Lying there
awake this night
when all things
make sense
in spite
of all the things
that went wrong
with us.
Know that I love you
know this that I need you.
I wish you would
looking to my heart
and find what you seek

I wish that there weren’t always
toys upon my floor
or washing evermore
or someone at the door

I wish that when I turned my
head I didn’t smell
the faintest little tell
of spew on my lapel

I wish that every time I
Sat myself to eat
I had myself a seat
Without the extra feet.

I sometimes wish to flee
Just close my eyes and be
Too far away to see
where there is only me

Then while my daydreams plan
I see her smiling and
I only wish that I could be
exactly where I am.

Never disown hope
In the swallow of storms
Give up the recitation
Of all previous forms

I was an affirmation
Firm in someone’s grip
Hidden under doorways
Now I’m about slip

Reminders of destitution
Reaching for solutions

Running the prestidigitation
Trying to solve my situation

Never disown hope
In the swallow of storms
Give up the recitation
Of all previous forms

Give the revolution
Take your hands from the die.
I never give up.
One must see the sky
I captured the vision.
A new world inside my eye

I can feel your presence,
I can feel your touch,
As I close my eyes to the darkness,
I can feel your warm breath softly brush,
It swathes my being,
It engulfs my soul,
Lost in an abyss of pleasure,
Desires of the flesh have taken control,
Nothing is sacred, nothing is taboo,
Lust is the power, the wisdom and the fool.

it doesn’t take a genius to understand grammar
“i before e, except after c”
to know the difference between
a comma
and a semicolon
but words in parentheses should not count.

books
letters
poems
songs
parentheses parentheses

used to explain something
an after thought
an “i didn’t think of this before
but i have now.”
and words in parentheses really should not count.

it does take a genius to understand people
or more specifically you
and why you did it.
(i love you)
(i’m doing this for you)
(i’m cleaning up)
(i’m better now)
words in parentheses just should not count.

I feel wierd
letting you know
how much i care,
or the fact that i-
miss you more than anything
and i wish i were there.

Its different how i trust you
no matter how far
you are
and funny
how i still think of you
when i see a shooting star.
Maybe its better
not seeing you all the time
Maybe ill appreciate you more
and you;ll always be on my mind

Its so hard missing you
as much as i do
so sad that i cant kis or hold you

I want to cry until-
my tears form a river
that will lead me to you....

I've seen the dismay of horror as she slowly drifte away.
I've felt the pain and anguish as her eye's went blank
I saw the pain and stood by and laughed
I heard her cry's for help but pretended i was deaf
I watched her fall in love  with him  i saw his love for her
I lost it all for them and gained nothing in return