Jasmin: Poems

Aug 2021 · 102

famous

Jasmin Aug 2021

famous

I want to be famous,
I want everybody to know me,
I want that everybody likes me,
I want that everybody wants to be with me,
cause I'm tired,
I'm tired of being the no one.

Aug 2021 · 95

again

Jasmin Aug 2021

again

It hurts, it really does,
but I will ignore it
I will keep living and laughing and talking
until I mean it again.
because I know, I just know
I deserve so much better

Aug 2021 · 241

why

Jasmin Aug 2021

why

I hate that I care
I hate that I love so ******' easily
And I hate that they just don't
they never do.
but the minute I don't...they do.

Jan 2021 · 95

how

Jasmin Jan 2021

how

it's crazy
how you're my only thought,
how my heart never truly beat until the first time I saw you smile at me
how every dream I have I build about you,
how everything I think about, is you.

how is it possible to love someone this dearly,
how is it possible that you're my world, without you even knowing.

Apr 2020 · 120

one love

Jasmin Apr 2020

one love

I'm comparing everyone with you,
I'm trying to find similarities in them
just to be able to feel again,
but not just anything,
I want that kind of love I felt while I was with you.

It almost feels like, no one is ever gonna be good enough
or even able to get near enough to touch the wall around my heart.

maybe you were my one true love,
the kind I will never find again.

Apr 2020 · 110

like a shadow

Jasmin Apr 2020

like a shadow

someone attached to me
not leaving my side
might sound creepy as hell but...
knowing you are always there is kind of
reassuring

even if I'm not able to see you all the time,
the knowing of you sticking by my side no matter what?
it gives me power and strength
and with that...
I can fully be myself

Mar 2020 · 95

beauty

Jasmin Mar 2020

beauty

she taught me that a women should be beautiful,
to look beautiful you should look like her...

I never did..

now it's done, I can't see,
I can't see the beauty of me.

Mar 2020 · 106

giving up

Jasmin Mar 2020

giving up

be strong they say,
it'll always turn out right they say,
but I'm never good enough..
I'm trying so hard
so so hard
but why?
It's never just never ******* good enough.

maybe it is time to just give up

Feb 2020 · 101

happiness

Jasmin Feb 2020

happiness

freckles on that beautiful smiling face,
the sunlight gently touching your face,
a field full of sunflowers.

a total cliche, right?

...but somehow I'm finally able to understand that vision.

Jan 2020 · 110

love

Jasmin Jan 2020

love

that stupid smile I always have on,
the urge to bite on my lip,
the heat rising to my face,
my, who thought I could look so obviously in love.

Jan 2020 · 91

broken me

Jasmin Jan 2020

broken me

you said you didn't see it,
you said you didn't mean it,
but you left me,
knowing any word from you would heal me.

saying you were a coward back then,
saying you are a better man now,
but I'm done.

cause I will never forget 'back then',
I will never be able to forget that pain,
yeah that pain..

Jan 2020 · 100

heartache

Jasmin Jan 2020

heartache

always expecting you,
but never wanting you.

always dealing with you,
but never really wanting to do so.

always feeling you inside me,
but never really telling anyone.

now you're someone special,
knowing the sorrow,
knowing the pain,
I know you, friend.

Jan 2020 · 91

hope

Jasmin Jan 2020

hope

do you believe?
it's like magic,
you can't enjoy,
you can't be impressed,
if you don't believe.

leave the doubts and thoughts behind,
just let yourself go from time to time,
and just believe,
believe in the impossible,
believe in the goodness,
believe in the unbelievable.

that's when you'll have a little peace of happiness back,
like the happiness of the days of our childhood,
full of hope.

Jan 2020 · 95

precious one

Jasmin Jan 2020

precious one

I build a fence around you,
so you're not able to be with anyone but me,
wanting to keep you all to myself,
not able to leave me,
not able to break me.

but I needed to let you go,
but if you were still going to choose me,
yeah, that's probably the kind of happiness I always wanted to see.

Jan 2020 · 93

drowning love

Jasmin Jan 2020

drowning love

you're like that swinging thing a hypnotist uses
it has my whole attention

if I'm not your everything too
does that mean to let you go?

but me suffering?
and you drowning in it?
me, not wanting to drown alone..
me, just letting you drown too?
selfish right?
just not to be alone

but being the hero
nice in the eyes of others
not changing the fact tho,
that I still don't get the air to breath too

is it fair?

not able to let go
but confused holding on
is it love?
maybe just wanting someone to be..
him to be..
the person who saves only me?

but why him?
is it love tho?
or that rescue
me unable to let go now?
like a lifebelt
me, not believing not to drown, without it

like a kid
drowning
but now it's supposed to be okay?
but letting go..
this uneasy
this unsure
this unknown feeling
is it good?
wasn't it better having it?
being secure anytime?
no wave able to let you drown again
what if I don't survive this time?
but what if I do?
will it make me happy?
everyone says so..
but I don't know how it can be..

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