just structure your liver and artery
I don't want to be crazy
I got to be
Similar vision?
I gotta see
Out of me
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Just to get a different picture
Never change a rapper channel
Cause when they started spitting
They spitting to different meaning
Specifically what you reading
This is my way of feeding
My little brother who stay dreaming
Letting go of people who had me drinking lean
Straight leaning
I can't believe I haven't died
Cause of the way I've been sleeping
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Headphones cords around my neck cause I love music
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That USB cord
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My meaning of U Simpaly Basic
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No one can judge
Especially me
Cause I sleep up in the basement
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The concrete can be colder than my heart
Or hotter than my hottest part
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That's why I got a studio
And a slash movie show
So the flames can bring smoke more than a hooka bro
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When y'all gone stop looking down at me
I already passed the human growth

Freestyle
never be writing
I always be typing
we not controlled but we remotely dividing
Wait
If you ever see me be crying
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Then I  
Put stitches through my broken mirror
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Filled the cracked
I lit the match
The match is bright
Just so you can see me clearer
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The anger me
Man its kinda scary
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I hurt myself
I ask myself for help
Welp
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It kinda seems that im self centered
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I'm a sinner sinning

My heart is pounding
I'm lost
So good luck finding what I found
Muscle and tissue I wish I can tear it
Cause how I hustle pound after pound
Brain and lyrics
The lyrical rthyme is coming out my hair
My problem is just that I cant scream that loud
No wonder why I didn't see my father so proud
Basically
Not at all
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Out of four years separated
My brain became less educated
To be educated
Though i was motivated
To paint a picture to my brother head of better placing  
But to teach my little brother
Don't he need the education??
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Okay then
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Good house to Grandma house
You talk smack, you get smacked out
Is what I was raised in
My inner talents is what help me cave in
Mostly everything you try to put a page in
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I guess i'm talking to a mirror
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Reflections can't help me reflect on how everything seem bitter
Knowing everyone has a taste of demons and sinners
You sinner beginners
Making me think on how I went crazy
For my squad and my best friend Sadie
Like I'm over a hundred and thirty Hades  
From a kind heart that was known to be a kidder
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All in my mind was reality
I remember

Can you be a mirror for a second
As I stand here telling my message
Do you determine hell
As heaven
When you holding a weapon
Your living is failing
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OH
You finally wondering just what i'm telling
You reading and finally feeling just what i'm spelling
The beatings that I had from people had stop the swelling
Until I woke and became the realist shhh you ever smelling
That a shame
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Cause i'm not J cole
Not Kendrick
Not Logic
Not even Tech 9ne when he spit slow
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See my point