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601 · Feb 2012
Insane Remorse
Laurie Fisher Feb 2012
You say your tears are of sorrow
I call that *******
Inside your only hallow.

I called you out,
On your foolish attempts to manipulate
I called you out,
On your ways to keep me malcontent.

You say that frown is the pain you feel
I call that *******
You have no wounds to cut so they can heal.

I called you out,
On the sadness you say you feel
I called you out,
Stop pretending any of this is real!

You make me laugh
When you act as if you’re hurt
Pity party and your guests have arrived
Trivial at best
But I must persist
Let’s all listen
As you whine and moan
No, don’t worry none of this has grown old

Now I’m insane and the laughter is gone
I’m burning hot with the rage I usually keep down
Pity party and the guests have grown weary
As you whine and moan
Yes, begin to worry because this has grown old in a hurry

The remorse settles in
And I fear the hole I dug so far
I let it take over
And the fault is my own
Tore you down to what you call tears
But trust me the guilt has stopped
It’s only the fear
591 · May 2012
Breakin the Laws
Laurie Fisher May 2012
You love my sunny disposition. If it lasts, sometimes it runs away for a rainy day. I call for it, spread those clouds away, but deeper into the sky it dives, away from my mind. The illuminating rays become dark and dismal. Forgive the dark casted upon the shadow of your world. I can only shine until my eyes crack and liquid pours, out of my sockets, out of my veins, pumping hard it labors away. A lonesome flower pops from the dampened dark dirt, a snap of orange, a pop of yellow, a blue like no tomorrow, they break the harsh laws of my sorrow. And like yesteryear my sunny disposition begins to appear. A glorious show, you never quite know, when it will surprise, those cracked eyes are gloss and you see a chick who you thought you’ve lost. Here I stand, and I do command, happiness that will surpass the darkest hours. When the sour comes out and I cry out just know that without you here, the clouds might never disappear. I’ve been drained and though sweat and tears I’ve overcome the pain, within my soul lies a stain and it will remain a scar that will continue to show me how I’ve grown and no one will own the show that I condone. So let it sit still, let it lie, let it be with you and remember why I’ve told you that you are everything to me and no matter how dark I may get, don’t you dare forget my sometimes sunny position and the regret that lies is with me forever and there will always be highs. Highs like you cannot conceive. I will repay the slow and painful delay of what I have brought to the table. I’m back and the fact is that I keep trying and trying to fix what I’ve done and the truth is all I can do is continue my sunny disposition for you.
588 · Nov 2013
One of Them Days
Laurie Fisher Nov 2013
Woke up
Ate breakfast alone, again
Longing and wishing
Dragging though my day
Everything is just okay
Right in the middle of the equator kinda day

Challanges; non-existant
Travels, much too distant
Body, tired and slow from no excitement

Don't want to complain
Just spitting it out
Trying to explain
But hey, everything is just okay
Yeah its one of them days
584 · Apr 2012
A Lone
Laurie Fisher Apr 2012
Loneliness, it blurs the lines of true attraction.
For a moment in time, you’re in the cross hairs of satisfaction.
Loneliness, it’s not too scarce,
It lies within us all, a vital force, tumbles out with a push.

To be lonely, is to be the one and only.
The conspiracy of happiness is what drags us.
But I digress, from the path that I am connecting,
Because, the eyes of the lonely, is not few and far between
It’s translucent, and likely to be seen.
575 · Sep 2012
Within Me
Laurie Fisher Sep 2012
I’ve lost hope each day and now my pocket is empty
Nothing but filth and ash
Breaking her bones breaking my bones
Tearing into grey matter ripping it open destroying it
God is a lie don’t you know
Perhaps that is all I know
Spawn of Satan, he resides in me now
Living my life for me
7:27 now and there’s not a ******* thing to show
Pitiful end of the day
I hang my head low and reside where all the hate must go
Try to shower it off me
Try to scrub the rage away
Try to flush the ugly down the drain
But it up-heaves and splashes into my face
Like acid on my skin
It dissipates into my pores and fades in
565 · Nov 2011
There Is Fear In You
Laurie Fisher Nov 2011
You look at me with that look
Of disfavor of my deviate thoughts
Thinking that I'm just an open book
You’re pulling out all your shots
You’re making all your sly comments
Thinking it goes over my head
Without the knowledge of the contents
When I say what you don't want to hear
Who’s the first person to knock it down?
Strike out the fear
So I'll sit back and try not to care
For the lack thereof creativity is all that you fear.
530 · Dec 2011
It Will End
Laurie Fisher Dec 2011
If the good always has a death
Why crave it
Why sustain what will always fail to exist
The unspeakable The wicked The unsatisfactory
Isn't the mediocre enough
The dear has to be ripped away as well?
520 · Apr 2012
College
Laurie Fisher Apr 2012
My eyes burn
                            crying
                                      reading
                                                  straining

My brain hurts
                             cramming
                                             focusing
                                                           trying

My wrists aches
                            scribbling
                                           pushing
                                                       typing

At the brink, of a snap
Trying not, to step back
Cannot relax, not just yet
One more push, then I can forget.

Let it end swiftly
Let it end now
Let it end so we can finish this show.

All at once
The work begins to pounce
Got to get it done
So I can renounce.
519 · Oct 2011
He's Falling Forever
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
Sadness and torment
Fill your mind
With ideas of slow decent
Bounded by your
Damaged eyes
Its a dreaded meal
That you swallow
Understandable
Your feelings of hallow
My eyes soften as you
Explain this pain
hatred, no desire
I see you flicker
Like a candle
Dripping wax
Hardening around you
Your soul drying out
As you scream in pain
I want only for you
To lay in rest
And close your busy eyes
Burn these thoughts of sadness
Dull them away
Like Grey cloudy days
Suppressed by heavy rain
518 · May 2012
A Flame with no End
Laurie Fisher May 2012
Truth be told he is merely a mirage.
A gift never to be given.
A harsh truth of the world
And yes I have considered what your about to ask
My overwhelming feelings toward him
But let's get back to the task at hand
Life doesn't want it to work.
Well that I can take.
I'm really quite uncertain
If there's something between us
That will cause me to to break
But I digress
He's a beauty that won't hurt me.
Because he won't let me close enough.
507 · Oct 2011
Short and Bitter-Sweet
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
It has ended like a mid-day rain
The clouds have faded into vapor
And the dew dries
Against the wilted leaves
Heavy with polluted water.
500 · Jun 2012
Improv
Laurie Fisher Jun 2012
Discern fantasy from fact
Its difficult enough
To stay intact

Your dreams and desires
Are as equal to mine
But the difference between us
Is the truth that is underline

How I wish it to be true
But the information I am repeating
Is soon to misconstrue

Miles apart
Distance kills my heart
I reach for you
But your too far
And what it leaves is
A scar
491 · Oct 2011
King of the Lands
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
Calling someone fat,
Doesn't make you skinny.

Calling someone ugly,
Doesn't make you pretty.

Calling some one stupid,
Doesn't make you smart.

When your in high school,
You sure learn a lot.

Don't act innocent,
Your just malcontent.

Kicking someone when there down,
Doesn't earn you a crown.

Holding someone's life in your hands,
Doesn't make you king of the lands.
481 · Oct 2011
Who Are You?
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
Crutches are gone
Pain and Angst gather with each glance
Wheres the you to save you
Life is skewed
Abilities foregone
Matter is higher than the mind
Painful thoughts intertwine
A perfect embarrassment
The pavement is vacant
This somebody is a nobody
Primp and proper on paper and face value
It scented with delight and magnificence
Eyes are burned with malice
You wish, take me away from this hellish place
The wrongs won't make a right
Oh **** where is that light
A hot cigarette between your fingers
A chilled beer to your lips
You coerce pain away
And until the light of day
All else is at bay
As eyes open at crease
Peace is at a fast decrease
The day grows strong as you are weakened
To pretend only strengthens your ability to
Defend
Your mind is a killer
A force to be reckoned with
An unshakable legacy
Yet rather than replenish
Its bound to diminish
Without the you to save you
Who are you?
469 · Dec 2012
A Few New Things
Laurie Fisher Dec 2012
Stitched up and tied with a bow.
On my doorstep, it rang.
Sound bountiful in my ears.
Knocking now it wants to get this started.
Tapping in my head continues on.
Pounding in my head it continues on.
Pulsing in my head it, continues on.
On...on...on.
436 · Oct 2011
You and Me
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
Its hard to every think
What has been is now gone
All the plans that we've discussed
Are skewed and forlorn
My surroundings are blurred
By the burning of my tears
Wish it would all vanquish
Wish it would all disappear
Only momentarily does the pain fade away
Because today is the last day
Of you and me

Every song changes meaning
Vehicles make me tear
Every where I'm looking
Reminds me of my aching
Mind wonders constantly
Of what has been and whats to be
Never thought their would be an end
To you and me
417 · Oct 2011
Every
Laurie Fisher Oct 2011
Every time I wake
These feelings always quake
In my head
They start to grow
And I can't stop it anymore.

Everywhere I go
These feelings always show
No I can't hide them anymore
And as you can tell
I'm about to blow.

Every time I speak
My words they hit a peak
They spike and drop
And I can't stop
From feeling like I'm weak.

— The End —