I like things that are certain.
I like things that are concrete,
and definite, and true, and real.
But then there's you.
There's this feeling I have,
this love I never expected.
And how am I supposed to deal
with a love I never expected to have,
a love I never thought I'd need?
How can I trust myself,
to know its real, to know I'm not
exaggerating some feeling?
But then I look in your eyes,
I look there and find myself,
looking at you with all this love in my face,
all this love, that I never thought I'd have for you.
And I know that maybe it's not concrete,
but I'm certain that I love you,
more than I ever knew
I was capable of.

One day I had been broken
I'd been layed down
And covered in dust
And then one day
I was picked up
And brushed off
I'd been found
I'd been *fixed

The nausea rolls in me
Makes me want to collapse
Hit the cold tile with a thud
And maybe find some solace
On the bathroom floor

The cold water crashes into me
Colliding with my raw flesh
Burning, searing, scarring
I wish I had the ability
To faint on command

I dreamt about him last night
He's been gone for almost a year now
But he's there in my dreams
He never opens his eyes
Except when I'm there
The first few dreams were nightmares
But it's gotten better now
Only a little bit

There are these little bits of him
That bring me back
Sometimes I feel miles away
And then I hear his voice
And in an instant
I feel I'm home again
He's my person
And it's silly to believe in true love
But I love him
And I hope it's true
Because his voice brings me back
From miles away

You tied a knot in my stomach
And left it for me to untie
But your nimble fingers tied it too tight
And I can't quite get it undone

I genuinely believe
That God only puts us through
What we can handle
But then again
I also believe
That He has overestimated
My strength
Or mistaken me
For someone stronger