I've missed you
more so than you'd think.

I've also realized,
I have the worst luck
with love.

I feel like I didn't tell you that I loved you as often as I thought,
and that maybe if I had looked you in the eyes and told you I
loved you as deeply as I felt, I would still be able to love you in person
instead of having to hide behind words that wont come out.
And even though I can't have you now, I am loving you more deeply
than I have ever before and I would give anything now
to feel your lips against mine and to have your body close again.
I have never missed anyone so much before.
I want this feeling of emptiness to be filled with the presence of you being here, but instead my body aches with your absence.

I don't know exactly what I was feeling,
But my hands were shaking and it felt like the words
were never going to come out. My nerves had taken over,
It had been forever since I had seen you, and you...
you changed so much. You are so beautiful,
and all I wanted to do was engulf myself in your presence.
I wanted to be near you and learn everything I had missed.
I wanted to know how you though.
I wanted to know everything I could.
It had been so long, but suddenly you are so important to me.
I need you.

I can't stop thinking about kissing you.
The though of our lips meeting sends shivers through my body.
I long to hold you in my arms again,
I long to feel your breath against my neck,
and your hand on my thigh.
I ... I love you.
And it scares me to think of what I would do for you,
Because honestly, I don't know if you would do the same for me.
I have loved you unconditionally and have been nothing but loyal to you.
I was wrong about you. So so wrong.
You made me believe that I was the only one.
Obviously I am not good enough,
Will I ever be good enough?
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Why can't I stop loving you?
I want to tell you how you've hurt me,
But I'm afraid that I will send you away.
It's selfish to want you all to myself.

Time is a valuble thing;
and although it is merely a concept we came up with ourselves,
we still tresure it deeply.

"I don't have enough time"
Make your own time,
If you want so badly for something to happen,
you have to make it happen.

I've been sitting by for too long waiting for things
to fall right into the palm of my hands.
I wanted the world to give into me.
Then i realized; the world wasn't mine to dominate.
In itself, the world is it's own being,
For years its been captivating life far beyond our capibility.
And for people to think that our mother earth as just an object,
that we can take complete charge of,
is simply a misunderstood idea.

You see; you are exactly like the world,
You are your own being,
I wanted you to fall into me,
but then I realized that you can not take charge of other living things.
You have to let them live on their own.
If they so choose to do things for themselves; let them.

Live for yourself, not others.
Help out when you can.
Love often.
Let things grow.

How is it possible to miss someone,
whe you're sitting right next to them?
I guess I just missed the idea of us together.
But the thing I lack the most,
is knowing if you miss me too.

At that moment all I wanted to do,
was wrap you in my arms, and kiss your lips.
I wanted you to stay holding me forever.
For some reason, I felt safe, I felt secure.
You are extremely good at taking my pain away,
And all you have to do is just be there.