My Valentine’s Day
Lonesome; at will
Suitors come about
Offering flowers whilst they kneel

They want me at their side
For them to confide
They are lonely, self-esteem lacking and deprived

On their knees
They ask of me
Revive the life back into me

But who am I?
To please these wishes
For deprivation of love
Is the reason for my existence?
Is it I? That you see?
Or the parts, you wish to take from me?

My lips to kiss.
My hips to hold.
My warm skin to touch.
Your toy to mold.

But, my love lies
In another place
An idealistic, realistic face

He knows the trail
To lead me on
With essence of ecstasy
Of which he showers upon.

You say your tears are of sorrow
I call that *******
Inside your only hallow.

I called you out,
On your foolish attempts to manipulate
I called you out,
On your ways to keep me malcontent.

You say that frown is the pain you feel
I call that *******
You have no wounds to cut so they can heal.

I called you out,
On the sadness you say you feel
I called you out,
Stop pretending any of this is real!

You make me laugh
When you act as if you’re hurt
Pity party and your guests have arrived
Trivial at best
But I must persist
Let’s all listen
As you whine and moan
No, don’t worry none of this has grown old

Now I’m insane and the laughter is gone
I’m burning hot with the rage I usually keep down
Pity party and the guests have grown weary
As you whine and moan
Yes, begin to worry because this has grown old in a hurry

The remorse settles in
And I fear the hole I dug so far
I let it take over
And the fault is my own
Tore you down to what you call tears
But trust me the guilt has stopped
It’s only the fear

A big ball of procrastination
A circle of frustration
All the pains add up
But fail when it comes to elimination.

Time and time again
I reflect on my fears
The irrationality
Builds and re-appears.

I toss and turn at night
Cringing when I wake
I try and curl back up
Its not enough of a break.

So when I rise yet again
I'll try and put a fake smile in
My eyes will frown and tears may swell
But as long as I'm smiling
No one can tell.

Slamming doors
Shouts of fury
I wish I could get away
Because this is sure to escalade in a hurry
squeeling tires and whispers of desperation
Will this end in a myocardial infarction
Mellow now
Silences deafens
Tear drops roll
And I silence my gasps
I bury my head
And try to relax

You’re gonna break this heart,
Someday--It’s true
And maybe it’ll work
In the reverse way too

Taking a shot in the dark
Even if it leaves a hole in my heart
Impart to me
Don’t leave me with a question mark

With all the evidence
So clear and subdue
It’s hard to fathom
This love I have for you

But try and understand
Those sober thoughts
Are tough withstand
Your sweet, sloppy words
Brings my heart back from remand.

There’s something ample between us
Hotter than a white tipped flame
I feel we’re riding on the cusp
Of love
Where our hearts collide and burst
More than a thirst; that can be quenched.


Alas
I do not know
To the extent of which we’ll grow
Unforeseen probabilities
Get the best of me.


Mystified by your psyche
Stitched so carefully
Pieces of you
Trace me
Goose bumps arise
If only comprehensible
I become stupefied
When I look into your eyes.


Thunderstruck!
In the times of delight
Can’t it?
Won’t it?
Just might…
I hold on
With a mental grip
Too paradoxical to make sense
To the notion of our

                                              Love.