For Rayne.
I promise to make you proud.
I solemnly swear I will be the best big sister I can be for you.
I never want to bring about a frown to such an innocent, tan face.
Nor would I ever want to transfer negativity to your sacred space.
What I do, I do for you.
Seven years young, and you have the biggest heart of all.
I know you've seen me at my worst,
and you've seen me at my best.
And for you, I keep my head held high and poke out my chest.
You've been there to pick up the pieces.
You've been a shoulder for me to cry on.
You've given me free hugs and kisses.
And you're always one of the first to hear about what guy broke my heart
and on him, you're ready to beat on.
Rayne, you are as pure as the rain falling from the sky.
You are as bright as the sun when it's at its highest.
You are as precious as it gets, and I wouldn't trade you for the world.
Baby sister, one day I want you to hear this.
I want you to know I've told the world how much I love you.
I know I remind you every day,
and I know that it may seem annoying.
But this is something that will never go away.
Baby sister, one day I will give you the world.
And if I don't or if I can't, at least you'll know I tried for you.
Hands down, I will go to the ends of the earth for you.
Devin Rayne, I love you.
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You betrayed me.
As if I did you wrong and you
decided to pull back my arms,
tie my hands behind me, and I had no
choicebut to accept the dagger slowly
approaching my back.
You abandoned me.
I let other guys that I thought were worth
it fill this vacant space in my heart
while you were gone. And no matter how
long they were around, they could never give
me enough. Because of you,
no other man could suffice. No one was enough.
No man could ever compare to you.
We were madly in love and so sure that
we would be each other's always and forever,
but that's old news. I was convinced you were the
one because I've seen the truer side of you.
You even told me that you knew I was, too.
I know you better than anyone else.
No one can break you down the way that I do.
Searching for flaws but there were none to be found,
and now that has changed.
I have unveiled a monster that I
thought I would never see.
I was convinced you weren't too good to be true.
So as the dagger is nearing and I am
preparing for this pain I am forced to endure,
you tell me that you love, that you always will.
You tell me that I'm special and to never forget it.
But you're taking life away from the only one you'd go to war for.
So as your words cut deeper and my emotions are strained,
I try to remind myself of every moment we shared.
Maybe that will take away the pain.
It worked before.
Maybe I'm insane.
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