I do still love you,
you crazy fool. For all your
lies were not enough.

I watch as the only person who has ever truly known me
slowly, painfully closes down piece by shattered piece

Her true self slowly disappearing over the days that followed that tragic afternoon

Brown eyes sunken and swollen
full of suppressed tears just begging to fall

A heart once open
clamping down and beating only for the need to live
while she ponders why she should even bother

She hides her pain from everyone
but mostly from herself

It hovers under the surface
waiting for its chance to overwhelm

Full of smiles
she laughs while her heart is breaking

Until one day she whispers
"I'll never be the same."

And in my heart I know she's right
nothing will ever be as it was

My little box of empty dreams is filling up too fast
The more I put away for later
the less this feeling lasts

My story is but naught at all
from the world so swift
I collapse into the fall
searching for that upper-lift

I wish I knew the color-scheme for a tale of gold
You think the answer wouldn’t be
quite so very bold

My eye will twitch as I swallow down
the pills that stifle me
I don’t make a sound
but I’ve yet to be let free

This is degrading.
The names you shout destroy me.
Stop holding me back.

The battle cry fades
for our wasted memory
no longer remains

The point of the blade
is really just a statement;
a weak one at that

Can you see me in this light?
Can you tell I'm here?
How do I look?

Can you tell who I am today?

My personality changes and I'm never the same
I'll brush right past you and never look back
You'll be left in tears by words I leave unsaid

Have you guessed who I am today?

I like to take orders and have people tell me what to do
I am weak and can never think for myself

See who I am yet?

I hide myself behind people and never speak my mind
I nod my head and agree to anything they say
I'm never a leader and always a follower
I flourish in darkness and hide from the light
Shadows are my friends and I tend to cower in them

Can you guess now?
Have you seen who I am today?

I've made it easy for you to see
I've given you so many clues
I think it's plain to see
So obvious
that today I'm being you

So this is the word you felt you had to write
This is the word you want etched on my skin
A badge to declare to the entire world
That I am The Number One *****

You've marked my mind
When you wish it was my body
Some how you feel I deserve this crime

Your wish was to wound me
To make tears flow
But your ignorance is funny
My smile is all I'll show

Don't ask me why
I want to make you smile
Let your tears dry
At least for awhile

Look at me
And be still
I can make you see
If only you will

Remember your dreams
How they make you feel
Bursting at the seams
Not believing it's all real

Don't be distressed
Just remember
That you are blessed
And you'll always have her

I'd ***** your mind
if I could get my hands on it

Your words are my pornographic video
with no subscription needed

I want you to bury me

When I'm gone and plans are made,
I want that shovel in your hands

Lay my body in its grave and let the earth flow
Add your sweat as well as tears to the soil that will cover me

Take your time
No need to rush
I think I deserve just that much

How does it feel to be over me now?
Come on, baby, tell me how