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Leslii Carling Jun 2011
I will let myself cry.
I will let myself sigh.
Sorrow will overcome me.
And my sobs will shake me.

I need this now and then,
I just wish I could predict when.
My doubts and worries creep and creep
And then I sob until I sleep.

My mother wonders what’s gone wrong.
My lover holds me and sings a song.
People try to soothe my doubt
But I just need to cry it out.

It might be hormones, or it could be the heat.
All I know is that the cycle will repeat.
In a month or two I’ll be crying once more,
Shaking and sobbing in a way I deplore.

But the morning’ll come and I’ll crack a smile,
And I’ll be back to normal for a little while.
And then something’ll happen and I’ll feel my eyes sting,
And I’ll turn my face down and curse everything.

I’ll hate the world for a night or two
And I’ll hiccup and sob and feel so blue.
I’ll try to feel good in my own skin,
And I’ll try to keep out of the loony bin.

And then once again, I’ll feel just fine.
For a long while my eyes will shine.
I’ll be happy and confident and I’ll love you all
But in a few months, I’ll have to fall.

Even now my cheeks are wet,
And I’m writing things I might regret.
But tomorrow morning I will wake up
And, still tired, I’ll fill my teacup.

I’ll act as though nothing has changed
Though the night before I acted deranged.
I’ll clean my tearstained pillow case
And I’ll rejoin the human race.

Until it happens one more time.
And then I’ll write a nursery rhyme
as my sorrow overcomes me
and my sobs relentlessly shake me.
Written at two in the morning. I was browsing the internet when I was the victim of harassment due to the fact that I'm a lesbian. I felt like crap afterwards and started crying at every little thing. Then I wrote this and I felt better.
Leslii Carling Apr 2011
I want to hold you and kiss you
And never let you go.
I want to keep you, and protect you,
Just so you know.

I want to make you shiver
And fall apart in my hands.
I want to soothe you when you quiver
And show you great lands.

I want to fall asleep with you in my arms
And I want to kiss you awake.
I want to make you fall for my charms,
Even though I’ll burn the pancakes.

I want to wrap you up in great black wings,
And kiss every inch of your skin.
I want to show you the beauty in things
And have you meet all of my kin.

I want to come home and see you beam,
When all I want to do is cry.
I want to close my eyes and see you in my dream,
And I never, ever want to say goodbye.

I want to get on one knee
And give you a golden ring.
I want to make you feel free
And I want to hear you sing.

I’m so, so in love with you,
I wish I could say it more.
Tell me what I can do,
Don’t let me be a bore.

I give you my sword and my heart,
I give you my armor and wings.
You are a work of art
To be desired by kings.

In the end though, you’re mine
Just as I am yours.
With you I align,
And for you, I’ll fight wars.
Written for the beautiful girl I've fallen so very hard for.

Don't steal.
Leslii Carling Feb 2011
Poems about roads,
poems about ravens,
Poems about monsters,
and poems about roses.

What do they mean? The road is a life,
the raven a regret,
the monster is you
and the rose is-

What.

What happened to this?
Why can't it just be a rose?
A flower with thorns and red petals?

“But the thorns are hardship and-”
No. Don't pretend you understand.
Don't give meaning to the meaningless.
Let the words speak on their own.

Interpret, sure, but don't over-analyze.
Let the words come and flow
unbroken by the lines of a chart,
splitting stanzas and lines into more manageable chunks.

Poetry is an art not meant for a spreadsheet.
Words flow from the heart and the soul,
from the subconscious where meaning is meaningless.

Where poetry remains whole.

I scratch my pen across the page
like a pen scratching across a page,
writing a poem about poetry,
Really.

I write cloud and it means cloud,
I scrawl raven and I mean the bird,
I tap out road, and it refers to the pavement
and when I say rose, I mean rose.

Beauty is not always in complexity,
sometimes it rests in simplicity.
Simplicity of thought and
of interpretation.

When my heart is aching
and I want to cry, how else can that be said?
When I make it an enigma:
crystal drops from earthen orbs

when I say what I want:
I buried my face in my hands
and sobbed.

Both equally beautiful,
both equally poetic
one clearly understood by anyone reading.

Poetry is my art, and I would hate to see it picked apart
like a frog in a biology class.
Each stanza

cut

apart

word by word

and phrase by phrase

to find any hidden meanings therein.

I've hidden nothing.

But don't over-analyze that statement.
Written for my school Poetry Slam, meant to be read aloud.
Leslii Carling Jan 2011
Jaws cracking
eyes watering
inhaling so deep

heavy eyelids
and a drooping head
don't fall asleep

sleep is fickle,
get it where you can
and if you don't have insomnia

BE GLAD.

There are few things worse
than lying awake,
clock blinking, glowing in your eyes.

Your watch beeps,
a bell chimes
3:00 in the morning

again.

You're so awake
you wanna go out
but you can't.

It's too late.
early?
dark.

The cracks in your ceiling
are so fascinating.
The cat at your side is
warm.
purring.

orange.

It should be soothing
should put you to sleep.
But it won't.
Never does.

How long can you go without sleep
before you go mad as a hatter?
Down, down, down the rabbit hole of dreams...

snapped away from the brink.
Damnable sirens!
Damnable insomnia...

Sun's rising. What now?
Get up. Get dressed.
You've a life to live.

Foundation covers the circles under your eyes.
Tea or coffee keeps you running.
Insomnia keeps you awake.

Always has.

Always will.
Written at school when I should have been taking notes on the Depression. All punctuation and capitalization errors are intentional.
Leslii Carling Sep 2010
Standing here
I feel no fear

Head held high
A spark in my eye

The darkness comes
Choking my lungs

Eyes grow dimmer
The sun looses its glimmer

The ground crumbles away
And yet, here I stay

Standing so tall
During the fall

Of the world and the people
As the sky crushes the steeple

The moon and the sun
Go and have fun

The sky falls down
Onto the town

And the children flee
But not me.

I stand here, proud
My voice so loud

As I say to the sky
“And now it’s just you and I.

“I struggle to breathe,
and I feel you seethe,

“Because here I stand,
with blood on my hand,

“and I’m stronger than you
for all that you do.”

And then I died
With only my pride.

But that was enough
Because I was tough
I don't even know...
Leslii Carling Sep 2010
The pain is so distant.
Nothing more than a dull ache.

I feel like I’m watching a movie,
The picture too grainy to make out.

I cant breathe.
Each and every rasp is wet.

I cant see.
My vision blurs and distorts.

I cant speak.
Blood endlessly chokes my voice.

I dont want to feel.
I know there will only be pain.

I block everything out
And I retreat within myself.

I think I fall to my knees.
I’m not sure anymore.

Am I dying?
Am I finally going to die?

Blissful silence.
An endless abyss.

No pain, no cruelty.
No him, no her.

No me.

Close my eyes.

Fade to black.

Roll credits.

*Fin.
I... I don't even remember writing this...
Leslii Carling Sep 2010
In the middle of a crowd,
The surrounding voices far too loud,
I look up and try to see a cloud
But I only face the Shadows

I’m alone in my home
Yet in the mirror, a clone
Her skin as cold as a burial stone
And she’s one of the Shadows

Scarlet, sticky and warm
Brought to the surface by a thorn,
That leaves my skin ragged and torn.
It flows and melds with the Shadows.

I fight to stay alive
Though I know I will not survive
I’ll simply be one of the Hive…
And all around me are the comforting Shadows.

With that realization I die,
And now in peace I can lie.
Never again will I cry
In the warm embrace of the Shadows
I wrote this on my first day of high school. Cheery, ain't it?
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