we wrote ourselves an epilogue
in florescent lights and a corner of a moment. 
you were a hallucination
walking through the automatic doors, 
I wasn't ready for you to be real. 

I never wanted to see this to the end.
we could've forever been seniors
and in and out of love
every other day. 

I wanted to dream up a better ending
or cast us in a lifetime movie,
where I'd apologize
and you might accept it.

I saw you from across the aisle
my hair hadn't been washed in days
and I was tired.
I don't remember what I said.
it doesn't matter.

it was awkward, and worthless
I hope you found what you wanted
because I did.
this is how love dies.
in a ******* target.

take me home
tuck me in bed
promise me
that you'll stick around
until I wake up

I'm burning up
because I had this strange dream
I fell through the cellophane
to a way to get spiritual.
and woke up in my very own bed.

only two hours early for work.

I coughed up the equivalent
of what my lungs must feel like,
every **** day,
especially these days.

I smoked until I knew I was only making it worse
I'm hearing in different shades of pain
from my right ear canal
whenever I swallow.

if I'm going to die from a cold
can't we just please get it over with?

I hate menthol cigarettes with a passion. I swore I'd never eat seafood but I guess I'm going to in a few moments. I was cold until they gave me a blanket. I'm going to sit here and write a bible like jesus christ. are we going to dip into the jack daniels soon? because this wall is cold and it's my birthday tomorrow. this hat isn't mine but I keep it so I stay warm and undiscovered. I have a nagging suspicion you don't exist.  I'll never like metallica, I don't wanna try the salmon. I haven't eaten much today,  I wanna pack the bowl. I've never wanted to have this many people text me daily,  I can't believe I had *** during adventure time. this is the day before I turn 18, my inner lip tastes like ramen salt. here comes the salmon.  it's january now so we'll all freeze to death. except for you. you probably won't freeze to death unless I see you.