I feel like I'm sleeping.
Never awake to handle the shock
Just riding with the flow,
Seems to never slow

Its like there's a substance
I have yet to encounter
If I go on without it
I might not survive.

Even the feeling of missing
something so important to human life,
makes me feel So full
, why? ...I don't know

I cant live with you
But without you
I will die violently
If you don't stay

Its the addiction
I know not of
The heroine to
my system of needing

Annihilate my insides
Twist my thoughts
Killing me slowly
You never hint a clue.

My heartbeat slows
my head starts to spin
I lose my speach
and cant find my legs

You make me dependant
Honing down on my thoughts
Consciousness is gone
Now Its up to you

You have the choice
pull the plug
or keep me alive
Just heads or tails to you

You act like you need me
you even say you do
But love? I feel none
Just the want of it.

You pull Me in close
only for one thing
casting me aside
Once you get what you want

Just like the rest
It feels like you are
They say you are but
You insist not

I try to decipher
who to believe
But I can't
You stole the ability

Do this and do that
Notes of discomfort
**** me slowly
Because of your problems

At times I am scared
Of what you may do
I walk on glass egg shells
Trying to please you

One day it may click
that I will want more
But until I get there
Your keeping score.

We fight and we scream
worry about all
there is no love
Only a lack there of

It ***** all alone
with no one beside
You keep to yourself
leaving me blind

So bring the consciousness
Don't just leave me
wake me up
before I die

I want us to live
I want a family
So keep me to love
Not to neglect.