Calling someone fat,
Doesn't make you skinny.

Calling someone ugly,
Doesn't make you pretty.

Calling some one stupid,
Doesn't make you smart.

When your in high school,
You sure learn a lot.

Don't act innocent,
Your just malcontent.

Kicking someone when there down,
Doesn't earn you a crown.

Holding someone's life in your hands,
Doesn't make you king of the lands.

Like a bird in the sky, flying high
Or a fish that swims in the waves of amber
Don't wanna be locked in a chamber
Don't wanna be stuck in a tank; a lower class rank
Don't wanna be held down, told what to do, does anyone happen to feel this way too
Brings a tear to my eyes, my soul full of fears.

I seem to disappear in this dangerous world
stuck in the middle and the fault is my own,
just apart of this life's stepping stones, no one around me, day dreams,
and thoughts of how things could be, but then I'm shaken awake,
and from my mind there embezzled, Try to get away,
but to this life I am glued, its my independence day, it will be pursued!

Failure is Everywhere
Its Everything
And Anything

Can't you feel it
As it creeps around your body
Every situation
Every moment that your living

It ties its adhesive tentacles
Tightly around your neck
Intoxicated by its grip
You sway and stumble

Failure is Watching
Its Waiting
And its Anticipating

Possibility is the killer
Its the force that will destroy me
My worst enemy
Shes looking right at me
I see it and I believe it
and it makes sense
Logical in these weary eyes
Could I step out and concur this world
The answer is definite
The truth; solitary I am bound
Greatness lies within these eyes
Doubt in every mirror
Do it tonight
Conquer this decimate land
But these weary eyes see all angles
Widening and constricting
Disturbing my perceptions
I'll close these eyes
Just for tonight
Over whelmed with the possibility

Every time I wake
These feelings always quake
In my head
They start to grow
And I can't stop it anymore.

Everywhere I go
These feelings always show
No I can't hide them anymore
And as you can tell
I'm about to blow.

Every time I speak
My words they hit a peak
They spike and drop
And I can't stop
From feeling like I'm weak.

Shores of salty sting call upon my most wanted dreams
Beams of sunlight, rich with warmth, dance upon my skin
An aura of comfort peaks, sleepish smiles bloom and it mirrors
It brings about sensations before buried, because of the burn
Possibility was gone and here we stand
On the top of the oceanic land.

The warm waters rush upon my ankles
My knees fall weak, heat sweeps my every nerve
I breathe in deeply; my senses are heightened to highest of limits
I skip back for fear they will flow too high
The sea is pulled in close, I feel its pressure with my toes
Filled with warmth and satisfaction...
They are cooled much too quickly by the undeniable pull of the sea
Where the tide pulls tightly, far away

Anticipation lingers; as you outline my face with your fingers
Rough and cracked, yet so beautifully molded
No god on earth could suppress such a empowering scape
The sunset skims the endless ocean line
Together, the two shimmer and they shine

I heard that he was insane
That his feelings were uncontrollable
I heard he committed suicide
It sounds so incredibly horrible
I heard he was seeing a shrink
I heard he thought he was fine
I heard he told him,
told him he could call anytime
but when he really needed him
He was declined.
I heard his father
he told him to be a man
He told him he couldn’t
and would never understand
I wonder has the guilt
swallowed him whole
I wonder will anything
fill his now empty soul
I heard his girlfriend she said goodbye
she was sick of the whines and all his cries
he said he didn’t need her
he needed no one
but in the end we all know he needed someone
I heard he did it with a gun
I wonder if it hurt
I heard he couldn't take it
All the pain and all the hurt
I heard he had a brother
a mother and a dad
I saw them at the funeral
they were bitter sweetly sad
I wonder does a tiger cry
when a brother loses his life
I wonder can you catch a tiger with a tear in its eye?

You have to take criticism as is.
You can't throw a fit each and every time you get a dose.
If you can't handle it now.
You never will.
You should get congratulated for achievements.
But they're not all for simple achievements.

So your seventeen, and quitting smoking-
                Should you have been in the first place?
So your not pregnant-
                Should it have been a concern?
So you survived your over dose-
                Should you have popped those pills?

Actions have consequences.
Criticism lies beneath the soul.
If you can criticize, you can handle criticism in its glory.
Societies standards will always get you.
Don't misinterpret my words.
No need to be perfect.
Karma will corner you.
You turn to make a break
But this time you cannot fake and squirm your way out.
Set your standards higher.
If its recognition that your searching for.
You'll be searching until the end of days.
You want a clap?
Pat your self on the back.
Its your achievement.

Paranoia:
        Own it
Standards:
        Keep them
Mind:
        Open it
Ignorance:
        Destroy it

You have to control yourself.
Destroy the rage inside.
You've got a jet black mind and its bringing you down.
Down below the surface- becoming societies Barbie.
Put a smile on your face.
A frown in your jaw.
Hold it in until you can spill it all out.
Until life's grip has you ready to crawl.

So you had an abortion and your parents didn't find out...
            Are you proud?
So last night you got some action...
            Does it fill a void?
So now you sued you ex for all he's worth...
            Can you sleep at night?
So you slit that flesh again...
            Did it give a sense of relaxation?

Hold your paranoia.
In the end it will save you.
Cherish your paranoia.

I understand its difficult to over come life's addictions.
Its no joy ride.

I'm happy with what I do, with what I don't.
With who I am and how I've grown.
I am independent, I am strong, I am quiet, and I am loud.

I'm not knocking your priorities.
What you choose, don't complain.
Even if it causes you to lose or any kind of pain.
Don't act proud that you can stop.
An addiction is an addiction.
I'll believe it when I see it.
Don't snap when I give you an reality check.
Its not your first.
It won't be your last.

I'm not telling.
I'm only speaking the words of my brain.
Crazy, insane... but, it's what I feel and its something I had to explain.

As I take this yearned journey across the sea.
I learn from experience nothing is what the eye sees.
On and on we drift alone, noise's only of the splattering wave tone.
Time it drifts before we know, now it seems were forever alone.
The depth of the waters is cold as ice.
The fire from the sun hot enough to entice.

Flowing along on our silenced trip.
I discover a mystic ship.
A mirage perhaps? No, no.
What I see is nothing of sort.
It is indeed another boat.
Quick! Hurry. Were going to crash.

Hushed, staring thoughtless.
Mind numbing blankness.
We cannot speak; we cannot do.
We can only watch as it destroys us too.
Swiped away from our grace.
Quick its vanished before our face.

Can't stop, my rhythm, attraction, there is no control.
Ideally it would all fit like pieces of a puzzle
But nature is cruel
And this world we lean upon
Keeps on spinning even when were falling
It hurts to look back
Its scary to look ahead
Just put your trust into me, together we'll tread.
I know its not something you can easily believe
With every wrinkle of my lid, flashes a face.
Instant grin, creases, gives me a sense of grace.
Can't stop, my rhythm, attraction, there is no control.
Relief spills out as the speed turns to 70,
visions of blurred green and pavement all around me
Sky’s of blue but its hard to get past the grey,
the rain falls in sync with the tears in a freaky sort of way.
Can't stop, my rhythm, attraction, there is no control.

You deserve pain
But all you get is pleasure
It only brings you pain
Because you know you don't deserve better
Your life is lie
A treacherous scandal
You don't have anyone to grip
Nothing to help you handle
You can charm your way in and out of any situation
Make anyone fall under your devious temptation
Your mind is full of memories
You wish you didn't make
You wish you changed your life
Wish you didn't become such a fake
Your drugs are your life
Its what you've become
Nothing more than lifeless
Nothing more than numb
But on the outside
You appear normal
And in your state of mind,its nothing paranormal
And deep in your soul, the truth of who you are
You know what you have done
And nothing now
Can change what you've become
Behind who people think you are
Your nothing but a loser
A man that could have been
What many never get to be

Your sunny smile; a gift of radiance
Your scent, full of wondrous fragrant
Your bright eyes; vivid and blazing
Its you, that I am always craving

Shining intensely you glimmer and daze
You put my mind in a hazy place
My fairy tale; armored and surreal
I cannot give, you’re my Achilles heel

You never fail, to amaze and woo
With the way you move
and your nonchalant attitude

Your lustrous laughter
Saturates my ears
Your ravishing words
Can bring me to tears

You fill me with frustration
and a little bit of gloom
Its lust and trust knowing
That’s lead my to you

Sadness and torment
Fill your mind
With ideas of slow decent
Bounded by your
Damaged eyes
Its a dreaded meal
That you swallow
Understandable
Your feelings of hallow
My eyes soften as you
Explain this pain
hatred, no desire
I see you flicker
Like a candle
Dripping wax
Hardening around you
Your soul drying out
As you scream in pain
I want only for you
To lay in rest
And close your busy eyes
Burn these thoughts of sadness
Dull them away
Like Grey cloudy days
Suppressed by heavy rain

Crutches are gone
Pain and Angst gather with each glance
Wheres the you to save you
Life is skewed
Abilities foregone
Matter is higher than the mind
Painful thoughts intertwine
A perfect embarrassment
The pavement is vacant
This somebody is a nobody
Primp and proper on paper and face value
It scented with delight and magnificence
Eyes are burned with malice
You wish, take me away from this hellish place
The wrongs won't make a right
Oh **** where is that light
A hot cigarette between your fingers
A chilled beer to your lips
You coerce pain away
And until the light of day
All else is at bay
As eyes open at crease
Peace is at a fast decrease
The day grows strong as you are weakened
To pretend only strengthens your ability to
Defend
Your mind is a killer
A force to be reckoned with
An unshakable legacy
Yet rather than replenish
Its bound to diminish
Without the you to save you
Who are you?

Its hard to every think
What has been is now gone
All the plans that we've discussed
Are skewed and forlorn
My surroundings are blurred
By the burning of my tears
Wish it would all vanquish
Wish it would all disappear
Only momentarily does the pain fade away
Because today is the last day
Of you and me

Every song changes meaning
Vehicles make me tear
Every where I'm looking
Reminds me of my aching
Mind wonders constantly
Of what has been and whats to be
Never thought their would be an end
To you and me

It has ended like a mid-day rain
The clouds have faded into vapor
And the dew dries
Against the wilted leaves
Heavy with polluted water.

Every thought returns with a vengeance
Aimed at me with torture on its tongue
Roaming from one extreme to another
Determined to knock me out into a state of apathy
It builds and it builds until it topples my mind
Vines wrap sticky thorns into each wound
Vengeance shines with all its glory
It rips happiness apart at all seams
A fridge abyss drowns my mind
Filling and filling until it spreads it ugly
Stricken with hatred and rage
I'm locked in only to battle the ugly
The ugly that's forced upon me
Heavy like bricks
It picks away destroying the best within
I become what I don't want to be
Hideous with resentment and pity
No one could love a face with such ugly