Defiled innocents lay stranded
We sleep with heavy limbs
Undisturbed by disturbing dreams

Love costs too much
We are too poor and broken
to pay its price

Scattered ashes take place of roses
where we step
No one moves to save us
Large eyes watch on as we scream

Stolen prayers are sent up
As we stare down
Always cupping our hands
Wanting more
Never earning what we seek

There is no middle ground
We walk unsteadily
And fall as often as we can
No one helps us up
We cry silent tears
No one cares

When did we lose that innocence?

His mouth was sickly twisted in an eternal smile
His upper limbs were disgustingly vile;
all torn up and lifeless
Just hanging about,
like two drunken men passed out

His upper torso was bare for all to see
It was misshapen and cut in slices from left to right
As if in punishment for some ill gotten deed

His eyes were open, looking about
Taking in his surroundings with an unforgetting gaze
His feet were crushed together in a strange way
His legs were covered by the maggots of death
that wriggled about him feasting on his flesh

He lay there were I had left him
In his eternal sleep
For I killed him, happily
Releasing my anguish on his youthful soul
As I look at him now
I can only, laughingly, think one thing:
What a morbid scene

I watch as the only person who has ever truly known me
slowly, painfully closes down piece by shattered piece

Her true self slowly disappearing over the days that followed that tragic afternoon

Brown eyes sunken and swollen
full of suppressed tears just begging to fall

A heart once open
clamping down and beating only for the need to live
while she ponders why she should even bother

She hides her pain from everyone
but mostly from herself

It hovers under the surface
waiting for its chance to overwhelm

Full of smiles
she laughs while her heart is breaking

Until one day she whispers
"I'll never be the same."

And in my heart I know she's right
nothing will ever be as it was

i.
Sister won't come out of her room
She just cries and cries all day

Mommy stares at the walls
As if everything's okay

Daddy sets his mouth in a line
The one that means he's mad

Everyone is so upset
I wish I knew what was wrong

ii.
I heard my father growling
That some "punk" was gonna die

My mother whispered softly
That my sister was a fool
She never should have left that night
And broken all the rules

Sister told me not to worry
While tears came pouring down
She told me boys weren't always nice
Especially the ones downtown

iii.
I wish I was old enough to know
Exactly what went on
But I think that if I really knew
I'd be going, going
                    Gone

I only love you enough to get me through
When the nights are too long
or cold
or there's nothing else to do

I love you when no one is looking
and even more so
when it's just me and you

I'll call you up late and whisper
all the little things that I know make you stay
And every time you try to escape
I'm able to pull you back in
with a little white lie
that fills me with dread
and makes me feel just that less complete

But I love you enough
to get me through
Though I'll never love you enough
to suit you

March me into madness
and steal my soul
I'd gladly offer it up
to ease your boredom

Grab at my earlobe and make me listen
A little force is always needed
There's no fun without a little blood
Make me beg you to get away
Then take my life as I let it go

I'm beginning to despise the words
I'm sorry
They hold no meaning
once you've said them more than twenty times an hour

The tears are getting old
as they salt your shining face
Glistening like pearls
Falling in perfect balance
It couldn't have been more rehearsed

Your words would mean more to me
if they hadn't changed so much
Which story will you tell me now?
The one where you are to blame
or is it her today?

Come on, tell me the truth
For a few moments there you forgot
Forgot about the promises we made
Forgot the love you claim is mine alone
Forgot that we had made a life together
For just a second, a heartbeat, a lifetime
you forgot about *me