Falling asleep with uneven breath
So caught up in the burn of living
I'd wish for you to be here
If I knew you could actually appear
Sleep is my new religion

Burning, burning.
Light a fire
Under my skin,
In my veins.
I'll light up,
A blazing burn
So bright,
White hot.
Burn me through,
And through,
And through.

Soft pink flesh,
it's been puckered and bitten and kissed,
it's spoken words and kept great silence,
upturned corners, a wide toothy grin
a smile

I know you think I'm dumb,
a silly girl with a simple mind,
a few broken hearts in my past,
and maybe I'll let you get away with anything.

I know you think I'm dumb,
a sad girl with few hopes and dreams,
a train wreck of a life past and present,
and maybe I'll end up like they thought I would.

I know you think I'm dumb,
and maybe I am,
isn't everyone once and a while?

But I know me more than you do,
more than you'll ever hope to,
and I'm not what you think,
I'm a little more and a little less,
and nothing that you've ever known before.

The lights shine in my mirrors,
blinding me a bit,
keeping my attention,
reminding me of a story,
an axe murderer in the back of a girls car,
but I've checked the back seat twice,
and no one was there.

Sometimes, it feels as though I am suffocating
Dying, drowning, being crushed by everything
These moments, though brief they may be, are terrifying
But he takes them away
Pulls me out of this darkness
And drags me back to my sanity, my clarity
How can you tell me to give that up?
How dare you ask of me
To give up the one person
Who keeps me tethered to the rational and the real

His fingers trail along my skin
Raising goosebumps
I sigh as he drags me closer
His breath falling across my cheek
He looks me in the eye and presses his lips to mine
His tongue rasping across my lip
My fingers go to his hair
Pulling him closer
And I'll feel complete
If only for a moment